Future Me

I pray that I will have strong mind, body, heart, and soul.

I pray that I will be able to do the things that I need to do correctly and efficiently.

I pray that no harm will come to me.

I pray for my sanity.

I pray for my safety.

I pray for security.

I pray for happiness.

My dreams are in my finger tips. I’m almost there. All my life, I focused on this. I am ready to love myself and find love but then, pandemic happened. I’m still optimistic but now, my health is in trouble. I’m scared. What if all this journey will end sooner than I thought. There are lots of what if’s. I was hoping the doctor will give me a ray of hope but he didn’t reply to me. I was hoping he will give me a go signal to pursue my dreams but instead he still making me wait. I want to tell my best friend but I don’t want him to pity me. I also regret telling my friends about the result. I’m scared. I don’t want to end like this. I want to help my family. I want to find love. I want to get married. I want to have my own life.

Sometimes I feel like you’re avoiding me.

Everything is getting sexualized. I never thought that some uses this emoji to indicate “cum dripping from mouth”.