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reading a historical romance novel and reflecting on the way these stories often present woke nobility for the contemporary reader. a big thing is servants. you can’t not have servants in those times but many modern readers think “but I would never have servants. it would be so weird to have servants” and in order to make the protagonists of the story more relatable they are actually friends with the servants. but flip your perspective and think of it from the side of the servants. wouldn’t it be so awful if your boss was always trying to be friends with you. a really common thing you’ll see is the woke baronet having tea in the kitchen with the servants bc he’s not like other baronets. but what if your boss wanted to hang out and talk during your lunch break every day. not so charming when you think about it that way
#okay but now what is the optimal way to be a good boss in this situation i genuinely wanna know#its easy to guess what makes a bad boss or a mid boss. but what is a good boss#specifically in such a highly structured hierarchal situation (via @rainbowroach)
HELLO you are asking questions that literature and poetry THROUGHOUT the middle ages has asked, and it is from this questioning that we derive things like the Codes of Chivalry (which is not "how to treat a noble lady really nice" but is actually "how to be an ethical person when you're rich and you own a horse" and includes such things as "don't run people over with your horse")
In fact I daresay you already know instinctively just from cultural osmosis what a good boss -- a good liege lord -- is and does based on the tropes that have survived to the current day and the kinds of things that get Hugely Praised in things like legends of King Arthur.
A good boss (liege lord) is:
Merciful. He is not having his peasants killed for things like poaching rabbits during a famine. In fact, he is working to mitigate famine. During times of individual hardship, he might negotiate with a peasant for a payment plan on their annual rent.
Patient. He is not impulsive, he does not lose his temper.
Prudent. He makes choices that are thoughtful, considered, conservative (in the sense of not needlessly risky--he's not investing his entire fortune in having everyone plant an unproven crop). He is making sure local infrastructure like roads and public buildings are maintained and kept in good nick.
Gentle. He doesn't haul off and slap a servant or a tenant for breaking a dish or making a mistake. He doesn't abuse animals, his wife or children, or his employees. He doesn't rape the servants.
Generous (both in money and in spirit). He is not extorting the peasants for an amount of rent that is beyond their means, he is not raising taxes every year to cover his own lavish lifestyle. He is paying his servants a living wage (or, if wages are low, he's giving them room/board/clothing to make up the difference). If someone in a tenant's family dies, the lord is sending a gift of condolence, or helping to pay for the funeral, or possibly even ATTENDING the funeral and speaking a few kind words about the deceased, ESPECIALLY if they were a really upstanding and important member of the community. If one of his tenants is gravely sick, the lord is sending a basket of food or paying for a doctor. He is giving charitably (generally this will be, like, a bequest to the church so that they can run a hospital or an orphanage or a school for the local village children).
Pious. This classically means "goes to church, submits with humility to God" but to me this quality is subtextually standing in for "maintaining an ongoing sense of Perspective that HE'S not god, that there are higher powers he is Accountable to, that he too can be Judged, etc, so that he doesn't end up going on a weird fucked up power trip"
Humble. One of the most admiring things you hear about a lord doing in literature and epic poetry is, "He ate off of wooden plates while his followers ate off of gold and silver." Humility isn't about being meek, it's just about not thinking so much of yourself that you turn your nose up and sneer at what "lesser" people do. In other words: Don't be a fucking diva. If your carriage gets stuck in the mud, climb out and help everybody else push, you're not gonna die from getting mud on your shoes.
Condescending. This word has changed wildly in meaning/tone over the last couple centuries -- it's now a rude thing to do (because we've done away with legal social hierarchies, so someone acting like they're lowering themselves to your level IS insulting), but in older times, a high-ranking person "condescending" to a servant was worthy of praise and admiration: it means they were setting aside rank and privilege to speak to them with the easygoing, friendly respect and compassion they'd give a peer. This is things like... Treats those beneath him with courtesy and respect (ie: listens soberly and attentively when one of his servants or tenants comes to complain about a problem). Having a sense of humor and kindness about it when the lord and a servant both come around a corner at the same time and run into each other and the servant gets knocked to the ground and starts babbling apologies--the condescending (positive) lord helps them to their feet with his own hands and cracks a joke to show them that it's ok (as opposed to just walking off without a word or insulting/scolding them). This is also things like trusting a farmer, woodcutter, or artisan to speak with expertise about their own livelihood and taking their advice into consideration if they tell the lord that one of his ideas won't work.
Good boundaries. The ethical liege lord knows that it's normal for the staff to probably be softly bitching about him in private (even with a really good boss, we all grumble from time to time). He's not eavesdropping on them, he's not going into the staff areas where they should reasonably expect to have a degree of privacy, etc.
Righteous and protective of "the weak". The "weak" here doesn't necessarily mean physically weak, this is often used in the sense of someone politically or socially weak, aka The Marginalized -- the poor, the disabled, women, children, the elderly, etc. If a lord sees someone like this being mistreated or abused, he's supposed to step in and put a stop to that.
