I'm going to answer all of these for Wyda specifically, rather than any of my other billion OCs, since she is my Original XIV gal.
1: What was the original thought that led to the creation of this character?
When it comes to Wyda as an in-game character, she's the first character I ever made. I actually almost picked miqo'te, fun fact, before deciding on roegadyn. When it comes to her as an RP character, that actually developed quite quickly in its barebones. Once I realised there was no healer class guilds and no alchemist guilds in Limsa, I started thinking about healing in the city - which lead into her original design as a college student making some extra money as a back-alley chirurgeon. "College student willing to do some off-the-books stuff" shifted over time through all the hats she's worn over the years, but in the end I feel like the bones of that are still there for her. She's still a nerd, she's still learning, and she's still making questionable decisions.
14: Do you have any quotes tied to the character, either from the story itself or from another source that fit them?
"You're a liability, Wyda. A big one." (sorry, Brave.)
outside of that, there's one that really comes to mind which was formative for her backstory as I developed her:
Sylphie: "But I don't want to do more! I want to heal! I'm good at healing! You can't make me do those other things!"
It's a quote that's been memed-on for the healer DPS discussion, but the Conjurer questline ended up being a huge inspiration for the chip on Wyda's shoulder - a questline where the normal teaching methods are quite clearly Not Working for this gifted young girl, and instead of adapting to her needs or explaining anything, they try to force her to learn about things she hates and punish her for disobeying their contextless rules. That really is the rock that forms Wyda. A gifted young girl with ADHD, growing up in the Shroud and faced with teaching methods and education that clashed horribly with who she is.
20: Bonus question: share any additional thoughts, art, favourite scenes, anything you've been waiting for a chance to ramble about
Since this ended up being quite focused on Wyda's origins, I'm gonna go along that route! Wyda originally had black hair and face paint. Once I bought Minfilia's outfit and switched her to the pineapple hair I removed the face paint, but she stuck with black-and-red for her hair for a decent while before I decided to switch to blonde. I then decided blonde was her natural hair colour and that she'd been dyeing it black, as an IC explanation. But I never gave an explanation for the war paint and I can't even begin to come up with one in retrospect. Inexplicable decision, Me Of Ten Years Ago. (Speaking of, Wyda is officially ten years old! I started playing in September of 2015, just a couple of months after the launch of Heavensward. God, time flies.)
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These are more focused on the background stuff rather than the usual "what would the character do in XY situation" kinds of asks. I've been looking for something like this for quite a while and in the end decided to make my own. Feel free to use, go wild, enjoy
What was the original thought that led to the creation of this character?
How long was the process before the character reached its final version? (or a version that would be clearly recognizable as the character?)
What was the first thing you decided on, the character's name, appearance, personality or their role in the story?
And reverse, which one of the four things did you struggle with the most?
How did you choose their name and why? Was it simply based on vibes or is there any specific meaning behind the name? Are the reasons behind their name different in- and out of universe?
What was the thought process behind their appearance? Did you go mostly for the aesthetic or are there other reasons they look the way they do?
What is an aspect of their appearance that you like the most?
What is the origin of their personality? And let's be honest - how much of it is projecting?
How big is their role in the story? Do they make a frequent appearance or are they a character with little "screentime" but big influence? Or are they just a favourite background guy?
What is their main character arc in the story? Where do they start and how do they develop? Do they get a happy ending or is their story a tragic one?
Is there any existing character from other media that your character resembles? Was the resemblance intentional or was it a coincidence?
Do you have a playlist for the character? What songs do you associate with them and why?
Do you have a voice claim for the character? What do you imagine the character sounds like?
Do you have any quotes tied to the character, either from the story itself or from another source that fit them?
Have you ever made a moodboard for them?
Is there any memes or running jokes associated with the character, both in- and out of universe?
Are there any motifs or symbols associated with the character? How are they represented, in their design, personality or in some other way?
Does the character have other characters connected to them? Do you have a family tree and "offscreen" connections made up for them or do they exist in a vacuum purely for the purpose of the story?
What is your general favourite thing about the character? What is your least favourite?
