Beach Babe

You were everything to me

But I was just a body to you

And when life gets tough

You’re the bad feeling I crawl back to

A piece of misery I can cling to

Memory of the only happy I had left

I just really hope you leave soon

So I can let go of my tears and quit holding my breath

You are a broken cog failing my machine

You stole my last puzzle piece

I thought it was my turn

You were supposed to keep me happy

You can’t keep lighting me & putting me out

Finish me to the filter or flick me to the ground

Don’t come knocking because you know I’m not around

I have been treated like a dog.

Maybe it’s because I love like one.

Stay by your side, obey every command, not speak until spoken too.

Beg for boiled water on the stove

Anything, for anything.

I love like a dog.

Maybe it’s because I’ve been treated like one.

Scolded, left in the cold, hit on the nose.

It is all I am ever used to.

It is all I will ever be.

I am like a dog.

Loyal, Social, Playful, Loving.

But all you see me as is a bad dog.

Aggressive, Fearful, Loud.

It is all I am ever used to.

‘’ A girl does not need anyone who does not need her ,,

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I picked you up.

I could’ve smoked you,

But I swallowed you.

Loving you

was like eating cigarettes

Bad for me

and I wasn’t even enjoying it

maybe I like the feeling of being sick

I don’t want to be the mom.

Constantly taking care

Will always be there

Even when I’ve exhausted myself.

I don’t want to be the dog.

Quiet, obedient

No bite and no bark

Serve only you.

I don’t want to be the child.

Naive, impatient.

Impulsive and immature

So small and unimportant in your shadow.

I don’t want to be the wife.

On hands and knees

Cooked and clean

Begging to be seen

I want to be the husband.

Kissed and fed.

Treated with respect.