Committed to reciprocity. In a highly hierarchical system like feudalism, every person (from the lowest peasant all the way up to the crown prince) legally OWES their liege lord certain things (taxes, labor, service, loyalty, etc). A good liege remembers and takes very seriously the idea that this should be a balanced and reciprocal relationship -- in other words, he owes something BACK. Feudalism is modeled very strongly on the family system: If children owe their parents obedience and service, then parents owe their children care and protection. This still applies when the "child" is a farmer and the "parent" is a local baron. Or when the "child" is a duke and the "parent" is the king.
Basically, we get so caught up in the aesthetics of nobility that we forget that it literally is a managerial position that comes with responsibilities that were... very similar back in the day to the same ones we have now. Humans have not changed all that much. At the end of the day, a really good boss in the 1400s versus in one from the 2020s displays most of the same qualities of personality, even if the details of execution are different.
The next question is, of course, "well, but this theoretical liege lord is HIGHLY idealized -- how often did that actually HAPPEN? Wasn't it more likely that everyone was exploited all the time?" and to that I say: Well, maybe. But again, I don't think humans have changed all that much. Just like the bosses of today, there's a SPECTRUM: A really really good boss is rare and precious and one that you tell stories about for years after you've left that job, but a truly, genuinely, homicidally nightmarish boss is also pretty rare. Most bosses are sort of meh -- they have their good moments, they have their shitty moments, but they're tolerable and you can get along with them well enough to do your job, and then you roll your eyes at them behind their back. Generally, humans don't take outright exploitation lying down. Being a bad boss in the historical period is how you get peasant uprisings and revolts, and you know that to be true because your parents raised you with that knowledge, so unless you are very stupid or inbred or an egomaniac, there is literal personal incentive to at minimum be a Tolerable liege lord. And that means hitting at least SOME of the above bullet points.
TL;DR: In the words of Honore de Balzac, "Everything I have just told you can be summarized by an old word: noblesse oblige!"
(for more discussions of the ethics of fealty and what it means to be a good boss when you are an exquisitely beautiful twink of a prince with a hot beefy bodyguard.... [fingerguns] read A Taste of Gold and Iron)
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When the sun set over Lower La Noscea and painted the windmills of the Grey Fleet red, Joshua knew he would be in trouble; he did not care. Instead he pulled his knees closer to his chest to sink his face into and sighed. His axe laid on the ground where it had bounced off the rock he sat against.
Laura will be worried, he thought, she'll be looking for me if I'm not home by dark. Or that was what he told himself to drown out what she said two bells past:
"Ye should be on your knees thanking me fer bringin' ye in! Yer a swivin' kid and I ain't shared my bed with anyone 'cause everyone knows ye cough through th' night! Can't take ye out to save th' refugees, can't sell popotoes to a popoto, what are ye even good for?! If I found yer brother I swear I'd just-"
That was enough for him to spring back up on his feet, snatch up the axe and give the rock a few more notches. Blunted metal didn't ring as cleanly when it struck but at least it felt good. When the axe lowered and silence returned, the boy's ear pricked at the rustling grass. He expected dodos or a curious cluster of mandaragoras; a pack of wolves circling him was not on his list.
One on the left, one to the right, one behind. Joshua's heart was supposed to skip a beat. A pit was supposed to form for his stomach to drop into. Instead his fingers uncurled, dropping the axe. No one would see him stare dully at the ground, his shoulders drooping as he hollowed out till only one thought remained.
Izzy doesn't know I'm here, he won't know if I'm torn apart by wolves, he won't care-
"JOSHUA! JOSHUA? SHOUT IF YE HEAR ME, DAMN IT!"
A single lamplight bounced in the distance. Both wolves and elezen turn to the new voice. "Laura?" It's soft, barely audible except to the wolves.
"I see somethin' up ahead!" A shrill voice beside Laura starts, the shape of Miqo'te ears clearly wagging even in the darkening sky. "'e's got company, miss! Stand back!"
The wolves kicked up dust and grass as they sprinted towards the approaching figures. Now his heart jumped. It's three against two, they'll be surrounded. He snatched up his axe and started running. "Get away from them!" he shouted, launching his axe at the wolves. He couldn't see where it went but he heard the sharp yelp before the axe landed.
Laura waved her lamp at the two advancing wolves, pushing them a step back but stayed put as they growled. The miqo'te - a Yellowjacket now that she was closer - lifted her axe high above and brought it down on the wolf's skull. Realising it was now outnumbered, the remaining wolf crouched, before turning tail and fleeing into the grass.
Joshua searched the area for his axe - now harder without the sun or the moon with the lamp lighting only their torsos - so intently that it took Laura grabbing him by the shoulder to get his attention. "Ye alright, Joshua?" Despite the worry in her voice and face, he narrowed his eyes, jaw so tense the miqo'te guard could hear his teeth grinding.
"She wouldn't let me finish my shift wi'out finding ye, lad," the miqo'te shrugged, crossing her arms with a sigh. "Say yer sorries and let's head back 'fore more wolves sniff out their dead kin."