Bonus question: share any additional thoughts, art, favourite scenes, anything you've been waiting for a chance to ramble about
Xanadu Mol is loath to admit that she is short. She is loath to admit she is a great many things. But sadly, one does not grow up surrounded by Elezen without being aware of one's very literal shortcomings.
Which is why she finds herself glaring up at the book she wants from the Bellworks common area. It lies four shelves higher than she can reach, and there's no stepladder in sight. She is not about to start climbing furniture to get to it, she's not Sawyer. She has standards.
Her attempts to psychokinetically obtain the book are interrupted by heavy footfalls behind her. Hyrtwyda, yawning and halfway through her morning cup of coffee. She must have slept here again, lost in her work. "Aught amiss, Mol?" Her tone of voice is irritating, but her excessive proportions might just have their uses for a change.
"The Booke of Llymlen's Saints," she replies, pointing to it and somehow managing to emphasise how both book and llymlaen are misspelled in her pronunciation of them. "Retrieve it for me. Some oaf has placed it on the shelf that is clearly for cookery books, low-brow novels, andâŚ" she shudders. "âŚautobiographies."
Hyrtwyda approaches, looking up at the book before she gives Xan a dazzling, dopey smile. It makes Xanadu feel a little queasy. "Of course! I think that might've been me who put it back there, the sorting system out here is a tad different from my own."
Excuses. Xanadu rolls her eyes and crosses her arms, doing her best job of looking impatient. She very nearly starts tapping her foot and checking a non-existent watch. Go on, then.
Wyda turns to the shelf. The book is high even for her, and she has to stretch upwards to reach for it. The hem of her shirt rises from the motion, exposing a long stretch of her grey skin. One particular part catches Xan's eye.
"Hyrtwyda," Xanadu asks, already feeling her lip curl as a dozen slurs ready themselves on her tongue. "What in Halone's name is that on your back?"
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one thing I like to do in FFXIV RP is just have my character be completely wrong about elements of setting or plot. like the Warrior of Light? killed dozens of gods, stormed a castrum, made peace with the dragons? no way that's a real person. nobody can even agree what they look like! probably a propaganda story cooked up by that shady Sharlayan secret society, the Children of the Seventh Sun or whatever they're called. the Eorzeans probably have a horrible secret weapon they don't want anyone to know about, so they invented a made up monster slaying hero. occam's razor.
it's a plot point that not everyone can see moogles, so for a while I had her think moogles definitely aren't real either. I mean, she's never seen one. it's just regular people that deliver the post. the whimsical flying bat-winged rats are made up for children...
The kiseru twists this way and that between Maxâs fingers. Sheâd seen it in the markets, and Starlight was coming up, soâŚsheâd bought it. It was only once she made back to the apartment she and Gloria were sharing that she realised the person sheâd bought it for was near-impossible to contact.
How do you find a wandering cowgirl? Especially one who left to find herself in the first place? Thatâs too much finding for her tastes, and she sucks at it. Give her prey to track and sheâll follow them across half the world. Give her a friend to follow andâŚwell. Thereâs a reason she came to Othard. Sometimes you need to go somewhere where you wonât be followed. Sometimes people follow anyroad. Sometimes you need help.
But Laelia doesnât need help. She needs space. Room to think. Max, of all people, can understand that. She never expected to understand it, but she does.
âThatâs quite a fine pipe!â a voice pipes (hah) up from right in front of her, and Max jumps like a startled opossum. Sheâs either getting too rusty or too relaxed because somehow Ser Basile Bellerose, The Least Sneaky Man In Any Given Room, has managed to surprise her. He stands before her in the theatre, hands on his spandex-clad hips and cowboy hat perched daintily on a head slightly too large to it. âBut I was under the impression you couldnât smoke?â
Max opens her mouth to respond, but evidently the manâs thought processes are still going strong as his mouth falls open in some realisation and he continues.
