It was rare to get days off as an idol. Free time was usually disguised as a 5 minute break in a 7/11 at an hour your mother would scold you for being awake at.

That was one part of the idol life that Seonghyeon disliked. It wasn't the only part, god no. But not being able to even sleep alone without a body in the same room as you, it got to him.

Winter. It was always his favorite time of year, the feeling of cool air breezing past you, the strange burning feeling your nose got after breathing in cold air for too long — Seonghyeon lived for it.

That was why he was so alright with waiting out in the early winter air, but then again, not much could keep him waiting for you.

His finger tips had a faint red hue to them as they moved to turn on his phone, opening his messages app and clicking on your contact.

y/n 🤍 [11/12/2026, 10:23]

i miss u

His eyes stared at the message, as if those 8 words held all the answers his body craved for. If his friends had known his response, he wouldn't hear the end of it. Have some self respect, he could hear Keonho's words ringing like bells in his eardrums.

A part of him knew him — and everyone else was right. It's not worth it trying with someone who doesn't know what they want-

"Hyeon?"

He could swear his heart skipped a beat. His glaze lifted to catch your eyes, the soft smile that sat on your lips hitting him like a cupids arrow.

Silence surrounded the two of you, and Seonghyeon hated every moment of it. He just wanted to reach for you, hold you — kiss you.

No, the words echoed in his ears, leave, tell her it's over.

"Why are you wearing a skirt in winter?" Came out instead.

Your eyes crinkled at the sides, whole head moving as you peered down at what you wore. A short denim skirt sat a few inches above your knees, a belt that Seonghyeon was sure was his sitting on it. Then you shrugged and stepped closer — too close — to him, "I wanted to look pretty for you."

It was like you knew how to make his brain all foggy, how to make him forget every little word he had planned to tell you; words that were now collecting dust in his notes app.

His cheeks shifted to the same color as your cold nose, teenishly grinning as he looked down at his lap. "You do look pretty."

You blinked once, then twice like your system was attempting to process his words. He watched goosebumps scattered across your arms, your bare hands running against the rough bumps in an attempt to hide them.

You had never loved winter like Seonghyeon had. Despite living in the same place as him for your entire life, your body had never grown accustomed to the cold winters like his had.

"You're quiet," he said softly, "you're always like that around me."

Now, he should've added. You hadn't always been like this. Seonghyeon missed the days were you could be comfortable around him.

You didn't reply to his observation. The confidence you had built within yourself had crumbled moments into seeing Seonghyeon again, and that scared you more than anything else could.

"I don't know how to be around you anymore,"

Your confession lingered in the air.

"I don't know what to be to you anymore." You reiterated, your eyes pulling away from the dark river to his brown eyes. You attempted to take a step away from him, but he reached forward and his finger hooked around his belt on your waist.

His eyes bore into you, every time he looked at you it felt like he was trying to read your mind. You wondered that if he could, would he still look at you with that twinkle in his eyes?

"You don't have to be anything," the distinct feeling of déjà vu fell on him, but he ignored it. "just be you. That's all I want."

He tugged on your belt, pulling you inches closer to him until you were almost in his lap.

You didn't stop him this time. The feeling of his hand moving to your head, brushing through your hair slowly. Butterflies pooled in your stomach as you watched him inch closer to you.

Your face pivoted.

But he pulled you back.

Seonghyeon studied your face for a moment. Saving it like a screenshot in his mental photo gallery, before he leaned in and his lips met yours shyly, as if he was scared you'd pull away like you had before. The quiet sigh that left you made his stomach flip.

"Hyeon," you pulled away for a moment, the sound of his nickname on your tongue sounded better than any song he could create, "we can't-"

"I don't care," he pulled you back in. Pressing a peck against your lips, then another, than another before he properly kissed you.

It was slow at first, but so him that you didn't even attempt to break away again.

Everything paused for a moment. Your eyes skimmed over Seonghyeon's face with a practice that you had never had before, like you were trying to memorize his every feature as your cheeks began to flush. You brought your hands to cover your face, not seeing the dimply grin that grew on Seonghyeon’s face as you did.

"You make me so nervous,” You muttered from behind your hands, the boy leaned closer to you, his smile not wavering as his confidence grew, “Say that again?”

A nervous chuckle came from you, “you make me nervous.”

“Do I?”

“Yeah.”

…

“I don’t like it.”

You heard faint taps against the bench, and slowly took your hands away from your face. Seonghyeon shook his head as he noticed your eyes settled on him, “I don’t believe that.”

Then he watched the flip in real time, the switch that ignited in you like it had so many times before. As much as he wanted to stop it, to rewind to moments before.

He knew he couldn't.

Your mood swings shifted like the weather, and Seonghyeon couldn't feel the warm of the summer anymore.

masterlist

🎶: @coergene @ziixIssss @spininmytornado @hyuneskkami @miisoluvsdeer @snowzxki @en-dream @lunaryoongie @peerlesspine @rankeukeu @bagelbowl @09zpzkeonnss @ivyzhangg @mfcherry @coconhovr @driedbananachips @taeluvverzz @marsgirltyshi @driedbananachips

authors note: im not saying yall should want me sick but istg i only write when im ill

masterlist

🎶: @baskinginvellichor @teacuplps @love4yubin @coergene @ziixIssss @spininmytornado @hyuneskkami @miisoluvsdeer @snowzxki @en-dream @lunaryoongie @peerlesspine @rankeukeu @bagelbowl @peerlesspine @09zpzkeonnss @ivyzhangg @mfcherry @coconhovr

authors note: hi… finally had a day off school cause i’m sick so i made this