The rage roiled in his stomach. The hollowness, space for the fire to grow. The audacity of the Yellowjacket to assume it was his fault when she started it, because children were troublesome weren't they? Joshua sucked in his breath, about to make it a problem for the whole island when Laura spoke up.
"...Joshua, I'm sorry. For ev'rythin' I said. I know 'm bad at words and you…yer not a bad kid, aight? You're rough 'round the edges and ye flare up quick, but you're smart and quick on yer feet. Look 'ere, see? Tha's where your axe landed." The lamp drifted to the ground: Joshua's axe was embedded in the side of a dead wolf at their feet. "You'll be a fine man, kid. I mean it." She gripped his shoulder, her voice quiet with awe and regret.
He'd be lying if he said he wasn't angry anymore, though. "I suppose I could forgive you this time, like when you said the same thing last week." He rolled his eyes at the miqo'te, shrugging Laura's hand off. The Yellowjacket miqo'te, in turn, raised an eyebrow at the female hyur. "But I'll accept a new axe for saving your life," he added.
Laura was skeptical. "Wot, just an axe? No grovelling on the ground or anything?"
"If you wish, but you'd be grovelling every other day if you did," he deadpanned.
That got him a nervous chuckle from her. "Well, that's mighty mag- maga- generous of you!"
"Magnanimous."
"Wot?"
"Magnanimous. That's the word you were looking for." By the Fury, she really was shite with words.
Laura grinned at the Yellowjacket, "Told ya he's a smart one! He's gonna be a damned good marauder when he comes o' age in two summers! Eh?" She rocked Joshua left and right from his shoulder while he avoided eye contact with her.
The miqo'te was less impressed. She wasn't getting any overtime for this. "Can we go now?"
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loveeee characters who think they're likable but not lovable. characters who know they have surface-level admirable or alluring traits and so make sure to highlight those traits so that nobody looks closer to see what's underneath. characters who know they're hot or clever or cool and use that as a suit of armor so that no one ever gets close to them, because when they strip bare and show their vulnerability they're not any of those things, which means they have nothing left to make up for who they inherently are
Ship and OC Relationship Creative Process Ask List.
I am still pondering how best to approach some sort of "ship" for one of my OCs, but it's proving to be quite the challenge to wrap my head around. So what better way to learn more about how other people approach the topics of sex and relationships with their characters than to put together a little Ask List. Not just focussed on ships between OCs and canon characters, but also open to relationships between your OCs - or your OC and someone else's OC (or OCs, as we are all very polyamory inclusive around here).
Did you create your OC with a plan to ship them with a specific character or another OC? Or was their relationship something that evolved all by itself?
How important is your OCs relationship(s) to their story? Would it still make sense without it? Or is their connection to this other character integral to their development?
Were there any barriers to you establishing your OCs relationship? Perhaps social or cultural stigma? Or a concern that "ships" with that character were already overdone? Or simply a fear of being seen as "cringe"? If so then how did you overcome this?
How graphic or explicit are your explorations of sexual interactions involving your OC? Do you happily name body parts and actions? Or do you prefer to leave the mechanical details to the imagination?
If your OC's relationship involves a gender or orientation different to your own then how confident did you feel about exploring or writing this? If your OC and the character(s) with whom they are in a relationship are the same as you in terms of gender/orientation then was this a conscious decision?
How easy do you find it to write (or otherwise portray) non-sexual affection between characters? This might include terms of endearment, "pet-names", descriptions of cuddling or stroking the other's head in their lap etc.
How important is other people's investment in (or enthusiasm for) your character's relationship? Was this a consideration when you were planning it? Have you ever changed a character's relationship(s) due to other people's response to it?
To what degree do you use your OC as a means to explore your own romantic proclivities (or shortcomings)? Is your OC a self-insert and the relationship a form of wish-fulfilment and/or an means to explore certain fantasies? Or do you enjoy exploring something completely different to your own experiences and preferences?
How confident are you in writing about or otherwise portraying kissing between characters? Did this take practice? How much detail is enough? How much is too much?
Is it important to include tension or outright areas of conflict in a relationship? If so then how do you explore these? Or does this not appeal to you?
Does it matter to you how many other people also ship their OC with a particular character? Would this make it more likely that you will compare your material to theirs? Or does this not enter into your thinking?
How much does your OC's background and origin affect their approach to relationships? Are there specific insecurities or preferences that lead on from their past?
How easy do you find it to write romantic (or sexual) dialogue for your OC? If they are in a relationship with a canon character then how difficult is it to keep these interactions faithful to their established character and communication style?
How do you feel about answering questions about your characters sexual/romantic activities or preferences in character?
Did you build up to your OC being in their relationship? Or did you put them into it quite quickly and then filled in the background in retrospect.
Is there a relationship between characters in another setting that particularly inspired you? What is it about this portrayal that you enjoy?
Does it matter whether other people consider your OC sexually attractive? Did this inform your thinking when you were creating them? Also was it important that you put them in a relationship with a character who is generally considered "attractive"?