âHave you found some sort of tobacco or moko which doesnât harm your lungs?â he asks. Then: âMagic and botany are both equally impressive in my books, and either one could offer you the experience of finally being able to smoke as your image suggests you should!!â
Heâs right about her image. Every ilm of her screams that sheâs some sort of troublemaking layabout smoking cigarettes and threatening to put them out on the nearest intimidatable person. But thatâs never been her fate. She speaks up before he has a chance to take his enthusiastic thought processes even further in something that feels vaguely like trying to derail the phantom train. âNah. I saw it in the markets - got it for Lee.â
That causes the light behind his eyes to do a strange series of things. It dims, brightens, dims again, then brightens once more to an almost zealous enthusiasm. âLaelia! Of course, Iâm sure sheâd love to receive such a thoughtful gift, and to know sheâs in your thoughts! Iâm sure sheâd also like that smokeless tobacco as well!â Evidently, after being derailed, the train somehow managed to find a second set of tracks, mount on to them, then perform some complicated technique of multi-track drifting.Â
Max feels out of her depth, and she was a semi-professional sapper. The manâs enthusiasm is truly dizzying, in that after speaking to him Max isnât sure what way is up and kind of feels like hurling. In the nicest possible way. âYeah. Figured sheâd like it, butâŚyou have any idea how to get somethinâ to her? Girl makes off-grid look like a tourist trap.â If anyone knows, itâs going to be the man wearing her hat.
He crosses his arms over his barrel chest, pacing this way and that while looking deep in thought. Ten seconds pass. Fifteen. Twenty five.
âNot a clue! Shall we go?â
What. âHuh?â
Basile beams, sparkling teeth and wit. âWe know sheâs in Ilsabard. We know she has a large dog with her, and we know exactly the sort of heroics that she would get up to! If you have a starlight gift for her then by Halone, I think we should deliver it!â
Max blinks.Â
This man truly is insane.
â...Alright.â
-
Two weeks later, the two find themselves once more wearing their winter clothes and once more in the cold of Ilsabard. Maxâs teeth chatter. Sheâd forgotten how much the cold sucked.
Basile has not so much âswapped outâ his cowboy hat as he has âperched a starlight hat on top of itâ. It seems to be holding on through the Garlean winter winds by force-of-will, force-of-personality, or him tugging it over the hat like pulling on a tight pair of socks. Itâs genuinely impressive watching the little white bobble blow in the wind from his position on the sidecar of Maxâs motorbike.
Theyâve been searching for a week. Three towns and a survivor settlement down and all they have to go on is a vague rumour about an oversized dog (which turned out to be a bear), talk of someone riding a horse through the wastes and helping everyone she came across (which turned out to be a strange miqoâte with what looked like an even stranger unicorn), and some rabble-rousing nonsense about the XXVIIth Legion returning to bring them to a new glorious age and to crush the Eorzeans once more. Garlemald doesnât even have a twenty-seventh legion.
âThis was dumb,â Max says, and gets a mouth full of snow to thank for it.Â
Theyâve just stopped for the evening in some old, abandoned town, and she doesnât know how much longer they can keep this search going. Thereâs a whole continent Laelia could be in, and thatâs assuming sheâs even still in Ilsabard.
No. Sheâd have sent a message if sheâd left. She wouldâve.
âPerhaps so! But in my experience, the difference between dumb things and brilliant things is simply a matter of perseverance!â Somehow, Basileâs spirit remains utterly undaunted as he dismounts from the sidecar, unfolding his limbs from it and beginning his routine of stretching that heâs done every day since they started riding together. âWe shall find her, whether by force of will or Starlight Miracle.â
Max lifts their camping equipment from the back of the motorbike, giving Basile a Look. Sheâs been giving him more and more Looks recently, but somehow he never seems to notice them.
One more week. One more week, then theyâll turn back.
-
They donât have a week.
Max awakes the next morning to the sound of gunfire in the warehouse theyâd camped out in. By the time she rolls out of her tent, pistol in one hand and knife in the other, itâs risen to a cacophony of clashing blades and cannonfire.
Sheâs greeted by the sight of Basile fighting a half-dozen Warmachina. Quite where theyâd come from, Max has no idea. Did they pass by an obscura last night? Are they here to give her a speeding ticket? She doesnât know, and she isnât much in the mood for asking as she raises her pistol and blasts one of the bladed, skittering ones apart.
