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Hell, if we go by the Achilleid, Achilles didn’t even know what the war was about until he was sailing to Troy. A young boy whose birth produced an unjust prophecy that dictated the rest of his life: Live long and die in obscurity, or die in war and live in the minds of the people forever. No greek man of his time could bear to die in obscurity, but it was especially impossible for Achilles to do so. His father Peleus, a legendary Argonaut whose adventures would be remembered for millenia, his mother Thetis, a towering goddess raised by the queen of the gods herself.

Their child had to be known.

At Aulis the greeks call for Achilles, a legend before he even steps into the battlefield, and he is forced to go to war. And he fights, he kills, he ravages the city of Troy. A boy who has never even seen a battle in his life, living in peaceful Pthia and later protected by mighty Chiron in Thessally, becomes a machine specifically created for one purpose: To destroy Troy.

This is the reason why Achilles refuses to fight after the taking of Briseis. Unlike Agamemnon, who lived before the Trojan War, who had a wife and family before the Trojan War, who will leave Troy. Or Odysseus who will tell his tales to his son and wife after 20 years away. Or Menelaus who after years regains his family and rules Sparta in peace. Achilles has no life, no future, he IS Troy, more than even Hektor, Paris, and Priam are. Thus, when his honor is threatened, everything he has ever lived for has been taken away from him. Realize that before the taking of Briseis, Agamemnon mentioned takingthe “bride prizes” from the other greek kings and despite this not going anywhere none of them attempted to argue. Would Odysseus attempt to kill Agamemnon if his bride prize were taken? Would Diomedes or Greater Ajax?

It’s the reason I feel myself cringe when I tell people I make Minecraft content, not because I’m embarrassed it’s a kids game but because of the people that have notoriously occupied the space.

I’m sick of it, and the truth is, it’s all so much worse behind the scenes, and I can’t just stop and leave because its my job, and this game has become my LIFE.

Anyone who doxes, harasses, threatens, harms, or abuses power have no place in my community and aren’t welcome.

That includes other content creators

Sorry for the little rant post. I’ve been upset for months, and yet I’ve never felt like it was something I could share because I myself didn’t feel comfortable. So many memories and experiences new and old swirling around and clouding my mind.

I appreciate you guys so much, and above all I want you, adult or child, to remain safe online and offline.

I am genuinely disappointed.

I did not name a single creator, and yet I had people harassing me claiming I was causing harm. That I didn't understand what I was talking about.

I am a creator in this space, and while I have been making minecraft content for three years. I have been working in the youtuber sphere since 2017.

I MYSELF have been groomed in this space. TWICE!!!! And that's just that aspect, If I were to talk about the way the that people threaten, sexually harass, or abuse power within this community I'd have a myriad of instances! I'm not simply talking about a one off thing, this is a repeating pattern that happens within our community in smaller content creator groups and larger.

And respectfully guys, I've had people I thought were my friends and kind people be outted for AWFUL stuff. Don't go on about CCs you can trust and you know, because you don't. Sometimes, even when I think I do, WHEN IVE MET THEM AND HUNG OUT WITH THEM, I don't either!!!

I'm not trying to fear monger or make anyone upset. I'm not saying you can't enjoy content creator's personality. I'm just simply saying we have normalized attachments so intense it blinds us to the greater conversation.

"'fandom' is a vehicle of marginalized subcultural groups (women, the young, gays, etc.) to pry open space for their cultural concerns within dominant representations; it is a way of appropriating media texts and rereading them in a way that serves different interests, a way of transforming mass culture into a popular culture"

Jenkins, Henry. “Star Trek Rerun, Reread, Rewritten: Fan Writing as Textual Poaching.” Critical Studies in Mass Communication 5, no. 2 (1988): 85–107. https://doi.org/10.1080/15295038809366691.  

who’s the sun and who’s the moon depends on who you ask.