Do you have specific music that makes you think about your OCs relationship?
Do you have a sense of how your OCs relationship will evolve in the future? Or is it quite a fixed in terms of dynamics and story?
Is it easy to write or otherwise portray other characters (or OCs) reactions to your OCs relationship? Are these interactions important to your characters story? For example, is the relationship one that can be publically acknowledged?
How important is it that your OCs relationship is "realistic" for the setting in terms of the characters values and attitudes? Or are you happy to explore psychological or sexual issues that might more reflect contemporary concerns?
Do you consider your OC to be sexually attractive? Or pretty/handsome? Would you still be able to write about their relationship if you didn't?
What is something you feel you have improved at in terms of portraying sexual or romantic relationships?
How do you feel about people producing fanart of your character's relationship or ship? If this were NSFW would you want to be asked first?
Other than your own characters' relationships, can you give an example of someone who is particularly good at writing or otherwise portraying romantic and/or sexual relationships? What is it about their work that really stands out for you?
Have you given much consideration to specific "kinks" or sexual likes and dislikes for your character? If so then is this something you feel comfortable talking about or describing?
Is there a particular "trope" for relationships that you especially enjoy - e.g. enemies to lovers etc - and is this something that you set out intending to explore?
Is there something you historically felt (or still feel) awkard about describing in terms of your character's relationships? Whether sexual acts, bodyparts, pillow talk, romantic declarations or using the "L word". How did you overcome this (if you ever have)?
What makes a scene or situation "romantic" in your opinion? Is this something you find easy to portray?
What advice do you have for someone considering creating a ship for their character? Or for someone unsure about writing relationships and/or sexual scenarios?
When portraying romantic or sexual scenarios involving your OC, do you aim to inspire a particular response in the reader or viewer? Whether a warm fuzzy feeling, or getting really quite turned on (or possibly both)?
If you ship your OC with a particular canon character, then what was it about that character that drew you to them? Is it that you have a certain "type" when it comes to shipping? Or did you surprise yourself with who you felt drawn towards? If your OC is in a relationship with another OC then did you change any aspects of either of their backstories or personalities to make this work?
To what degree is your OC a self-insert, particularly in terms of their relationship? Do you sometimes use your character's relationship to explore your own feelings about a canon character or another OC?
How confident are you in writing angst or portraying conflict or tension within a relationship? Or is this something you avoid? If so is this because it doesn't much interest you? Or because you're unsure how to approach it?
Is there a way in which your portrayal of your character's relationship subverts the reader or viewer's expectations? Was this deliberate?
How do you ensure that the dialogue (or other portrayal) of a canon character is true to their personality and (more importantly) way of speaking? Do you spend time studying their "official" dialogue in order to get it sounding authentic? Or did it just come naturally?
What is something you try to avoid - or think everyone should try to avoid - when portraying sex and/or relationships with their characters?
What is your favourite depiction of romance (or sex if you prefer) that you have produced? Or if you haven't produced one yet, then what is your favourite example from another creator?
What, if any, is your biggest source of fear or anxiety when it comes to writing or otherwise portraying romantic or sexual scenarios?
What is something that your friends or mutuals could do to support and encourage you when it comes to your creativity around your OCs relationship(s)?
Did you create your OC with a plan to ship them with a specific character or another OC? Or was their relationship something that evolved all by itself?
The only character that follows the former is Zorya, who I made with @housedeaubemarle to experiment with vanilla couple gposes, following a person I follow on Twitter who does this with elezens.
I don't actively pursue relationships because online friendships from RPs are...brittle. One day you're both fine, then someone posts an apology for going silent and that their chara is now single. The ones I currently have (Escher x Adrian, Ross x Kin) came about after many, many years of slow burn friendship to lovers RP, and yet there is a voice at the back of my mind reminding me only death and taxes are eternal.
So uh. Treat RP relationships like actual ones. With care and commitment and carving out time for it if you really want it. Ok bye.
3. Were there any barriers to you establishing your OCs relationship? Perhaps social or cultural stigma? Or a concern that "ships" with that character were already overdone? Or simply a fear of being seen as "cringe"? If so then how did you overcome this?
Only the fear of having to explain why my character is suddenly single if it doesn't work out. It's never occurred to me to ship my OCs with NPCs, just never really had any chemistry with them? And FFXIV has a LOT of NPCs. Should I be worried?
4. How graphic or explicit are your explorations of sexual interactions involving your OC? Do you happily name body parts and actions? Or do you prefer to leave the mechanical details to the imagination?
Isillud was specifically created for me to practice writing erotica. That's it, that's the answer.
The only reason I fade to black is if the other person prefers it or I run out of RP time.
5. If your OC's relationship involves a gender or orientation different to your own then how confident did you feel about exploring or writing this? If your OC and the character(s) with whom they are in a relationship are the same as you in terms of gender/orientation then was this a conscious decision?