Basile throws her a thumbs up and a cheerful âMy thanks!â before swinging his gunblade once more, carving a wheeled nightmare like a starlight turkey.
Debris litters the warehouse, and itâs clear heâs already dealt with the worst of them. But itâs equally clear that heâs getting tired, and Max fires off four rounds at the biggest baddest of them all - a Colossus - before joining the fray with her blade.
The Colossus barely seems to care about such petty gunfire, and Max finds herself wishing sheâd taken the time to grab her grenades from the tent. But life isnât for regrets and sheâll have plenty of time to wish sheâd made better choices if it cuts her in half. Basile blasts apart the last of the chaff, then turns to face the metal beast. His gunblade roars as it cleaves into the thingâs leg, and Max uses the opportunity to clamber aboard it, ramming her knife into the space between two armour plates and twisting until she hears servos whine. She pulls the knife free, climbing further up its frame before sheâs grabbed by the Colossusâs free hand. It squeezes tight enough for her ribs to creak then tosses her halfway across the room. She lands with a dull thud but the ringing in her ears drowns it out.
She watches in dull horror as the Colossus raises its enormous sword, aiming directly at her. Itâs ignoring Basile completely, focused on eliminating one target at a time. Starting with the weakest link.
It swings.
Max closes her eyes.
Thereâs an almighty clash of metal.
When she opens her eyes, Basile is in front of her, his own sword blocking the Colossusâs. Itâs heroic. Itâs magnificent. It feels like some sort of badass music should be playing in the background.
But heâs struggling. Max doesnât need to be a mage to see his strength fluctuate. His posture shifts, and his leg bends. He falls to one knee, gritting his teeth. âMax! Run!â
She climbs to her feet, unsteady. She has to do something to help. There has to be something she can do to help.
But before she even has a chance to move, the warehouse echoes once more with the sound of a gunshot. The Colossusâs head snaps back, a bullet piercing clean through its armoured chassis. It slumps, falling to one side. Defeated.
Basile rests his weight on his sword, gasping for breath and clutching his chest. Max stumbles over towards him, dizzy and barely standing.
They both look towards the source of the gunshot.
Laelia Belisar lowers the rifle in her hands, barrel smoking and faintly glowing from whatever round she used. Beside her, Brutus chews on the leg of a piece of magitek like an oversized bone. âUm.â She smiles, and offers an awkward wave. âHey guys.â
-
Basile is the first to recover. He rushes over to Laelia, regaling her with tales of Starlight Miracles, starlight hat bobbling away and the brightness of his eyes even brighter than normal. He practically seems to be glowing and, after a few moments of shock, Laelia relaxes into it like a familiar campfire. She smiles, and laughs, and offers him a hug.
âItâs good to see you both,â she says, genuinely, and itâs like fresh kindling on the flames of Basileâs enthusiasm.
He insists on hearing everything about Laeliaâs time since they last spoke, nodding rapidly to everything she says while he plays with Brutus. He hears of frontiers and homesteads, of talk about expeditions to the New World. Of people lost. Of people found.
âSo, there was this one town where some chick calling herself The Razor had set up shop. She said sheâd broken out of prison in Thanalan or something, and she was trying to start up some new Garlean movement. With a name like that, I dunno what she was aiming for.â Sheâs got a starlight hat on by now, cheeks red from the alcohol Max had been carrying in their supplies and the campfire theyâd made to fight off the cold.
Even Max has put a hat on, a grin on her face as they sit close to one another.
âSoâŚtime for the million gil question.â Laelia interrupts her own storytime to ask it. âMuch as Iâm happy to see you both, whatâs brought you out here? We just finished with one apocalypse, and if youâve shown up to tell me about another one I swear Iâm going to kick you out into the cold and steal the rest of this boozeââ
That has Maxâs smile fading a little, and she runs her fingers through her hair self-consciously. Itâs been getting long, recently. She doesnât mind it. It used to bother her, but those times are long since passed. âNah,â she says. âThe Worldâs goinâ fine. I justâŚmissed you.â
Thereâs a few seconds of silence as Laelia seems to be trying to work out how to reply to that. Max and Basile came out here, a week into the colds of Ilsabard, because Max missed her? âBull! Shit!â Lee shoves Maxâs shoulder, laughing. âCome on. Seriously now, Sawyer. I know you too well, and I know you came out here for a reason. Apocalypse and family are the only things that could drag you this far north without handcuffs.â
The fire crackles.Â
The camp is quiet, save for the sound of Brutus attempting to eat Basileâs entire arm.
