elly.ly (she/her)

i can't sleep, i feel like throwing up whenever i want to eat, i ruined my mental and physical health completely and it's all because of you, i hate you, i hate that i love you so much it ruined me completely you asshole, i hate you for using my trauma over me and while i'm suffering, you still live like a normal person, completely unaware about what you did to me

i don't understand, you loved me, i don't need space, i need you, you don't need space, you need me. i'm cute and lovely in your eyes—aren't i ? you tell me that yourself, so why did you leave me over one mistake i made, why can't you accept the other version of me too, why .. you only love me when it's beneficial to you

the audacity to called me YOUR baby when you blocked me afterwards.

i hit or being mean to someone i like, it's your fault for making my brain short circuit especially whenever you're so close to me, not my fault i can't regulate my feelings properly

staying alive till today feels worth is because your favourite group is going on reunion this month (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

being short is difficult TT what do you mean i have to climb something just to reach the higher cabinet !?

something's wrong with me because when i see people cry, instead of pity or concern all i want is to see them cry even harder but i couldn't show how sick i am, i have to pretend that i cared and hugged them as a way of trying to comfort them ^^