keep yourself together

it does not matter how

badly it hurts

hold yourself together

the survival of your colleagues

depends on it

do not fail them and

do not fail yourself

you are a monster, you can

prove that if you keep yourself together

hold it in, hold it in, hold it in

just keep yourself together

if you fail and everyone dies

you will be a fucking monster

my family is dead

and it is all my fault

i did not kill them but

i unwittingly aided in

every step leading up to

the night they were killed

their blood is on my hands

i am nothing and i deserve

nothing, leave me alone

their blood won’t wash off

my hands, I’d have to cut