Heartbroken forever
I'm 23. I'm 23 and I've experienced more heartbreak and pain then anyone I know, that troubles me. I don't know why I deserve so much pain. I give my all to anybody and everybody. This last year I lost everything including myself. Drugs, addiction, love, money, family. I let someone so toxic into my life and I didn't even know it till it was to late. I wish I could turn back time and change things, I miss my family, I miss my old life. I look back and want to slap myself for being so dumb but all I can do is learn from it and keep moving forward everyday. I wish I didn't know this pain I wish I was still naĆÆve to this cruel world we live in but I'm not. Nobody cares about each other anymore it's pathetic. People can say they care all they want but at the end of the day actions speak louder than words. You don't hurt someone you care and love for. I'm a believer in second chances but only if you're willing to prove yourself. I'm far from perfect and I never claim to be but I never want anybody to feel the pain I feel everyday. I don't want people to perceive me as weak because I'm far from it so I put a smile on every morning to show people that no matter what you've been through there's always a new day, a new beginning to start over, to change, to be the person you want to be.
