tw! my safe space of venting

I can't believe that I went from 56 kg to 51 just in the span of a week

Pushing past a weight plateau feels like euphoria. Never thought I'd ever push past it, but now I have such motivation to get it even lower until it becomes my ultimate weight.

Nothing feels better than having your mother stare you up and down in concern as she tells you that you've lost "too much" weight

I think I finally realise that my trigger for binging is fasting. Maybe it's just me and I have terrible self control but I always loose so much more when I eat low cal. It is tempting to try a low cal omad but I'm afraid that it won't help. Just a reminded to myself

I know that there's so much more to life than loosing weight and letting it define your personality. But damn every time I make picture comparisons of now Vs then it feels insane to see such a difference

Just when I needed motivation to keep going and not break my water fast today, bam, of herbs and altars posts another ed video! I've been bleesed

If I had a dime for every time a bot followed me I'd be rich by now

Heh. Guess who's back. You can't beat ana.

Do I need coffee or actual food? Guess what we're gonna do in today's episode of my brain not working! (The following content does not condone the consumption of food in any way, shape, or form)

Despite realising that loosing more weight won't magically put a bandaid to all of my problems in life, at this point it feels like a compulsive response to anything externally negative

Each time I reach a new low in life my weight seems to go down with it

Honestly, fuck bullies that pretend to be friends

I was going through all the pictures I took this year and it's so overwhelming seeing myself get slowly smaller, and smaller. I didnt even realize how quickly time passes by, not until December is already halfway through and I almost feel scared looking at how much I've changed and how it's still not enough. How I still don't feel loved, how I still want to go lower, and lower and all I feel is fear. I already reached the lowest weight that I ever was, the point I told myself all these years that would be the finish line for me. It doesn't feel enough, and all these months I've been under the same thoughtless impulse of needing to loose and more and more. Never being satisfied. This is the first time that I feel powerless against my own ed

Been studying so much lately, my mother told me I've lost weight today. I'm always so torn between the idea of eating only one a day or allowing myself to eat throughout the day, just super low cal. The dichotomy of woman lol

Eating one meal a day now feels so normal

Is binging on fruit as harmful as normal binging?

My mother just told me to go and have dinner with her instead of drinking water to fill my stomach and I feel so called out