Livelife

“It’s so fucking hard to breathe when you’re being smothered by your own insecurities and fears. I wish I could learn to love myself for who I am so I don’t end up sinking further into this ocean of self pity and loathing. I’ve been this way for my whole damn life and I don't understand why I can’t find one single thing I like about myself. Maybe it’s because there isn’t really anything good about me. I wish I could just kill the part of myself that hates me so much but I don’t think it’s possible because it feels like this is all I’ve become. I’d have to kill every single part of me to stop this hate from spreading. My mind and body is fill with so much hatred towards myself and it’s slowly killing me. Maybe I’ll always be this ways and I don'y think I'm ready to live this way, I don’t think I’m ready to live a life where I will never truly love myself. So instead I put all the love that was meant fro myself onto the people who couldn’t give a shit about me, in hopes they’d find something about me that makes them want to stay.”