This line from the movie 'As Good As It Gets' stayed with me:
How do I write women so well? I think of a man and I take away reason and accountability.
I write male & female charas based on their personality; no gender is immune/susceptible to faults/quirks. No one's told me I'm writing men wrong so I guess I'm doing it right? Or maybe everyone's too polite, in which case here's your chance to tell me and help correct this!
Ireul is the only one who's in a relationship the same as my gender/orientation (with an OC I made hahaha), and I'd say it was definitely a conscious decision. Ireul started as an online avatar that's followed me through many MMOs over the years so I'm much more attached to her than my regular RP charas. If the best way to maintain that is to make her a boyfriend, so be it.
8. To what degree do you use your OC as a means to explore your own romantic proclivities (or shortcomings)? Is your OC a self-insert and the relationship a form of wish-fulfilment and/or an means to explore certain fantasies? Or do you enjoy exploring something completely different to your own experiences and preferences?
I will never be able to experience gay male sex in my life.
Then when I'm horny for teh h3t I use Ireul to gpose.
10. Is it important to include tension or outright areas of conflict in a relationship? If so then how do you explore these? Or does this not appeal to you?
I like the dramatic tension and look forward to how it resolves, but I've learned it's stressful hoping the RP partner is fine with it and whether this will make or break the friendship. So...I'm torn.
14. How do you feel about answering questions about your characters sexual/romantic activities or preferences in character?
I've only been able to do this with Isillud. The rest won't tell me what they like.
19. Do you have a sense of how your OCs relationship will evolve in the future? Or is it quite a fixed in terms of dynamics and story?
No, that's part of the fun. Escher and Adrian have been dating for 3 years and they still haven't banged it's becoming a running joke. Ross and Cres were doing fine until Cres's manifestation of her inner nihilist shattered her memories and they've had to restart their relationship from scratch.
24. How do you feel about people producing fanart of your character's relationship or ship? If this were NSFW would you want to be asked first?
I'm flattered you love my charas to draw them but please ask me before you start drawing so that you don't waste your time portraying them OOC and then get mad if I point it out.
35. Is there a way in which your portrayal of your character's relationship subverts the reader or viewer's expectations? Was this deliberate?
People get surprised when they find out Ross isn't entirely gay.
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With @escherstrange who also took the beautiful Gposes of this little encounter٩(^ᗜ^ )و ´
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Greenery in Ishgard is a luxury and a half; therefore, a cafe covered in plants while still maintaining a comfortable temperature for its patrons is something only the highborn could have afforded. And one of their number, Dowager Viscountess Philomene de Aubemarle, currently sits comfortably at a private table, full tea service upon it, sipping good quality tea (it'd better be good), evidently awaiting someone. Beside her, her lady's maid stands ready to execute instructions at a moment's notice.
The retainer can be heard a malm away clomping in his boots, his steps too heavy for such a genteel place. Finnegan scans the area and recognizes the old lady who gave him the initial order, her maid fussing over her tea (it should be good).
"Madame," he starts, "The message has been sent to the Sharlayan. He sends this note in return." He carefully hands the note over, waiting for her to receive it.
'Thank you. The gil will cover the overdue fees.
-- Professor E. Coli.'
The way madame looks up is more serene than the expression on her face. "Ah, Master Courier, a good afternoon to you," she says, despite the tinge of disapproval at all his clomping about. She takes the note, gives it a once over and snorts. "Certainly succinct." She looks up at the Viera and nods towards the chair in front of her. "Please, sit. I would ask for your account of this... professor, if you'd be so kind."
Finnegan is about to open his mouth, then clamps it shut. He tells himself she must not get out much; that's why she wants to know more. Otherwise what else was there to say. When he sits a cup of tea is immediately poured out for him; he's uneasy at being treated so well.
"He's got pink hair. Not much to say apart from taking the gil and saying, 'About damned time'. Looked into the pouch and counted the gil. He was off by five hundred for some reason. You'd think those smart types would know how to count."
Philomene's smirk is tiny amongst the fine lines on her face. "Perhaps more preoccupied with loftier ideas than banal money matters, or so I'm given to understand. Did my additional incentives bear any fruit?" The smirk grows a little wider. "Or am I to wait for information from across the star, just like he has for his tome?"
"Ah, right, that." He reaches into his pouch and pulls out a small sheaf of notes. "Ms Yuyuwa was a fairly well known personage, and since she lived her life very much in the Sharlayan manner, there was a fair amount of information. I was directed to her grandniece, who had a lot to say about her." He slides a small, stitched notebook over.
The notes apparently seem dictated by Yuwawa, perhaps because the transcriber thought it best to bring back the information as-is. As such there is rambling about Yuyuwa's best qualities in between important bits of information about her career in astromancy and perhaps cooperative dealings with Vouloix, though one has to sit and skim through it.
This is clearly a large surprise to the older woman across the table; her eyebrows actually rise, accompanied by widened eyes. She reaches for the notebook, and opens it, flipping slowly through the initial pages. There's a lot of detail, far more than she'd anticipated. One more flip of a page, and she looks up. Her sharp brown eyes, previously full of judgement, actually have some measure of gratification in them. "You'll pardon me for my lapse in memory. What is your name, young man?"