missa would say that phil’s the sun. he burns so bright that sometimes he’s hard to look at—hard to be near. he’s brave and compassionate and stubborn to a fault, and sometimes missa worries phil will burn himself up in his desperation to make everything right again. he sees the way phil accidentally hurts others around him in his passion, but he can’t help but want to be near him anyway.

he sees himself as the moon, reflecting phil’s light, a shadow cast across him by phil’s brilliance, which he can’t help but feel he’ll never compare to.

phil thinks missa’s the sun. he’s a bright light in the darkness, the warmth of a gentle spring day when the flowers are just beginning to bud. he’s the sun at its gentlest—calming and enough to melt the frost from the grass. he’s bright in his laughter and warm in his embrace, and phil often wonders if he realizes just how brightly he burns.

Adding onto this… I imagine Phil as Icarus as well, he is constantly struggling to keep himself afloat but yet he yearns to keep everyone and everything safe. He wants to protect but it’s slowly bringing him down, it burns him as he tries to protect people, it leads to others in danger.

He wanted to protect everyone in Purgatory but it left him broken by the end of it all.

He wanted to protect Luffy but now eggs have become targets.

He keeps reaching for the unattainable goal to protect everyone yet he is only dragging himself further down as his wings melt from the sun.

Missa feels the hot wax dripping as he is covered by Phil’s wings but he cannot do anything to stop it. Phil will only attempt to fly higher to more unobtainable heights leaving him to watch from afar. He only hopes that as Phil falls, he’ll be there to catch him. Then they might finally be able to reunite, be a family again. Once they are no longer at odds, the two opposites might be able to find a place somewhere on the spectrum where they can exist together.

Hello and welcome to my Witcher Au, this is loosely based on the qsmp character but more of a mix of all of Philza's characters. I'm still fleshing a lot of things out but here are some basic things to note

You don't have to be familiar with the Witcher franchise to understand this au. I'm writing it so that anyone can understand it whether they are new to this fantasy world or fans of it.

There are a lot of people I want to include, but I also want them to be fully fleshed out characters so I might be slowly introducing them as it goes on.

I will explain any terms in the notes before the chapter if they are used and otherwise they will all be in one post(or thread of posts) for reference.

This is a fanfiction based on minecraft roleplay characters. I am inserting a lot of my own interpretations.

I am going to tag everything on here with ALSZau, after the title, A Little Sacrifice.

I am using the map from The Witcher 3: The Wild Hunt game as well as another political map I found.(I'm trying to find good quality copies of both)

If you have any questions about anything related to this then I'm happy to answer(obviously I won't be answering anything that treads on spoilers)

I have a few chapters written and I will be posting them to AO3 soon, I will put a link on here so that it is easy to find. And finally, here is the synopsis:

The Antarctic Empire: An empire that was built shortly after the conjunction. Its rulers were unknown and most information was burned with the rest of the kingdom. Kaer Morhen now sits where its capital once was.

Axii: A witcher sign which persuades or calms someone.

Aard: A witcher sign that emits a force of air, often used to knock enemies away.

Igni: A witcher sign which emits a burst of fire.

Yrden: A witcher signs which emits a magic circle around the user.

Quen: A witcher sign that emits a protective field around the user.

Witcher: A race as a result of mutations from the trial of the grasses. They have enhanced abilities to fight monsters.

Feainnewedd: A flower that only grows where Elder blood has been shed or in the mythical Dol Blathanna.

Elf: A part of the Elder Races and some of the original inhabitants of the continent before the conjunction of the spheres

Elder: A speech that is used by the elder races and mages.

Elder Races: Includes Dwarves, Elves, and Gnomes.

Elder Blood: also known as Hen Ichaer, those who carry it are believed to be descendants of the warrior, Lara Dorren, and have large amounts of magical power.

The Continent: The land in which the Witcher takes place.

Trial of the Grasses: the process of mutations that witchers go through, many of which die during this. Witchers are unable to reproduce as a result of the mutations.

