—— #ETOILESFANTOME. PHANTOM STARS. by rowan ( 30+, he/they) . VERSO DESSENDRE from CLAIR OBSCUR: EXPEDITION 33. independent and selective. currently high activity. canon-compliant but heavily headcanon influenced. —— CARRD. MEMES.
:: extremely ANTI-AI. DNI if you use generative AI in any capacity. ( graphics, writing, art, etc. )
blog wide trigger warnings for: suicidal ideation; descriptions of de-personalization, disassociation, and existential fears; canon-typical violence; depression; family trauma.
:: no longer tagging spoilers! due to the nature of the character, if you haven't finished the game, tread with caution. i'll happily write both painted!verso and painter!verso. i default to painted, but if you'd prefer real-world, just let me know!
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@simioso ( simon, expedition 33 )
@crosaidi ( paerin, fantasy based oc )
in canon verses, though i write all dialogue in english, he's speaking french natively and is not fluent in english. i don't know the language so i'm not even going to try to mangle it. 💀
in modern verses, his first language is french, but he does speak english with a noticable accent.
immortality is a curse he deals with no matter the verse ( aside from painter/1900s paris ).
painted verso pre-fracture and non-canvas painter verso are very similar people. however, painted verso goes through a lot of trauma, and he's very different and a lot more tired and jaded by in-game time. painted, painter, their respective childhood timelines, and the faded boy are all open for request for threads.
i have an open post-game AU where he's talked out of his plan and returns to lumiere in sort of a mixed ending. feel free to toss him in post-game stuff if you like.
he's depressed, desperate, dealing with a lot of PTSD and trauma, and frequently wars with feeling not real or like a copy of something that was supposed to be. these themes will be heavily present in canon verses.
i place him as roughly 10 years older than alicia, and about a year younger than clea. if you write either of these two and it doesn't work for you, let me know!
verso does not dye his hair. it was a smart remark he made as a joke and that was it. real verso was born with the white streak in his hair. he went through a few periods in his life where he dyed his hair black to hide it, but by the time he was an adult he stopped. painted verso also always had the white streak. [ headcanon ] [ headcanon ] [ headcanon ]
i typically headcanon that he was a little in love with both simon and julie during different parts of his life. if you write these characters, reciprocation is not expected and i won't assume.
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Gustave doesn't know all that much still about Verso, they've talked - shown bits about themselves, but there's still a part of Verso that is hidden away. Verso seems so convinced though that he is a terrible man, a person undeserving of love or a second chance, and Gustave finds he's so confused as to why the man is so convinced of that.
Gustave hums, quiet and thoughtful as he looks at Verso, tipping his head just a little. He listens, pursing his lips as he considers what Verso says, the unspoken parts of it and it makes him frown a little - just a thoughtful expression. "We have to make choices that are ugly and unpleasant. But it doesn't inherently mean that we're irredeemable or we don't get to try again." Gustave says it softly, with the gentle weight of someone who doesn't necessarily know exactly what he's going through, but he understands somewhat.
Gustave hesitates just a moment before he moves forward, careful, reaching out to touch Verso's shoulder, giving it a gentle squeeze. "I still don't think you're a bad person, nor that you're doomed by your choices. It's hard to- mm, it's hard to unbury yourself when you get under them all."
Verso's shoulder is rigid when Gustave's hand squeezes — not in response to the touch, but as a matter of course. His thoughts blaze, because Gustave isn't wrong —— there aren't many who can live a life free of regret, free of cruelty, free of mistakes —— but he would bet anything that Gustave hasn't ever——
He doesn't look over to him, and there's a long moment of silence. His gaze is held out over the world before him, craggy rock and suspended floating detritus from a world of before — but he isn't seeing much at all, his thoughts a muddled swirl of memory. There's a place he knows they'll be resting before they move into the Monolith —— a safe place, place where Esquie will bring them down and they will make camp for the night.
He knows it well; he left two journals up there because he couldn't stomach burning them.
" —— during Expedition Zero, " he says suddenly, his voice a harsh rasp, " I found out I couldn't die. My —— " He hesitates, because what were they? He doesn't know. " Julie. Her name was Julie. She saw it. She saw me die, and then not die, and I —— I couldn't just fucking tell her the truth. My father was convinced she was —— that she had been turned against us. But she was just scared. I know she was just scared. I know —— "
His mouth thins, and he's quiet for a long, long moment more; he takes in a deep breath and lets it go slow. " —— she and three others tried to —— " There's a hitch that betrays that he's really not telling the full story here, as the sheer agony that licks at the back of the words couldn't be more plain, " —— tried to convince me to tell them why. " As they tortured him —— tortured him with only terror and desperation, anger and fear taking things too far, but this he doesn't say. Perhaps he doesn't even think to say it. " I killed them all. I killed her, and I let him tell me that it was all part of some plan, and I —— " His nostrils flare. " Whatever good person I ever had a chance to be died that day. I died that day. I'm just still walking. "
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I had intended for this to go with a oneshot where Verso takes his own advice and imagines the things people of the past would say, talking to them one last time in camp before taking on the Monolith in act 2, but I never got around to finishing it... so you get the art!