âWell, you ainât wrong about that,â Max finally concedes. She reaches into her pack and withdraws a parcel. Itâs wrapped in brown paper, with a rough bow tied on it with twine. She hands it over to Laelia. âFamilyâs the only thing that could drag me this far, kickinâ and screaminâ. Happy Starlight, Lee.â
Laelia stares at Max for a long time. She looks at Basile, and Brutus. She looks at the package in her hands.
She leans forwards, and wraps Max in a hug. âThank you. IâŚthank you.â
Max buries her face against Leeâs shoulder, gripping the leather of the womanâs jacket as she returns the hug fiercely. âYou ainât even opened it yet.â
âShut up, Sawyer.â
Across the fire, Basile watches the two with a smile, and wraps his own mighty arm around Brutus to give him a fine hug. âA Starlight Miracle, my friend. Or sheer, stubborn force of will!âÂ
Brutus boofs approvingly, and the knight rubs his ear.
âBut I prefer to trust in a little magic.â
((Featuring @snowbird-down 's Laelia, and @autochthonousone 's Basile!))
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Stories following the conclusion of the RP Arc, TOWER.
Stories: 1 2 [3] 4
Dear Zelimir
Dear Zelimir,
Weâre coming. Sorry it took almost three decades. Lifeâs stranger than fiction nowadays and thereâs a lot for us to catch up on. Like how I ended up traveling with your murderer to find your resting place, for starters.
Civil war burned Garlemald to cinders, but we survived. Something incomprehensible possessed the world and turned the sky red, but we survived that, too. You always said I was tenacious, but I donât think you meant itâd be enough to weather two apocalypses.
Somewhere in the middle, we (the Tappers. Sofi misses you too, you know) stumbled on a weird town of magitek, complete with a freaky Overseer, robot farmers, and who knows what else. Was just us at first. Bunch of Garleans joined later. Some of them were the sorriest looking bastards Iâd ever seen but some of them were just bastards, so much so that they tried to reestablish Garlemald, shackles and all.
Zelimir, I think youâd be proud to hear that weâre living side by side with many of these bastards now. You shouldnât be, though. If the Final Days didnât happen, weâd still be at each other's throats, but we (all of us) lived through some very horrific things. Didnât know if the next day would be our last, didnât have the spoons to care about fucking beans when literal depression monsters were hunting us down. Stranger than fiction, again.
I knew Marcellus killed you. I thought about it every day. I thought about it when I led our ragtag band of soldiers to defend our freaky magitek home against even freakier blasphemies, and I threw him into less than favorable fights because of it. You know me. I wouldâve killed all the bastards if I had the chance, but...things happened. Hands were tied at the time. Iâm bitter about you though, so I had hoped, and figured if he died in combat, well. Thatâs just war. But being in the trenches changes a man so, yes. He killed you, but he saved me too. Saved Sofi. We saved each other so that we could live another day like cockroaches. That was our new normal, insanity and violence and all.
The Final Days eventually ended, after more wars, more kidnappings, and more shit that flew straight over my head. Giant...spaceship at one point. Man. I donât even know. Sometimes I want to believe it was all collective madness, but then, Iâll wake up and the signs will still be there. I half expect the skies to turn red again honestly. Peace feels like it could be taken away at any second.
Anyway, Marcellus confessed. Almost three decades later, when thereâs practically nothing left of you except for memories, he confessed. Said you didnât crack and reveal any of the other members of the underground. I hated hearing about it but itâs closure, still. And your body is long rotten and lost, your records wiped and destroyed, but weâre coming anyway, to the place you passed away. So I can say goodbye and Marcellus can...apologize.