The Conjunction of the Spheres: Not a lot is known about the conjunction but it is believed that multiple “spheres” collided and various species were introduced to the continent. These include humans, and monsters.

Chaos: A natural force that can be harnessed for magic. While witchers aren’t able to be mages, they are able to harness smaller forms of chaos to cast signs.

And here are some character references/background. These are just the ones that I have written so far that don't spoil anything in the plot.

Philza. A Witcher. The life of traveling, going from job to job, was not one he wanted, but was stuck in. Witchers are unable to have kids but he found some of his own, he was told his attachment to them would be his downfall yet they seem to be the only thing that he fights for. Without them, there would be no reason to continue in the damned Continent. The Crow and His Murder is infamous, he is often deemed The Father of The Death as well. Witcher School of the Crane (Age?).

Chayanne is significantly younger than Wilbur, yet he shows great potential, he wishes to one day go through the Trial of the Grasses, much to Philza’s discontent. (Age 13)

Tallulah is Wilbur’s daughter but he rarely sees her. She spends most of her time with Philza, who has looked after her for most of her life. She is the youngest in the Murder and is very close with Chayanne. (Age 10).

And that's about all I can put without spoiling anything.

Here are the maps that I'll be using, it will mainly be the one of the Northern Realms but I am using the other one for a wider scale of reference.

Let me know what yall think!!!

Chapter I

While travelling to Oxenfurt, Tallulah started to feel sharp pains in her chest. At first she brushed them off, hid them, that was until Cheyenne noticed she had started falling behind. She was gripping her flute to an intensity that was weaponry, sweat beating down her face. She stumbled, then fell, Chayanne was quick to catch her, shouting for her to respond. Upon hearing the commotion behind him, the crow stopped dead in his tracks. He whipped around to see his child furiously shaking Tallulah. Although he cried as he knelt on the ground next to her, she didn’t move. Philza was putting all of his alchemy knowledge to the test, rushing to the children and sussing out whatever symptoms he could. The cause is unknown, how long she’s been suffering to get to this point, unknown. 

They set up camp and watch over her intensely. Day breaks and Philza had not slept, Chayanne was barely rested, waking up constantly to check on Tallulah. Her staggered breathing is her only movement and sign of life. Eventually Philza decides that they need to keep moving, staying for long wasn’t safe, his potions were running low, and he only knew so much about healing.

Her fever stays for the next week. They are careful when moving her and they keep the horse at a slow and steady pace. Heading north at this time of the year is tough, but with Tallulah's condition only worsening, things start to turn, and quickly. 

In the night, she started to stir, it was common for her to have nightmares but this was different. She arose abruptly, her whole body shook. Taking small steps, stuttering her way through the motions. Philza watched her approach Chayanne, he was previously fast asleep but woke when he felt Tallulah's hand left his. He sat, staring up at her, her eyes remained closed as she got closer.

The crane medallion that hung loosely around Philza neck came alive with a hum. His eyes widened in realisation, although he never prodded wilbur about her other parent, it really wasn’t his business who it was, but now this told him all he needed to know. About what she is.

“Chayanne, I’m going to need you to listen very closely. Move. Now.”

“But Da-“

He didn’t have time to reply. A burst of energy came from Tallulah, her outstretched hand touched Chayanne's forehead. And with that he felt an intense burning sensation. He had never felt magic before, at least not in this form. It was hot, sending sparks and shivers all throughout his body. Tallulah held her hand strongly against his skin, even as he flinched backward. 

Philza was quick to separate them but he was not able to pull Tallulah off in time. The gentle girl put up a fight and scratched his neck deeply. However, once her connection to Chayanne ceased, she collapsed and all traces of her chaos vanished. Her fever returned but with far less intensity. The crow cast Axii in hopes of settling the poor girl back to rest. 

Chayanne however, laid on the ground, unmoving. He was in a daze and completely immobilised. Phil moved to rest Chayanne's head in his lap, brushing the hair out of his face, he found Elder written where tallulah's hand had once been. 

