My brother is special, yes he is. Not only because he has special condition but because he has this special kind of heart.
Yes we fought, we fought hard. Like there are times that i slap him because of my anger but he never slap me back instead, he slap his self. It gave me almost 20 years to understand him, kasi nga we want him to be normal, we believe his normal, pero hindi pala dapat. Kasi he is special, so very special.
He is selfless. Like pag may gummy worms ako, ako ung ate so akin ung marami, sya ung bunso so onti lang sa kanya. Pero pag siya ang meron, bibili sya ng kanya tapos bibilhan nya ako para 1 is to 1 kami.
He is a good kid.Like papahiramin nya ko ng earphones nya, tapos hihiram sya sakin pero pag nasira nya ung akin nagagalit ako. Pero pag nasira ko ung kanya sasabihin ko kasalanan nya. And to my mother and father, sorry kasi ako talaga may kasalanan, hindi sya.
He never keep grudges. Like minsan nasisigawan at naaway ko sya. And minsan im so stupid ill say na abnormal sya. Magmumukmok lang sya. And cry his frustration and punch his self.Pero after that sya pa ung lalambing sakin.And now naisip ko ang tanga tanga ko, naiinis ako sa sarili ko, kasi do i really need to point that he is not normal? Nakakainis ako, i know. I've learbed my lesson.
And many more amazing things na ang tagal ko na nakikita pero nagbubulag bulagan ako, matagal ko na nararamdaman pero hindi ko pinapansin. Now nagsisisi ako. Yung mga beses nasasaktan ko pero never sya gumaganti. Yung sinisisi ko siya pero ako naman yung may kasalanan. Yung mga times na pino point ko na na may mali sa kanya, pero ang totoo hindi siya yung mali, never, ako yun kasi hindi ko naintindihan na kakaiba sya, kakaiba siya in a very good way.
And while im typing this random realization naiiyak ako kasi sa aming dalawa siya pala talaga yung magaling, not because he excels sa school, unlike me kasi sya madami syang pasang awa. But because he excels in love. Punong uno sya ng pagmamahal sa amin pero madami kaming sinayang.
There are times na nagagalit kami sa kanya kasi faulty sya, pero sya nagalit ba sya namin kasi gina judge namin sya? Hindi, never. Instead sinisisi nya sarili nya dahil ganun sya, and pag naalala ko un it breaks my heart.
Yes my brother is special, and iam proud of him. Kasi hindi man sya kagaya ng iba na magaling sa acads or sa iba pa, mas special padin sya compare sa kanila. Medyo grumpy lang pero that we can arrange.
And for me, this is my letter to my self, na sana maalala ko to once na mafill up ako with my stress and frustrations, na instead na magalit ako sa kanya dahil may nagawa syang hindi maganda,turuan ko sya, mas alagaan ko sya. Kasi he will always be the brother that i want to have, and he is the brother that God gave me, and i couldnt be anymore greatful. I love you baby bro, ate promises she will be more understanding, more caring and more patient to you. And with God's grace, sana we will grow and achieve our dream together.
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