── ( synnøve karlsen. twenty4. cis woman. she/her. ) thank god you’re here, man - have you seen ELLINORE 'ELLA' ANDERSEN anywhere? i totally lost them after their rendition of long snake moan by pj harvey last night. no? they’re like, aye - high and go to PALLADIAN - i think they’re a SOPHOMORE studying FASHION DESIGN? but who knows, these days. all i know is that they’re CREATIVE & ERRATIC and a CAPRICORN . last night they kept going on and on about how they won MOST LIKELY TO NOT WORK A DAY IN HER LIFE last year, which is cool and whatever, but i just wouldn’t expect it out of them, considering they’re so, like, COMPETITIVE & OSTENTATIOUS , you know? anyways - i’m going to check down by the lamb and flag, i think that’s where they like to hang. text me if you see them, okay? bye! / as penned by kate. 28. gmt.
triggers: death, mental illness, abandonment tw
growing up, ellinore believed that she was an only child born to an american father and a british mother. she never saw much of her father due to his work commitments so raising her ultimately became her mother's job only. she would grow up splitting time in each country, making sure that she had that connection with her mother's parents, etc. the andersen's were extremely wealthy - her father had inherited millions from his late father and his high flying law career only added to the pot. ellinore's mother had not come from wealth and for some reason, she was ashamed of it. the woman would go on to say how wealth felt very isolating. by the time ellinore was twelve, they'd move permanently to the states for her father to start his own law firm, leaving england behind. the move would hit her mother the hardest.
unfortunately, her mother would pass away just a year later and it would leave ellinore confused, having more questions than answers. it had been clear that her mother wasn't happy - had she missed something? the loss of her mother was a great one - ella turned to partying and considering her father was never home, she had the perfect place to host. many people turned up but there was no one who could she could actually call a friend. it felt like no time at all until her father had replaced her mother with a younger model and this only lead to further resentment. he spent even less time in the house, said that she 'looked too much like her' - the to were married within six months and that raised alarm bells - how long had it actually been going on?
ellinore's own mental health started to rapidly decline and all of the people around her failed to notice. she had managed to make a friend at her new school, someone that stuck by her and defended her when necessary but it didn't feel enough. learning that she had a sister, that her father had cheated on her mother like that, that he had rejected the other - it was the ultimate betrayal. she wasn't good enough for him, that's what it felt like. after that revelation, it made her wonder whether her mother had known and that had caused her quick demise and if so, how much pain she was truly in whilst trying to look out for her daughter at the same time. it was the unknown that greatly upset her. ella didn't trust him, she couldn't. although he hadn't been around much, she did idolise him due to his work ethic but that quickly faded once she learned the truth about him.
she'd got drunk at her birthday party, slept her her friend's boyfriend and suffered what could only be described as a mental break. it had all got too much and she was in such a self-destructive mode that night. despite being hurt, her now ex best friend had been the one to call the emergency services that night. she'd lost everything, her mother, her best friend, her father as she was convinced that he hated her - he only came to the hospital once to visit her and then never again (he was too busy travelling around europe so it was clear where his priorities lie).
all of her higher education plans were cancelled for the meantime. she would go on to study fashion design but was finding recovery rather difficult. it was hard to be in that big house by herself. ellinore had rejected her sister as well but this was the time she was so close to reaching out, however, they didn't know each other, it wasn't like she could reach out for help. two years later, ellinore started to go to university but dropped out six months into her first term. there was a lot of pressure, she felt unsupported, she had become the 'mean girl' stereotype because she knew that people had a hard time liking her so why not just play into it? her sense of self and self-worth was greatly lacking and people saw her as trouble. of course, she was excellent at parties, a charmer just like her father, but it was all surface level and what people said to her face instead of behind her back was very different.
feeling like she was getting worse and worse, she finally reached out to her aunt, in bath, and went to stay with her (it was something she should have done a long time ago). the woman was warm, patient with the challenges that came with having her in the home and letting her adjust. at first, the constant attention did frustrate ella but looking back, it was because the other woman was concerned about her behaviour, about the lack of love her father had shown her, even in her darkest hour. it was her aunt that helped her get back on track, helped her apply to palladian, helped her with her portfolio.
just when ella finally felt settled into this new chapter in her life, another curveball was thrown - what did you mean, her sister now attended the same school as her? it felt like fate was laughing at her, trying to disrupt her life again. it is an unneeded stressor that she never thought she'd account for and she can feel herself starting to spiral again. she's older now so can deal with it a little better but corvina's presence does bring up a really dark period in her life and all the emotions associated with it.
little notes:
she hasn't disclosed her struggles with her mental health and wants to avoid it when possible. however, if she drinks and gets upset, it definitely shows and leaves people wondering what's going on with her.
gets carried away with a party - drinks too much but also never wants to leave until closing, even if she's in tears.
ellinore also has somewhat of a fake standard english accent - her mother's influence, a way to distance herself from her father, lack of sense of self, there's multiple reasons for the accent tweak but she'd been talking like she does for years now and it has stuck.
can really sing! she used to be part of choirs but got bullied for it so hard in her high school freshman year, she quit. calls singing 'lame' but then gets on karaoke and...
is trying to actively avoid bumping into her sister (that won't last long).
isn't sure what she wants to do with her life. she's really into fashion design and fashion (dare i say that she's a fashion queen with her unlimited daddy's money budget?) but isn't sure what she'll actually do with it. the goal would be to become a creative director for a major fashion brand but she doesn't feel that feasible. versace's going to start looking, right? maybe an influencer is more up her street...
is a loewe stan.
loves pj harvey.
a fan of dark nail polish.
sometimes talks in her sleep.


