“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have questioned you sir.”

“Shhh it’s ok Chayanne, you didn’t know. Now rest, we need to make it to Oxenfurt tomorrow. I don’t know how much longer I can take care of you two like this on my own.”

Phil casted Axii once again, leaving him with two sleeping children, and a lot of questions.

In the morning, they pack up camp with haste. Tallulah now rode with Philza instead of Chayanne, and the silent road was a constant reminder of their mission. 

While their initial plan was to only stop by Oxenfurt for a day to rest and do some much needed shopping before winter, they had new plans that could now be avoided.

Philza’s distaste for the large city hadn’t lessened, but he knew he needed to extend his planned stay, for Tallulah. 

The first stop once they reached town was a small but familiar shop. 

“Hello and welcome to- Philza and Chayanne, it’s been so long, where’s Tallulah?”

“Hello mate, I would love to catch up but I really need your help Niki, it’s about Tallulah.”

The crow held open his cloak to reveal the little girl sleeping in his arms. Niki was a longtime friend of the Witcher and he found that only she could provide the best quality supplies for his potions. She also had a significant amount of knowledge when it came to hearing magic, which she often used in her baking. She was trustworthy and that’s all Phil needed.

“Oh my gosh, yes, bring her right into the back, I’ll clear space for her to lie down while you explain everything you know.”

“I- I have no idea what happened, we were on our way here, only a couple days out and she fainted. I don’t know how long she’s been ill but she’s been unconscious for about five days. It looked like just a fever until she started to absorb chaos. I don’t know where this all came from but she casted something on Chayanne. She left Elder written on him, do you know anything about this?”

Niki paced around, clearing surfaces and looking for various plants. She motions for Phil to place her on a table where she had laid out a blanket and candles. With her laying down, Niki was able to start working. Philza and Chayanne watched closely as the elf began to speak in Elder.

“So she is able to harness chaos… and use it in some capacity. What exactly was left on Chayanne after this incident?” 

“Han Ichaer.”

“Elder blood. She has Elder blood. Luckily this means that Chayanne will be fine, even her subconscious was insistent on protecting him, it was a measly beginner spell, similar to Quen. Although I am worried about where she is drawing this chaos from, she is drawing from herself. That would explain her feverish state, it really took her out.”

Niki poured a small vial over her shoulders, and the girl seemed to finally be at ease.

“Thank you Niki, how much do I owe you?”

“Nothing, I would do it ten times over for you and Tallulah. But please Phil, you must understand what this means, you have to talk to Wilbur about this.”

Philza picks up Tallulah in his arms once again, nodding at Niki, and turns to leave, Chayanne waved to the elf before following in his shadow. After the door closed, the crow sighed. He knew this wasn’t going to be easy, but he really had his work cut out for him with these kids. 

Chayanne mounted his mare once again and Philza placed Tallulah in his arms. They headed for an inn where they could eat, rest, and give them some time before they turned back south. It didn’t matter what his previous plans for the winter were, he needed to find Wilbur, and soon.

The following day, Tallulah woke up. She was not at her fullest but she felt well enough to ride on her own. Chayanne rode next to her, discussing their journey while she was unconscious and making her jealous of their visit with Niki. Philza rode behind them so he could keep a close eye on the children. The secret of Tallulah's blood origin weighed heavily in his chest, and Wilbur had a lot of explaining to do.

The last that he heard of the musician, he had finished traveling all throughout the Skellige Isles and was making his way back home to Cintra. It was there that they had the best chances of finding him before he scampered off on another tour of the Continent. But their window of time was small and only based on estimation. It was a small chance of finding him in Cintra and if they missed him, it would be a wild goose chase with no leads. Wilbur never made anything easy for Philza.

