Im angry all the tine because you don’t get it and it’s been so long so I expect you to get it but you don’t get it and I don’t understand how not. How are you not learning.

It just doesn’t make any sense to me but I’m progressing from anger to sadness and distance because .. well idk why it just know it’s happening

50 percent of my time with you if didn’t angry or sad and idk what to do anymore

I know it’s a direct result of feeling like you don’t care about me and the things I have to say

I notice myself thinking about how I didn’t ask about whatever you’re saying and want to leave but that’s not kind so I stand there until you’re done steam rolling and leave silently but I figure it’s probably going to lead to some resentment and hatred if nothing is done because you don’t seem to notice.

This is my attempt to do something and you can do with this info what you will. I don’t really want to talk about it as we’ve spoken on the subject many times before. Just an update.

Sorry if I made you feel weird.

I was coming home to keep you company in da blue room. But when I arrived I got really sad

After laying around I realized it’s because I know I should be being productive or something and playing games is not productive unless you were to actually pay me. So I’d have to verify that was your intention and I’m WEIRD ABOUT MONEY and it doesn’t make sense to me so I’d rather not— ever in life. Instead I decided I’d garden cause I been tryna plant these mother fuckers for ages and I’ll go back to carting later.

you have a lot to say about money - a few weeks ago you said you were hemorrhaging money. You said it multiple times and that’s a strong word. IT STUCK and we calmed down a bit but for like the last two weeks we’ve gone to chick fil a or out to eat pretty much everyday. You spent $400 at Costco and not on food. Shopping for the cruise. That medical bill you don’t want to pay. You losing 6K a year cause Ippon isn’t matching your 401K. Telling M you cant put xyz on this bill but next bill.

I’m just listening.. all the time and not forgetting

That’s probably the biggest reason “i cant be happy for you”

#2 is the listening thing. I’m 1000% sure I told you about ice catchers in CA but did you care. NU UH - so it’s just frustrating now that you’re like it’s the perfect piece blah blah blah

You’re nuts

You snapped at your boy..

Why I wonder

I assume cause you were tryna say the things you were tryna say and I kept interrupting you and that is frustrating.. I know this because you do it to me all the time everyday

But I don’t feel like I snap at you in reaction

But maybe I do

Who knows

This is why I’m quiet Bob