"Finnegan, Madame." He doesn't give his last name because nobody's ever asked for it.
The Dowager nods. "Finnegan..." Based on all she knows from Etoile, no doubt a chosen name of his own. "Is that your given name?"
"It's the name I give myself, madame." He takes a sip of tea and he's floored by how much flavour it has. "Been in the city my whole life."
"What, in Ishgard? Then how singular a moniker to style oneself under, though our traditions for vowels and consonants can be... convoluted." She sips her tea, perfectly used to this level of fragrance. "Was there no other name you desired to have, Mr Finnegan?"
"No, just not where I'm supposed to be." He takes a bigger less genteel sip. This tea is good. "Viera only know two places: the city, and the wood. If I'm not in the wood then I'm in the city." He shrugs, looking hungrily at the pastry laid out on the table. "Finnegan sounded nice, I guess, madame."
"Hm." She looks back at the notebook in her hands thoughtfully, opening it up again to look at the pages. "Well, I suppose I may understand that - if I'm not in Ishgard then I'm no longer on this plane of existence." She brushes her fingers across the page, not noticing the hungry eye he's giving the treats. "Was it your hand that wrote out this... grandniece's recounting?"
Finnegan's hands start to twitch and fiddle. It appears he must contend with eating with his eyes, though her maid might notice his ears twitching. "It was - knowing one's letters is important to sell things on the market boards."
The Dowager's lady's maid, Nisette, smiles a little to herself at the telltale quiver of his long dark ears. She pushes the plate of various pastries - eclairs, danishes, and other baked goods - just a wee bit over: a silent invitation to partake. The Dowager doesn't appear to notice, asking, "I shall risk vulgar assumption and guess you learned them after your arrival to the city. For my meagre knowledge of your traditions indicate that the men of the Viera are made warriors, not scribes."
Finnegan's eyes are drawn immediately to the pastries that has been nudged closer to him. His hand hovers over the pastries before lifting a danish to his mouth. "Mmh." He does not seem to care what her assumptions are. "Depends on the tribe. Most Rava train their kits in combat; mine weren't so strict." He speaks with a full mouth.
An eyebrow lifts slightly, the previous shine Finnegan had earned dulling just a touch at the faux pas. "No indeed." She tilts her head slightly. "A steady hand, given the circumstances. This person you spoke to had quite a lot to say about Ms Yuyuwa; it must have been a gallop to keep up."
"She was pretty excited to talk about her grand aunt." To Finnegan, manners just meant no elbows nor crumbs at the table. Nobody mentioned chewing when one's mouth is overly full, which is why he continues. "The pink prof warned me about Ms Yuwawa beforehand, said that she'd a reputation for talking peoples' ears off."
The raised eyebrow twitches. Nisette, recognising the tell, reaches over to refill the Dowager's teacup. In the meantime, the lady continues: "I note the address on the front page. Sharlayans are famed for their love of knowledge; I'd no idea they ought to be commended for being so open." She had to smile slightly despite the less than stellar table manners. "Whatever did you tell her about this stranger from Ishgard?"
To his credit, Finnegan had left no crumbs on the table from his devouring of the danish. He picks up an eclair as dessert for dessert. "She asked who was asking, and I said the wife of the man who worked with her grand aunt. Can't say she knew anything about him, though, in fact she sounded like she probably didn't know about him. Maybe too old."
"...yes. Perhaps." This older noble woman seems to only subsist on liquids judging by how she hasn't touched a single biscuit or brioche. "Indulge me, Mr Finnegan - since it was through the retainer vocate that we made our acquaintance, are you in the employ of anyone else in particular? Or are you a free agent?"
Finnegan begins to wonder what's up with this old lady - surely a woman of her stature with a maid has no shortage of friends? "I currently work for two people - a retainer can work for any number of people provided they can handle it. One of them's an Ishgardian, the other's starting to come to Ishgard more often, which is how I know my way around."
Her tone is one of polite curiosity when she asks, more directly: "And how do you find working for that Ishgardian?"
Finnegan stops mid-sip. "Uh, that would be a private matter, I'm afraid, madame. Talking about one's employers is a breach of privacy." He keeps it as formal as possible. He wasn't paid to be her gossip-mate, after all.
There's a slight pause as she looks at him carefully, then glances at her lady's maid. Some kind of silent exchange follows before her ladyship sets down her cup with a lighter expression, and a small smile. "And I would hope you would apply such integrity if you agreed to work for myself on a longer term basis." And a smile also slips onto Nisette's face, though she hides it away quickly.
The viera finally puts his cup on the table. "Wait, was this an interview?"
The smile on her ladyship's face widens slightly. "If we find ourselves agreeing on terms, then yes, it was. If we do not, then it was merely a little conversation over tea."
