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studied abroad in idgafistan, went to the school of cuntery, then got a doctorate in sasukelogy with a concentration in sarcastic studies from the university of servington
hi so i just had something to say about the weak hero class 1 and how that was basically sieun's backstory, so
we know that this is yeon sieun's backstory, so it is told by him or as he remembers it basically like a flashback, so did u notice the color pallet of this flashback it's very ..... suho coded
like there is mainly blue(teal), white, red(like orange red) and did u notice that those are suho's main colors ? and whenevr he appears in a scene he stands out because of the way he wears vibrant colors compared to the others in the background? like at first i have wondered if no one in south Korea wore any colors at all except for ahn suho given that we can see people in the background wearing the same windbreaker as suho but it's always greyish or black never as vibrant as his, and as i was saying every time he is in a scene the colors of that scene are exactly the colors he was wearing (or most of the time), like is this a coincidence ? like why exactly is he the only human in south korea to have this windbreaker in those colors ? so my thoughts are that it isn't, i think it is just how yeon sieun perceived things, like sorta how you see ur dear ones wear/ eat/like something and u automatically start associating it with them? i think sieun or sieun's unconscious brain, just associates sieun's life in his old school or rather his happiest moments there (or u can say the time he spent with suho, even before they officially became friends ) with suho's color pallet and what he sees him wearing, and now is suho the only one who has these colors ? nope ! i think not, i think it's just that sieun never really paid attention to anybody else that's why they're all just wearing grey or black stuff, he just didn't care enough to see them just like they didn't see him either, which makes sense with sieun's character.
so his flash back or the story in his mind turned out to be in the colors of the only person that he saw and saw him in return, u see what i mean? basically sieun just distinguished suho out of everybody, and u can see that disappearing when suho isn't in the frame or when suho went into a coma, or even in that one scene we saw at his new school.
just goes to show how much of an impact a nice gesture and being a nice person has on people, suho was the only person who took sieun for what he was without and sugar coating and without asking for anything in return, and sieun world was painted with the the colors of that person.
hi so i just had something to say about the weak hero class 1 and how that was basically sieun's backstory, so
we know that this is yeon sieun's backstory, so it is told by him or as he remembers it basically like a flashback, so did u notice the color pallet of this flashback it's very ..... suho coded
like there is mainly blue(teal), white, red(like orange red) and did u notice that those are suho's main colors ? and whenevr he appears in a scene he stands out because of the way he wears vibrant colors compared to the others in the background? like at first i have wondered if no one in south Korea wore any colors at all except for ahn suho given that we can see people in the background wearing the same windbreaker as suho but it's always greyish or black never as vibrant as his, and as i was saying every time he is in a scene the colors of that scene are exactly the colors he was wearing (or most of the time), like is this a coincidence ? like why exactly is he the only human in south korea to have this windbreaker in those colors ? so my thoughts are that it isn't, i think it is just how yeon sieun perceived things, like sorta how you see ur dear ones wear/ eat/like something and u automatically start associating it with them? i think sieun or sieun's unconscious brain, just associates sieun's life in his old school or rather his happiest moments there (or u can say the time he spent with suho, even before they officially became friends ) with suho's color pallet and what he sees him wearing, and now is suho the only one who has these colors ? nope ! i think not, i think it's just that sieun never really paid attention to anybody else that's why they're all just wearing grey or black stuff, he just didn't care enough to see them just like they didn't see him either, which makes sense with sieun's character.
so his flash back or the story in his mind turned out to be in the colors of the only person that he saw and saw him in return, u see what i mean? basically sieun just distinguished suho out of everybody, and u can see that disappearing when suho isn't in the frame or when suho went into a coma, or even in that one scene we saw at his new school.
just goes to show how much of an impact a nice gesture and being a nice person has on people, suho was the only person who took sieun for what he was without and sugar coating and without asking for anything in return, and sieun world was painted with the the colors of that person.