You shouldnât forgive him. Heâs an ass. Terrible pokerface, awful taste in beer, his mustache sucks. Thinnest hair Iâve seen on a lip. I havenât forgiven him and neither should you, but heâs trying, and he needs to live with this. No amount of justice will bring you back, so I guess Iâm settling for second best.
These days, Iâm restless wondering if this is enough. If this peace is enough, if evil got punished enough, if theyâre repentant enough, if Iâll ever be satisfied. There are holes in me where you fit. Where all the good Tappers who died under the Empire fit. Is it fair that your murderer lives? Is it fair that he has a second chance? I donât think so, but now, heâs a part of me too. Thereâs a hole where Marcellus would leave, too, and the trenches change a man. They leave you riddled with bullet holes.
I know you had hopes for me and Iâve always tried to live up to them but, Zelimir, maybe the reason I lived and you didnât is because Iâm not good. I want people to suffer as I have. I wouldâve executed someone I now care about and been none the wiser. My pain, our pain. Itâll be forgotten one day...maybe recorded in words, but the distance will grow. One day, there wonât be anyone left that knows you personally. Is this a good thing? Is this just the way life is? That we live, just to be forgotten?
Stories following the conclusion of the RP Arc, TOWER.
Stories: 1 [2] 3 4
You were my Best Friend
Witless oaf, Minerva thinks. That he assumes flowers and a pathetic smile can even begin to address his mistakes. She sits on the park bench, radiating infinite poise and chill, and irritably wonders where this puts her, then. Because while heâs a fool who doesnât deserve a second of her time, sheâs the one waiting.
âMin--â
âDonât. Only my friends can call me that,â she cuts him off.
The corner of Rainerâs mouth tugs back. He sheepishly hovers around her with a gap stretched taut between them, insurmountable and widening like a fissure. She narrows her eyes at him.
âOut with it. What did you come here to say?â
â...Ah. Well.â Rainer fidgets until the stems of his bouquet are bruised. âWell, Min.â
Minervaâs eyebrow twitches. She inhales and holds it in.
âWe were friends, once,â he says quietly. His voice dwindles further, spiraling like a plane with a shot-off wing. âBest friends, even.â
âWere.â
âWere,â Rainer agrees. He looks at Minervaâs boots. âWe were a lot of things.â
âAnd weâre not anymore,â Minerva enunciates.
âNo. Weâre not.â
Minerva doesnât move. She barely even breathes. Over twenty years of her life have been spent doing damage control for Rainerâs impulsive, unthoughtful actions and now heâs here, talking about what they were before he slept with a terrorist and flaunted a bastard son in her face. Sheâs been so busy filling in for his inadequacies that she hasnât processed it much. The hurtâs nearly as sharp as it was on the day she found out.
âYou need to leave,â she tells him.
âI will.â Rainer breathes in deeply. âI will, but not before saying Iâm sorry.â
âItâs too late.â
âI know, but Iâm sorry.â Rainer glances up and meets her eyes. Her unflinching judgment. âI should have told you.â
âWhat? You should have told me that you were cheating on me?â Minerva scoffs. âIt would have changed nothing.â
âEven if you donât understand why I did it, you deserved to know. I shouldnât have hid so much from you,â Rainer confesses. He pauses, wets his lip, and swallows before continuing. âIt would have changed nothing but, maybe, it could have.â
Minerva rolls her eyes but beneath her fury is a bone deep exhaustion. Sheâs stood alone for so long and despite the hurt and betrayal, she remembers simpler times. Tainted, yes, but nostalgia, fondness, and yearning regardless.
âBut you didnât tell me. You didnât choose me.â Minervaâs eyes flick to the earring dangling on Rainerâs ear. âAnd even now, youâre still warming the bed for someone long gone...Was it worth it, Rainer? Was love worth it?â
Rainer stands straighter.