"It's policy for retainers to only be employed by a retainer vocate. If you agree to the terms you can request for my services and they'll reach out to me about it." He leans forward slightly, "We didn't really discuss terms though, only that you wanted me on a long-term basis. There's rates to consider - by job or the bell - and the scope of duties and preferred duration." He ticks his fingers off as he lists it down.
"Your scruples do you credit, Mr Finnegan," she says in dry amusement. "My requests of you are straightforward I believe: I wish to hire you as a courier between myself and my correspondents out of Ishgard. I would rather my letters be carried by someone as attentive to details as you have been. The other is on behalf of my son, Lord Remont de Aubemarle. He has developed a standing arrangement to transport caelumtree wine from their concern in Tailfeather to a certain tavern here in the city. However, owing to his added duties, I took it upon myself to find someone trustworthy to oversee delivery; about once a moon, as far as I understand." She smirks wider. "Though in this, I would ask you to indulge in some very minor subterfuge."
"Courier work is fairly easy. You don't seem like someone who has things to transport to Ilsabard or Meracydia." He shudders a little at the thought. "Subterfuge. What do you need me to look out for?"
Amazingly Philomene lets out a chuckle. "Fury save us, nowhere so far flung, and nothing so dire. Merely that I ask you to present yourself to Lord Remont as a recommendation from a business associate, rather than his mother who should have thoroughly no knowledge nor concern in his affairs." Her lips tug upwards at the corners. "At least not obvious concern."
"You're asking me to keep our conversation from your son."
Philomene just picks up her cup again and sips. "I don't expect you to divulge information if it isn't asked, nor lie if it isn't needed. Besides, 'Talking about one's employers is a breach of privacy' - is it not?"
Her comment makes him smirk - it is indeed rare for him to smile. "Talking about them is a breach of privacy indeed; revealing who sent me isn't. But if the request is to keep your involvement secret, it can be done." He might as well take a sausage roll for what it's worth. "The vocate will lay out the rates for jobs like these. Pay it and I'll see it done."
"I shall speak with the vocate. And if I pay double, can I expect to see it done first, ahead of other duties?" She raises her eyebrows inquiringly. "Or does this old lady ask too much?"
Finnegan's eyes grow wide. This is more than he's paid from his other employers. "It can be made a priority, yes."
The smile on her face is one of satisfaction. Philomene enjoys getting what she wants. "Then we can consider this interview a success." She looks at the table and shakes her head. There are at least two other full, untouched plates of pastries and finger sandwiches. "I really must speak with the proprietor - she is far too generous to me." The dowager looks up with a calm sort of air. "I wonder, Mr Finnegan, if you have any acquaintances with which you can share these. It wouldn't do to return these uneaten and offend the chefs here."
The way Finnegan is almost drooling implies he has a very exact idea of what to do with the pastries. "I have an inkling - you're sure it's alright to take these?"
"Mais oui, I would be most obliged. Please do stay and enjoy them at your leisure; you may take the rest with you to share with your friends when you're done. I'm afraid I have another appointment to keep, and so must take my leave." Just as she stands, Nisette hands her a walking stick. One hand curls around the carved Hornbill head of a handle. "Thank you, Mr Finnegan. I look forward to your good work."
Finnegan wastes no time in pouring himself another cup of tea and half-stuffing a sandwich into his mouth. "Thank YOU madame, I look forward to working with you."
She nods her head, making a mental note to send him a booklet on table manners with the next job, and takes a step away. Then she pauses and looks back. "Do you know, I picked you out of the list of retainers first due to your name?" Her brown eyes gleam. "Guillam was a very Ishgardian name. I thank the Fury She pointed me to it." And with that, she leaves, quicker than the walking stick would indicate. Nisette gives a polite bob of a curtsey and follows closely behind her employer.
Finnegan looks up sharply at the dowager's back, a tuna sandwich half-dangling out of his mouth. He seems surprised to hear the reason of his selection - most just look at his track record. When he's finally alone with some good food that will last him for days, he gives himself the allowance to be amused at fate's strange ways.
Veils of Gold, as experienced by Lord Joshua de Losstarot (Part 3 - Final)
Day 9:
Today we prepare for battle.
The three noble houses have not fared well in their individual skirmishes and return to regroup. More wood chopped for the palisades. Drouhont got out of the infirmary to bring me breakfast, which makes me wonder if he's touched in the head AGAIN - who knows how, judging from his behaviour in the past week if he rolled off the bed he'd hit his head on the floor and I wouldn't be surprised one whit.
Though we get an extra helping of meat for energy to raise spirits and energy; no point in keeping food to myself so I gave Drouhont some and brought what I could carry to the soldiers who loitered around. They gave us the same look I gave Drouhont so I sent him off and sat with them. My supplies are meagre - they were meant to supplement my team - but if vegetables and fruit that remind them of home can make their possible last meal more appetizing, so be it. It's the same regardless of the colours they fly - someone waiting back home, fear of dying, or turned to Shriven, bawdy jokes and the woman who marched up to the brothel demanding free sex for all. No matter where, people will bring home with them, and I thank you for bringing your home to us.
