Exploring the light within

rising from the delicate petals of the lotus a fiery jewel glistens in the reflection of the water this luminous jewel is unlike any before it Yet composed of all of them Light radiates from the crystallized form Creating a field of truth and creation As the lotus grows So does the jewel Truth and creation expand Spreading love to all who seem to be drawn to it Gently healing all wounds Dissolving all fears Everything that attempts to turn light into dark Quickly floats away down the stream If one looks directly at this fiery jewel A sense of blindness overtakes them This blindness is pure sight When both eyes close but the third eye awakens

An intense sadness takes control of me

My eyes turn into a lake full of despair 

Weeping tears that are not my own

I don't recognize this sadness

The bitter taste of confusion and relief

Crying out to the sky above

I see myself weeping

But I am blind to the source

A subtle presence of another

Only leaves hints to the cause of all this pain

Just enough to recognize the feeling

But too little to understand it

So I allow myself to weep these tears that are not my own

Because each tear I weep gives clarity to another

Deeply engrossed by words filled with truth

Not because of the words itself

But the light that was beginning to become brighter with each page turned

Losing myself but gaining something greater

A fluttering by my ear briefly silences all thoughts

Awareness takes place once thinking no longer exists

A ladybug flew down and rested on my finger tip

The essence of this creature goes beyond the name we identify with

Gently gazing back at me

I was in awe and appreciation

Delicate and beautiful

We shared a silence

More powerful and loving than any conversation

There comes a moment when you realize you need to change your daily routine, start a new habit that is more beneficial, or even simply reminding yourself to treat your own self with kindness. Once you come to that moment, do not simply think about changing but just DO. Living in the present moment does not just mean to avoid living in the past, but it also means to DO and BE in this moment. Instead of saying you are going to change something, actually start. I tend to struggle when it comes to acting on the realizations I come upon. Whether it involves telling myself, "You can always do it tomorrow", I seem to try to validate my own excuses.  The wonderful part about looking within and identifying patterns created that do not benefit your inner self is you learn awareness. I am aware. Awareness is a beautiful truth that acts as guidance on your journey.

So today I start my cleanse. Instead of saying "I want to become healthier, both mentally, spiritually, and physically", I actually am DOING it. So i lift my mason jar filled with the juices of vibrant fruits and vegetables up high, not just giving thanks to the world but also thanking my inner spirit.