no

hate that I was understanding when I should’ve just been a cunt

it meant something to me! maybe that can be enough

how was the destroying and betraying yourself for nothing was the destroying and betraying yourself for nothing fun? it didn't look fun

i don’t know. i’m barely a person. i just want to be kind and hold someone’s hand. eat an ice cream cone. stare at the lake. feel the sun on my skin. lay in the grass. run through a sprinkler. it’s so easy to forget life is supposed to feel like a deep breath and not a gasp

everythings a joke now and its all funny as fuck too but sometimes it makes me sick to my stomach

kind of weird how parts of your soul are left in various locations without any warning… like yes i’m always at the top of that hill, sitting at the bus stop, in the cool light of the Japanese restaurant, standing at the pier etc etc

whatever i wished for never happened