Everywhere all at once.

Saw Wicked For Good, and it felt like it was pushing heternormative beliefs so hard. Cause how you gonna tell me Glinda and Elphaba aren't just sapphic lovers, they look like they're about to make out every other scene!! The world is a cruel place where doomed yuri reigns supreme

Sigh I just have to say if I get one more damned Spamtenna ship art on my page, I'm going to scream. You like one thing that a friend reposted and suddenly it takes up half your For You page 💔 This is a curse I never asked for Deltrarune Tumblr community !!

To continue on after the loss of a friend is a hard thing. It's especially hard when you have to decide how you respond to it. You can choose spite and rage, that everything was their fault and if they did "x y z" everything would be perfect. And there's the decision to grow from it, to see yourself in the middle of it all, what they had done, what you had done. The problem with both choices is they're painful, but in different ways. If you choose to be angry, you pain no one but yourself, and you hold yourself back from moving on, from seeing the good. And if you choose to grow, you must keep from blaming yourself for everything while also balancing not blaming the other person. You could also do both, but then you're really just choosing option one. I am choosing to grow, as my face feels hot from rage that I can't express, and my journal can only take so many entries in one day. At the end of the day, these choices only affect you, unless of course you take your rage and swing it at the person, but that's the worse outcome out of the two choices. Life goes on even when you don't see them anymore. And all you can do is hope that they chose the right decision.

Was Cavetown created to torture you? Not literally of course but their music just resonates so much it hurts. Listening to him all day isn't saving me from my depressive slump, but I feel so comforted at the same time. Sighh need to get up and get myself together, lest I go insane.

Today my closest friend told me he didn't want to be friends anymore. I messed up and hurt him so I understand but he reassured me that we could possibly fix things in the future. In my head I'm doubting that he cares about me still, but I need to remind myself that he does. That I can trust him, like he trusted me so long ago...