l0st 0n land 0o0

i’m tired. but not just “didn’t sleep” tired. soul tired. bone tired. like my body keeps going but nothing inside knows why.

every time i get close to someone i feel like a stray dog trying to live in a house. like i don’t know where to put my body or how loud i’m allowed to be.

I feel like ive overstayed my welcome here on earth

It's not that I want to kill myself. No. Just if something killed me, I wouldn't be sad anymore.

I care too much, I think too much, I feel to much. Everything I do, I do too much. Yet, somehow I’m never enough.

It’s one of these days again. The kind of day where all you can do is lay down and let your thoughts take over. The kind where you can feel this unbearable sadness crushing your lungs. The kind where you want to scream and burst into tears but you just can’t bring up the energy to. The kind that makes you realize that nothing is okay and you don’t know if it will ever be. The kind of day that makes me terrified to keep living.