A high pitched melody caught Phil’s attention and knocked him out of his train of thought. Gazing ahead of him, he saw Tallulah playing a small tune on her flute. He never realized how much he had missed her songs until he heard them again, it reminds him of a distant time passed, at least she learned some good from her father before they parted ways. Chayanne giggled and sang along to the little song. Although Chayanne was usually very quiet, it seemed he was a lot more open and talkative around her. They were an inseparable pair, two halves of each other. When they are apart, Philza has a hard time motivating either of them, but when they are together, it seems that nothing can stop them. Witchers are supposed to live solitary lives, but this, his family, and their bond, is something that no amount of chaos could replicate. 

Upon arriving in Cintra, the kids run ahead and begin exploring, looking at all of the things that have changed since their last visit months ago. Phil follows behind them, keeping his distance while maintaining a close eye on the children. They have a habit of finding trouble wherever they go, which never seems to be an issue that the witcher can’t handle, but they can’t be risking anything right now. Tallulah has no grasp on her powers, nor does he know what their full extent is, and Wilbur, he won’t be too pleased if he catches wind of them in town. He scanned the crowd in front of him, searching for posters of a familiar face, and any potential threats. It’s only then does Phil realize, the kids have disappeared from view. The crowd had gotten thicker, the noise level was overwhelming, it began hard for him to distinguish sound, and impossible to find Chayanne’s irregular heartbeat through it all.

Philza began pushing his way through the busy streets, taking rushed glances in all directions. It was only a couple minutes until he caught a glimpse into a tavern, it was there he saw the back of a familiar young man. He stopped dead in his tracks and stared for a moment. Chayanne and Tallulah seemed to have found him first as they happily ran up to the man. Phil walked in but kept his distance, merely observing their interactions in silence while leaning against a nearby table. 

“My Lullah, you’ve grown so much, my girl. You too Chayanne. But why are you here and where’s-”

The man had hoisted the giggling little girl in his arms and she had caught sight of Philza, her audible gasp caught the man's attention and he quickly spun around, only to face Phil. His smile dropped. Philza stood up from his place and approached the man slowly but with a friendly smile.

“Hey Will, how’ve you been mate?”

“Why if it isn’t the infamous ‘Crow Father,’ you come to Cintra to recruit new Witchers?” Wilbur deadpanned, he was not entertained by Philza’s pleasantries.

“I came to find you, we need to discuss something. You know I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t important.”

“And what reason do I owe the pleasure to?”

Before Phil could answer, Tallulah screamed. All attention turned to her cries as her eyes streamed with bloody tears. Wilbur held her close to his chest, looking at The Crow with pleading eyes.

“What is happening to her? What do I do Phil?” 

“It’s ok, she’s ok. She just doesn’t know how to control her chaos yet. She won’t hurt you but you need to stay calm.”

After a few short minutes, Tallulah became motionless in her father’s arms. Her fever had returned though not as intense as her previous one. Wilbur hesitantly looked down at her, blood soaking his shoulder.

“Please, what just happened? What did you do to my sweet Lullah?” 

“It seems she can do magic, though it’s not a lot right now. I’ll explain everything, but first-”

Philza was cut off by a loud band and voices shouting. 

“Phil! I came as soon as I got your message, but what the hell are you doing back in Cintra?” 

Hello and welcome to my Witcher Au, this is loosely based on the qsmp character but more of a mix of all of Philza's characters. I'm still fleshing a lot of things out but here are some basic things to note

You don't have to be familiar with the Witcher franchise to understand this au. I'm writing it so that anyone can understand it whether they are new to this fantasy world or fans of it.

There are a lot of people I want to include, but I also want them to be fully fleshed out characters so I might be slowly introducing them as it goes on.

I will explain any terms in the notes before the chapter if they are used and otherwise they will all be in one post(or thread of posts) for reference.

This is a fanfiction based on minecraft roleplay characters. I am inserting a lot of my own interpretations.

I am going to tag everything on here with ALSZau, after the title, A Little Sacrifice.

