Kira

Let me warn you, one day you’ll come across a soul that will consume every inch of your being. They’ll make you want to stay up late just to hear the sound of their voice. They’ll make you want to sneak out to go see them. They’ll consume you. Every thing they’ve said to you will race in your mind and there is no way to stop it. You’ll over analyze every part of them, every freckle on their skin, each scar on their body, you’ll depict the slightest change in their tone of voice. Hold onto them, keep them around whether you’re together or not. But I’m warning you if they do leave you, stay strong and fight. Fight because every time they enter your mind your whole being will threaten to shatter. Anytime you catch a glimpse of them your body may tremble because I know mine did. You may find yourself gasping for air in between hysterical crying episodes, or unable to sleep as you stare at the patterns left on the walls from the moon shining in the window with them on your mind. You’ll still be able to smell them and feel their touch. You’ll remember every thing they did for you, but I will promise you one thing. It all gets better. I know that’s something that you’ll never believe when you find their shirt at the bottom of your hamper just when you thought you were getting stronger. Or when you catch them staring at you. Or when all of the memories haunt you of finding cats in corners and giving your body to them for the first time. I know that you think you won’t ever heal because that was me. But I healed and darling you can too. So keep your head up and smile. Them seeing you happy will hurt them more than you think, and you deserve so much better. You’ll find someone that will treat you right because heaven knows I did. So everyday do what makes you happy, do what you need to in order to get you through this darkness, and I promise you will heal. Take a deep breath, pray, do whatever helps heal you, but don’t become afraid of love. I’m warning you, you’ll find a soul that will consume every inch of your being, but they’ll find you too.

I will never change myself to be easier for someone to deal with.

And if you call me at 4 am, too sad to even say hello, I will listen to your silence until you fall asleep.

People come in and out of your life. For a time they are your world; they are everything. And then one day they’re not. There’s no telling how long you will have them near.