Should I not make it ẗ̵́͊́͊e̷̝̰͒̈́l̵̎̄̎͑l̷̆̄̄͠ ̴̀̅̂͠i̵͓͑͒͠z̷̍́͒̍z̵̅̿̈́͘ŷ̵͖̞̰ ̶͖͋̚͝i̷̞͌̈́̐ love him I have provided strict instructions to bring this journal to you, in hopes you will glean what you need. May it serve you well.
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Day 10:
Joshua spent the day in the infirmary thanks to Drouhont where he spent the day coughing and gasping for breath as if dust filled his lungs. Outside, a soldier yells at him. His friends hold him back:
"Sat with us and broke bread, you did, fooled us all thinking you weren't like the rest! Where were you when the damn white horse charged at us?! Do you even remember who among us died?!"
The lordling did not hear them for in his illness, he had become the sickly child he once was, pleading for his brother:
"Izzy, Izzy, it hurts, Izzy, where are you, please, I-"
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Day 11:
Drouhont fills him in on what had happened and what will happen. He can't help but rub salt in. "You'll continue on even though you'll kill your 'boyfriend'? Don't forget you still have a family portrait to paint." He tells Drouhont to at least give his armour a little spit and wipe. Can't have him shaming the House.
He hides in his blanket, wrapped in shame and anger of returning before the end.
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<Blessings of the Great Father, descend and guide this body's return>
In the morning, Joshua Losstarot can breathe again. Was it medicine? An unknown concoction? The same miracle that cured him of his cursed stomach pains in the Coerthan highlands? He takes a few deep breaths. The air is heavy outside but his lungs are clear. He will not make the same mistake a third time: beneath under his helmet he ties a mask around his nose and mouth. Drops of peppermint and lavender to fool himself that it protects against the Veil's haze.
His armour will see its last battle here. He will not bring it home. He goes to the smiths and hands them his axe, stained red from a boy's head. "Please clean and sharpen this," he says, handing the last of his gil.
<Great Father, guide this spirit's return to the Dark, mother of all>
Vykard will not welcome Joshua - has he ever? But he receives a crate from the lordling regardless. A flamethrower with Skysteel Manufactory's stamp on the tank. Loaded with fire crystals, enough to burn a field of Shriven for half a minute.
"You look like a man who's got a lot to burn. I hear it's almost as good as having legs." He pats the crate before leaving. "You wouldn't think of leaving it to waste, would you?"
<There, you shall find peace.>
The soldier who yelled at him spots Joshua, but something in the boy stops him. Joshua strides past. His fight is not with them nor for them. That is tomorrow's battle.
"Faram."
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Day 12:
A boy sits while his knight grieves.
He runs numbers in his head: What to mend? Who to pay? How much to save?
The payment barely covers a month's costs. "Lucky them," he grumbles.
The grail: another voidsent parlour trick.
He berates himself for time wasted. Everything has a price, but
lives for life? Too dear, indeed.
How noble to clamour for common desires.
(His brother was a thousand thousand times more beautiful anyway)
There was no return to square one. The knowledge stays in the mind,
the sacrifice in the heart - what meagre space he affords.
The horn appears before the isle.
Childhood joys scrawled on its side, love prevailing through the clouds.
His heart sinks deep,
deep,
deep in the pits of his gut and stays.
"Oh gods, he came back."
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Final Entry:
Lord Marcelloix,
Lord Aurore sacrificed himself to destroy the grail. House Ailroyant stays behind Saint Finnea's Veil, never to return. The sky is blue, and the winds are calm.
It is done...or so we think. There are too many questions, too many what-ifs, too many killed for a betrayal centuries past. And amidst the long list of casualties...no, this isn't about who made the bigger sacrifice. Halone doesn't make such distinction when we return to her halls. But Ishgard was built on a foundation of treachery and lies; the Warrior of Light only exposed the cracks. Now the cracks creep up around the nobles' towers, disguised with vines for decoration. The stones that built Ishgard have withstood a millennia of dragonfire; dare anyone hope that they'll be the final push that brings it down?
Was this what you saw too? Is this what compels you to run Bellevaux the way you do?
I'm grateful that you refused my request for aid back then. I don't think I could ever make it up to you if any Bellevais were killed by my actions. Everything I have in here - the maps, notes, names, camp missives, my supply log - are yours to keep. Consider this my show of support for your cause.
For years I dreamt of restoring my family's good name and like a child, I thought it was just...letting people speak of it fondly instead of hostility. I know now that it's more than what passes through others' lips: it is our deeds and words that chart the course of a House. I can be better than grandfather. I will find us a better legacy as long as Izzy keeps it in his godsdamnned swiving pants and that's not counting Drouhont and that swiving hippie and his cursed ship why am I surrounded by buggerall-.
I return to Ishgard after the memorial in Swallow's Eclipse has concluded; I look forward to hearing your thoughts in person.
Your friend,
Joshua Losstarot