I am using the map from The Witcher 3: The Wild Hunt game as well as another political map I found.(I'm trying to find good quality copies of both)

If you have any questions about anything related to this then I'm happy to answer(obviously I won't be answering anything that treads on spoilers)

I have a few chapters written and I will be posting them to AO3 soon, I will put a link on here so that it is easy to find. And finally, here is the synopsis:

The Antarctic Empire: An empire that was built shortly after the conjunction. Its rulers were unknown and most information was burned with the rest of the kingdom. Kaer Morhen now sits where its capital once was.

Axii: A witcher sign which persuades or calms someone.

Aard: A witcher sign that emits a force of air, often used to knock enemies away.

Igni: A witcher sign which emits a burst of fire.

Yrden: A witcher signs which emits a magic circle around the user.

Quen: A witcher sign that emits a protective field around the user.

Witcher: A race as a result of mutations from the trial of the grasses. They have enhanced abilities to fight monsters.

Feainnewedd: A flower that only grows where Elder blood has been shed or in the mythical Dol Blathanna.

Elf: A part of the Elder Races and some of the original inhabitants of the continent before the conjunction of the spheres

Elder: A speech that is used by the elder races and mages.

Elder Races: Includes Dwarves, Elves, and Gnomes.

Elder Blood: also known as Hen Ichaer, those who carry it are believed to be descendants of the warrior, Lara Dorren, and have large amounts of magical power.

The Continent: The land in which the Witcher takes place.

Trial of the Grasses: the process of mutations that witchers go through, many of which die during this. Witchers are unable to reproduce as a result of the mutations.

The Conjunction of the Spheres: Not a lot is known about the conjunction but it is believed that multiple “spheres” collided and various species were introduced to the continent. These include humans, and monsters.

Chaos: A natural force that can be harnessed for magic. While witchers aren’t able to be mages, they are able to harness smaller forms of chaos to cast signs.

And here are some character references/background. These are just the ones that I have written so far that don't spoil anything in the plot.

Philza. A Witcher. The life of traveling, going from job to job, was not one he wanted, but was stuck in. Witchers are unable to have kids but he found some of his own, he was told his attachment to them would be his downfall yet they seem to be the only thing that he fights for. Without them, there would be no reason to continue in the damned Continent. The Crow and His Murder is infamous, he is often deemed The Father of The Death as well. Witcher School of the Crane (Age?).

Chayanne is significantly younger than Wilbur, yet he shows great potential, he wishes to one day go through the Trial of the Grasses, much to Philza’s discontent. (Age 13)

Tallulah is Wilbur’s daughter but he rarely sees her. She spends most of her time with Philza, who has looked after her for most of her life. She is the youngest in the Murder and is very close with Chayanne. (Age 10).

And that's about all I can put without spoiling anything.

Here are the maps that I'll be using, it will mainly be the one of the Northern Realms but I am using the other one for a wider scale of reference.

Let me know what yall think!!!

Q!Philza in a qpr polycule with q!missa, q!étoiles, and q!forever

Someone pointed out that like maybe q!missa likes him since he is a sad wet cat in the same way that he is with q!Philza, this got me thinking about including q!étoiles because he is with q!missa, so he’s like welcomed into the polycule cause they both share q!missa as a partner and they both have kind of a close bond as comrades and stuff. I just imagine this as a

q!philza: this is my husband missa and this is missas boyfriend étoiles

Kind of thing. Idk I feel like this would be a chill dynamic for them, q!missa can be protected by the code breakers and they both get him as a pathetic cringe fail loser boy /pos.

Also I’d include q!fit in this but also I think he has his own little thing going on rn with tazercraft that I’m trying to decipher in my brain how I think this all fits together lmao but like him and q!Philza are such a good dynamic and they really understand each other, I’m just also not sure about the whole federation thing.

His character is very complex in his motives and there are some things leading me to believe that q!Philza, as a character, would have some conflicts about.