in my feelings

i want romance. i want intimacy. i want the 2 am love making. i want consistency, loyalty. i want the random looks of admiration. i want to know you're just for me. i want date nights. i want love so pure and true. i want it because i can return it.

i can't keep living like this!!! [does not change a single aspect of my life]

big fan of being cared about

my uncle killed my father and married with my mother and now i must *remembers that suicide jokes do nothing for my mental health and wellbeing* put on a play

recognising your parent's mannerisms in yourself and physically feeling psychic damage occur

i would be soooooo powerful if i wasn't so deeply afraid of people and places and also things

absolutely criminal how falling into bad habits is the easiest thing in the world while developing positive habits feels like fighting a literal war

the idealized version of my tomorrow self will fix this

not again

bread so tasty. bread so nice. toast it once. toast it twice.

toast three times. it turns to coal. burning toast is not my goal.

basically a lot of my problems boil down to me being really bad at waking up. and also really bad at going to sleep