Jun 10
I think an uncomfortable part of being trans that a lot of people rarely talk about is the natural aversion you have to your deadname. You feel like a complete asshole about it when its just someone elses name and you immediately form this sour taste about them just because they have a name that is unfortunately, attached to years of pain in your life.
My deadname is very common. I see it very often. When its separated from a person, I don't react to it. But some part of my brain struggles to handle it when I see a person- online or offline- actively using that name. I just don't want to perceive them at all.