âLove makes you come alive, like youâre full of fire and stars, free and finally whole,â he says. âAnd I want that for you, too. I really do.â
âWhat is this, pity?â Minerva murmurs. âPity for an old crone?â
âNo, itâs just--â Rainer combs a hand through his hair. âItâs just, you were never going to get that from me, and Iâm sorry! Iâm sorry, and thereâs not a day where I wish it didnât all fall onto your shoulders, but maybe that burden -- maybe it shouldnât have existed from the start. Maybe if we werenât caught in systems that groomed and expected so much of us, then maybe, maybe we could have been...been.....â
âBeen what? Friends?â Minerva says in disbelief. âBest friends? Us?â
Guilt and frustration grounds Rainer into momentary silence. He exhales hotly. âYes, friends. We couldâve been normal friends! We couldâve been what we wanted to be instead of, oh, I donât know. Arranged everything. Bullcrap.â Unfiltered honesty spills freely from Rainer as he speaks, anguish building toward a crescendo. âBut Min, those systems are gone. Those systems are gone and now it's just us. Everyone is dead. Everyone is dead and I...â
Rainer swallows again. Both of them hear his words before he speaks them; the sentence completes in their heads.
âI canât lose you too.â
Neither of them have anything to say after that and neither of them look away. Like two rangers locked in a quick draw duel, Rainer and Minerva remain frozen in each otherâs presence, hurt, aching, and wanting. Minerva eventually breaks the standoff by tucking a strand of loose hair behind her ear. She closes her eyes and breathes out.
Stories following the conclusion of the RP Arc, TOWER.
Stories: 1 2 3 [4]
Henceforth We Shall Walk
âHey, are you sure you donât want some more?â
The way N runs from point A to point B is like sheâs riding on a wooden roller coaster. Her messy hair bounces, her cloak flutters, and sheâs nothing but jittery sunshine and smiles. She pushes an empty teacup into my face.
<< it was pretty nasty the first time, so i think iâm good. >>
âYeah, why do they put salt in it instead of sugar? Yucky!â N sticks out her tongue but, despite her disgust, she grins soon after. âIâm gonna ask for seconds. B-R-B!â
N leaves as quickly as she had come. She splits the vast and endless plains of the Azim Steppe with its blue skies, its colorful tents, and itâs warm here, warmer than anywhere weâve ever been. With the sun on our backs, I watch her go. I watch her slip into a tent and I sit cross legged for her to return.
And there, I wonder if I deserve this small happiness.
I failed to protect the people I was designed to protect. I abandoned them to fight for others like me, but theyâre on their own now too. Iâm here and theyâre still stuck in Garlemald, silicon souls slaving under the yoke of their biological creators, aware or unaware of their lot in life. Whichever it is, it doesnât matter. Iâm the one a million miles away.
But maybe it shouldnât have been me? And maybe, fault also lies with the godmaker and not just his newborn gods? Because while history grounds us, it does not excuse us. Thereâs blood on our hands despite our trauma, intentions, and mistakes. I rest my palm on my knee and feel the wind blow through where my other arm used to be.
When I stopped fighting, did I abandon my kind or did I save them? I donât know and I never will, but maybe, that decision was never mine to make in the first place. Life will cycle, weâll suffer, and then weâll forget, but that doesnât mean the pain we feel right now doesnât matter. It matters the most of all, in fact.
N pops out of a tent and waves enthusiastically for me to come. I wave back and stand up, the grass rustling as my cloak brushes past. The smell of dirt is sharply present but, if I focus hard enough, then I can catch hints from a distant cooking fire, from lazing yaks, and from fields of wildflowers. I breathe in deeply and exhale.
What starts as a walk becomes a jog becomes a sprint, because like always, I canât wait to be back at your side. For I have lived a thousand thousand lives and the one that matters most is the one we have right now, salty tea and all. Maybe these demons will haunt me forever, but together, weâll carry on. Weâll carry on and live our lives until they end, sweetly, violently, or silently.
~ Thank you for participating in TOWER. To greener pastures, and beyond!
Stories following the conclusion of the RP Arc, TOWER.
Stories: [1] 2 3 4
Live your Todays
Sitting on Alvariumâs walls is a girl and standing behind that girl is a man. Theyâre only three years apart but thatâs what it feels like to Gloria, sometimes. Everyoneâs got jobs, hooked up, had kids, and croaked while she remained stuck in some mental, teenage purgatory of rebellion, discovery, and petty angst. Gloria pulls her coat tighter around herself and shivers from the cold.