Gustave has learned to trust Verso with the limb, that he understands the weight of the prosthetic and Gustave's trust with the gesture, so he doesn't blink when Verso takes it; turning away instead of watching like a hawk as his arm is taken to the bank.
"Natural curiosity of a scientist I suppose. I've read journals from the early days, books after the fracture but - so much was lost or only half written. And we've established much regarding pictos since then." Gustave says lightly, unapologetically. Warm palms press against his back and Gustave looks over his shoulder at Verso, smiling softly. "I remember seeing diagrams. Pictos carved into skin - before we learned we could tattoo some of it - summon that way. Like Lune'a tattoos." Gustave muses as he brings the soap up to his shoulder, slipping the bar over the curve of it and the curve of his neck.
He grimaces then, at the thought and nods. "Mm, it still hurts when you first start toying with it, but far less now that we know where to store the weapon, how to pull it free without our own blood and bones rearranging around it."
Gustave makes a face over his shoulder at Verso again. "Sure, good for the constitution but certainly not for morale. My morale has already been damaged enough, would you deny me a warm bathing experience? Especially after such a harrowing experience?" He's maybe being a bit playfully dramatic.
" It was all new, " he says, low, voice drifting — a little bit of old memory, a little bit of nostalgia, barriers lowered enough for the moment to be looser-tongued than he might otherwise be. " We'd used them for other things. Farming. Shows. Simon —— ah, a friend of mine —— told me they used them on the fishing boats for lights, to propel them, to keep the catches cold. But we never had to have them ready. Never had to —— " A pause, a hitch as his breath catches, and he shakes his head just a little. " Tattoos came long after my time, " he admits, wry. " It was a good idea. Is a good idea. Way better than what we had to do. "
God, though, the way the soap ( which does, for the record, work a treat ) slides over Gustave's neck, sleek and shining, makes his heart suddenly lodge in his throat and make all other thoughts swiftly swim south. He clears his throat instead, and huffs a little laugh.
" Fine, fine, twist my arm, " he sighs, and takes a little step back. When he fights, it's no secret that the element of light comes to him like second nature, imbuing almost everything he does. On the battlefield against Nevrons, it can be brutally efficient and terrifying in some ways, searing through their defenses in a way that fire doesn't quite do. But here, with brows wrinkled deeply in focus, he makes a deft gesture with fingers, calling chroma to them and molding it in ways that is probably not something those without the memory of a Painter could do. But either way: a few simple globes of light, almost painful to look at in plain air, settle into the water and slowly sink, diffusing a warmth into the ice-cold spring water that can be immediately felt. It doesn't make it hot — couldn't, really, given how much water there is — but it takes the bite away.
" Wouldn't recommend getting cozy with one, " he advises, a hint of amused rue in his voice, and he seems proud even if he doesn't say it. " When you live in the mountains for a couple decades, you learn to improvise or freeze to death. "
Gustave is enjoying the lighter side of Verso's personality, the easy way he smiles where his eyes light up with sincerity. It's a glimpse of the man beneath the deeply world weary persona that he carries normally. Even if it _is_ at his own expense, he's happy to see it. It's a reminder that they're all wearing a mask of responsibility here, but they have lighter sides.
"I see that. I suppose it's much like what I've done for my own uses." Gustave hums, thoughtful, curious as Verso joins him in the cold river. "Yes, the bath won't make it any worse. In theory anyway." Gustave says with a resigned little sigh. He carefully unhooks his arm, taking off the metal prosthetic and holds it out to Verso. The leather harness follows, curled carefully so the straps don't hit the water's surface.
Once his prosthetic is handed off, he takes the bar of soap, studying the picto carved into the soap. It's old, not near the simple symbols they use now and Gustave hums, thoughtfully as he brushes his thumb over the symbol - feeling the warm pulse of chroma as he does. "You say that, but now I find myself deeply curious." Gustave teases, casting a glance over his shoulder at Verso, lips quirking just a little. "Oh please. You don't have to make up a reason to touch me." Gustave says playfully as he reaches down to dunk the soap into the water, pleased that the warmth stays when he brings it back up to rub over his chest - lightly. He really doesn't want to dip fully into the water; though he needs to. "Ugh, any picto to warm this water? It feels like an ice box."
For all he teases, Verso is careful with the prosthetic as it's handed over — intricate and surprisingly light for what it is, the delicacy of it never fails to amaze him. He sets it on a safe place on the bank, curling the leather straps under so it's protected, and then turns back with a little smirk.
