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age swap reigen is so CUTE

like i'm living for this au...

um so happy birthday to bestest most beautiful boy??? he's gone through so much in the series but he withstood it all and continued to be a kind person !!

[ugh it's been like two weeks since i finished mp100 s1 and 2

i just wanted to do a before, middle, current thing

so the first image is my art from 2013(6th-7th grade), the second is my art from 2016(9th grade), and the third is my art currently(11th grade)

it's super neat to see how much you've grown over the years, despite how much you believe you haven't (and sometimes, possibly regressed)!

but yeah, i went back to my roots with hetalia cause that's where a lot of my motivation for drawing came from. and in a way i miss it, because back when i was still heavily involved with it, it was an amazing place. there were a lot of supportive people(despite the fruk vs usuk discourse), and i connected with a lot of my current friends with it. i still hold an appreciation for it, since while it's a simple show, it was something i really did care about.

it's definitely not as prevalent as before, and it is dying out. but i like to think that it affected a lot of people in positive ways like it did me. sure, it had it's faults. but it was still a source of entertainment and community for me, and many others.

u wanna know what feels amazing?

coming out to your friends and having them support you and let you know they'll always be behind you.

there's always that fear of telling your loved ones this and having them brush it off or not take it seriously. worst case, they'll stop talking to you or talk behind your back. they'll hate you and call you names, and leave you wondering if you're even worth it anymore.

and that's a legitimate fear. it's one founded in truth, and one that has us as humans worrying about our own value. but i'm here to say that no matter how much that fear whispers to you, no matter how much that anxiety eats away at you, there will always be someone who will accept you. who will support you. who will love you.

i literally hid in my friend's closet and "came out" to tell them i'm not a girl.

and i was on the verge of having some sort of panic attack because my anxiety was: through the roof!

but they all just held my hand and told me that i'm valid and that i'm important, and as long as i'm comfortable and happy they'll do their best to accommodate me.

and fuck, if that isn't true friendship i don't know what is.

but i know that many other lgbtq+ individuals don't have that support, or fear what respect and acknowledgement they have now will disappear if they come out. and it's a rational fear.

but i want you guys to know that you'll be okay. it can feel suffocating, it can feel like everything's wrong and that you're just waiting out an inevitable fall.

but please know that there are people who will love you no matter what, and that will accept you and support you even though it feels as though everything you have will come crumbling down.

yes, my words might not mean a lot. yes, these words are just on a screen. yes, i'm not there in person to tell you that you. are. important.

but i know it's difficult dealing with this alone. it's difficult not really having anyone to relate to, or just not having the connections.

so i'm here to tell you this, over and over until you believe it yourself. i'm here to tell that overwhelming doubt in you that you exist, that you matter. this stage in your life is hard, and it can be challenging, but there will always be calm after the storm. a rainbow after the rain. the sunrise after night.

you will be okay.

you will be okay.

you will be okay.

you will be okay.

you will be okay.

i’m still on this fukcing high from getting a haircut so i decided to show some self-love by drawing myself :^^^O

like,,,god i feel so,,, r i g h t