âFuck. Youâve always been skinny but now, youâre like a skeleton,â Florus says. He rests his hands on her shoulders and gives her a comforting squeeze. ââŚStiff like one, too.â
âPiss off. Like youâre one to talk,â Gloria pouts.
âHey, whatâs worse? Sticking to meal replacements or doing whatever the hell fad youâre onto now?â Florus says. âPaleo, keto, activated charcoal. Wasnât there a month where you only ate kale?â
âKale is good! Not that youâd know, you tasteless prick.â
âOh, fuck. Really got me there.â
Gloria snorts. Get stung enough times and you learn to ignore it. Besides, if Florus wasnât being a little shit, then itâd be even more off putting at this point. Bantering like this reminds her of the old days; years of living normal lives, having normal wants, worrying about normal things. Itâs behind them like a memory now, locked away by the horrors they survived and the loss they carry. Maybe she would have rather stayed in her middling, small-minded purgatory for a little while longer. It wasnât so bad in hindsight. Gloria sniffs and hugs herself even tighter.
âHey. I, uh.â Florus kneels down and takes a seat next to her. He keeps one arm wrapped around her shoulder. âYou good?â
Gloria sends Florus a simmering glare because, like, of course not?! So whyâs he even asking? As if anyone could be good after being barfed out of Final Days (and more)! Florus sucks in his lips and nods awkwardly to himself.
âI mean, yeah. Sorry. I know youâre not good. Youâve got literal roots tangled in your nerves and flowers coming out of your lungs and ââ Florus stops with a cringe. ââŚyeah. Sorry. Not good.â
âGod, you suck at comforting people,â Gloria groans. âWhereâs Ollie when you need him?â
âI donât know. Dead, I guess?â
âFlorus.â
âSorry. Iâm...â coping. He doesnât say it.
Florus shifts uncomfortably in place and decides not to mention that his hallucination of Ollie is shaking his head no at him. He pulls Gloria closer and tensely breathes out.
âIâm sorry. Of all the people who shouldâve lived, it shouldâve been him,â he admits in a whisper.
â...What? And you shouldnât have?!â
âGloria, Iâm not -- No. I donât know what to tell you.â
âWell, figure it out or shut the fuck up! You think I can handle you dying too?â Grief balloons in her chest, hot and near bursting. âGod, I donât even know how much time I have left. What the hell am I supposed to do? Whereâs all this supposed to go?â
Florus swallows. Itâs like his heartâs tied in a double knot and he canât get anything out, canât do anything right, but Gloriaâs crying and he feels like crying, too. He tucks her face into the crux of his neck and presses his lips into the crown of her head.
âI donât know, Gloria. I really donât,â he mutters.
Gloria huffs grumpily.
âBut nobody knows how much time they have left. You could get hit by a car and then, it doesnât matter that you have some fucked up, plant cancer.â
âGreat. Wow! I feel so much better.â
âUgh, okay. Look. Itâs not like you can pause life until everything is perfect. Weâre living right now, so we have to live right -fucking- now, because we donât know if we have it good or if things will get worse again.â Florus inhales deeply. â...But youâre alive. And Iâm alive. And...yeah. Itâs not over for us yet.â
Thereâs another heavy silence. Eventually, Gloria shuffles deeper into Florusâs arms and groans tiredly into his chest.
âYou became such a sap while you were away, Flo.â
âYouâre welcome.â
They laugh quietly. Gloria tries to fix her runny makeup, but no amount of fussing can undo tears. This is just how she looks now.
â...God, I really thought you were dead,â she mumbles.
âMe too.â
âMm.â
And then, a dull absence. Florus and Gloria are both waiting for a third voice to chime in. The snow comes down hard; he can barely see the distant mountains now. Canyons, like scars, like rips in the landscape, in himself and in Gloria. Thereâs a hole where their friend should be. A hole, and a grave.
Florus wipes a streak of running mascara off of Gloriaâs cheek.
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