" I'm sure you are, " he says, but it's light; he'd talk about it without being pressed very much. " Frankly, it was all terribly barbaric compared to now. " He huffs softly, wading back out to press palms against Gustave's back, though he pulls a little short at kissing him there — he's tough, but that smell lingering is something. " Chroma's easier to tap into, now. It didn't used to be. It all started with the Fracture, but even then, it wasn't near what it is now. Back then, we had to use a lot of our own, " and he grimaces, faintly, though it's not a bad memory; it's just part of how things were. " And it hurt. Merde, it hurt. I had the pictos for my weapons written on my arm for awhile, and when you summoned them it felt like it was being pulled out of your bones. Someone figured out eventually how to use it from elsewhere, to store it. "
For the briefest, impish instant, he ponders wrestling them both into the cold water, but refrains — because that clearly sparks a wild and eager thought. " I do, actually, " he says with a little grin, just cocky enough. " Though, I don't know. Aren't ice baths supposed to be great for the constitution? "
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"Are you?" Gustave asks with a faintly disapproving tone to his voice, squinting at Verso as he digs through his stuff. He doesn't even remotely sound apologetic either, and it's made worse by the fact that Gustave admittedly, does find it a little funny as well, despite his exasperation with the way his clothes and his entire existence is going to smell like that nevron for longer than he'd like it to.
Verso makes a terrible joke and it serves him right that he is hit with a mouthful of the very scent he was avoiding with the sleeve across his face. "Serves you right." He grumbles, lips curving just a little into a bemused little smirk. But he pulls out a few things and Gustave shrugs off his shirt, and then stepping out of the pants as well - kicking them away with the others and he grimaces - exhausted. At least Verso has soap - however that's going to help.
Verso offers the bar of soap over and Gustave takes it with a modicum of doubt. How is this supposed to help? He squints at the soap, but heaves a sigh and lets Verso steer him towards the river, annoyance still pinching at his expression. "Chroma? How is a picto going to solve. This?" He gestures vaguely at himself as he steps into the cold river with a little shiver.
Sometimes, honestly Verso forgets — how different his experience with chroma is. Both in the truth that he was raised in an era where they were barely learning what it did and what it could do and how to utilize it, but also because he has the memories of a Painter. His fingers remember pulling at the strings of the canvas, even if he himself is far more limited.
He just grins, broadly. " Creative application of chroma mechanics, " he quips, and it has the tonality of something that he's heard before. " If it doesn't work, I don't know. Taking a bath will help more than it'll hurt. "
But anyway, he at least splashes in after kicking off his boots, hissing a breath as the cold claws up his thighs. " Here, " he says, and he smoothly activates the picto carved into the bar, which gleams silver-golden and becomes warm to the touch. " Amplification, " he says, but it's an old, old symbol, one that's been out of use for a long time; he shoots Gustave a wry look, but oh, his eyes are still dancing too much to be serious. " Don't ask how we used to use these. " Either way, he splashes at Gustave with a laugh. " I'll get your clothes. Unless, " and with a flirty little grin that's just stupid, " you want me to help scrub your back. "
Gustave turns an unimpressed look on Verso, eyebrows furrowing with a frustrated expression. "Oh don't have so much fun with this. Who's idea was it to- how did they even- ugh." Gustave wrinkles his nose in distaste, frustration visible as he looks at his arms - sticky with whatever he was hit with by the nevron. He's grateful for Verso helping out, but he's having far too much fun with this situation.
"I've never seen that nevron before either, nor have I ever witnessed that sort of attack. Ugh, I'm not even sure what kind of defense mechanism that is, nevrons don't have noses!" His face is disgruntled as he sheds out of his jacket, dropping it to the ground with disgust. "I don't want to be anywhere near when he tries that ability out." Gustave shakes his head, starting to unbutton his shirt next; only pausing to give Verso a deeply unimpressed look as he says that. "Oh darn, and there I was, hoping to go away to a dinner party."
" Sorry, sorry, " Verso says, and does he actually sound apologetic in the least? Of course not; he's fighting to keep a straight face. " I thought I caught a whiff of defeat in it before it expired. Maybe it was a gas resort. "
Now he's laughing, and when he draws in a breath he gets a mouthful of that, and god, he gags; serves him right, probably. " Okay, okay, " he titters, flipping open the book and finding some supplies - a clean knife to carve a picto into, a bar of soap in his pack. It's misshapen, but —— well, they all use what they can out here, and it's probably fortunate he has that at all.
Carefully, he carves the symbol into the soft surface, heaving again as passes it over — but he's also still grinning like a fool. " Come on, come on, I'll help, " he laughs, planting his hands on Gustave's back and steering him towards the river. " Push chroma into that, it makes it stronger. It says it can clean anything out. "
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