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weak hero class 1 rant because itâs 4am and im in my feelings and idk how else to deal with them *cracks knuckles* please donât expect me to be coherent
itâs because of a twitter thread i made and i just wanted to elaborate more
if you didnât click the link hereâs what i said âthis montage gets me every time because you realize soohoâs bright personality hid the fact that he was just as alone as sieun was, always sleeping at school for working part-time a lot, probably the reason why he had no friends, also refers to himself as the hyung with his peers. then the montage sequence ends with sieun being considerate, not turning the lights on like he did before and studying in the dark to not disturb sleeping sooho. the same day sieun wakes him up to have lunch together and they unexpectedly click.. in a way it was a friendship built from understanding how differently they lived but also similarly alone, and having each other made their lives a little brighter and i think thatâs beautiful.â
also this hyunwook interview..
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i canât seem to stop overthinking about the little detail that sooho refers to himself as the hyung (í - older brother) with his same-aged peers (ëę°). in korea, age is a huge deal and it dictates most of their social cues, who to respect and how much respect is given. and i can just imagine how arrogant his peers might find him for referring to himself as the hyung, itâs like he acts all high and mighty amongst them.
am not puting all clips of him doing this but i remember the incident with baseball kids in the first ep he told them to bring the passed out dude to the nurseâs office and said âíě´ ě´ëŚ ë§í늴 ë¤ě§ë¤,â literally means âif you say hyungâs (my) name, youâre dead.â (and they arenât even his same-aged friends because someone murmured âbut weâre older than him..â still, theyâre high schoolers all the same) in ep 2 âíě´ëźęł ëśëĽ´ęł ěśë?â literally means âdo you wanna call me hyung now?â (or âdo you wanna give me respect now?â) in ep 3 while playing pool he said âíě´ íëęą° ě ë´ëź,â literally means âwatch carefully how hyung does (i do) it.â
[edit: i remembered another instance. in ep 1, yeongbinâs group bothering sieun again in the classroom. sooho was disturbed from his sleep, âwhy are guys so chatty these days? í ě ë 몝 ěę˛. í ěë ëź? ě?â literally goes âhyung (i) canât even sleep (with u mfs being loud). can hyung (i) sleep? hmm?â official subs: âsomeoneâs trying to sleep here. can i sleep in peace? please?â]
i think he does it because he knows he was forced to grow up fast due to his living situation, and in his eyes this made his same-aged peers /more/ childlike(?) and immature compared to him, whoâs already grown up and has adult big boy responsibilities to worry about than silly little exams and high school social hierarchy. heâs extroverted and has a sunshine personality, blunt and honest to anyone he talks to. he always knows what to say to kids his age to feel shame for the bullshit they pull. even with older people, the baseball kids, to gilsu âëě´ ë¨šęł ęˇ¸ę˛ ěëě´ěź?â
so yeah sleeping a lot at school due to working part-time for hours may have contributed to him not having friends (hello he follows like 5 people in instagram, such a skinny ratio with his 1k+ followers) but also he probably found it hard to relate and saw no reason to put effort in hanging out with them outside inevitable campus interactions. until sieun. sieun who sooho calls a weirdo, whoâs really interesting, whose eyes say how empty he must feel inside but you can see the fire in them. sooho probably thought sieun would never initiate a conversation with him but he did approach him for lunch that one time. and finds himself enjoying the company. now he grew to love showing sieun that thereâs more to life than studying hard and preparing for college. itâs all mundane things, eating, gaming, karaokeing, playing pool, âletâs drive all night long,â friendship and the kind of company that their families and other people couldnât give.
soohoâs all sun and bright but he hasnât found his person until sieun came along. both of them were very self-sacrificial, ready to risk it all and harm anyone to protect each other. i might just forever ache for sooho ending up on his deathbed after going apeshit seeing sieun hide the injury he got on soohoâs behalf.. and sieun throwing away his whole future when he went and hurt everyone who did that to sooho..
it hits different after i read the equivalent chapters in the webtoon because the suho-sieun-focused friendship story was prolonged for the drama adaptation. sooho was kinda not that interesting in the webtoon so i loved everything they changed and added for his character in the drama. but also like im upset because now im endlessly attached to him.. [edit: in case i piss off webtoon!suho lovers, itâs a personal preference. i love him too but i just cant help but be more emotionally attached to drama!suho] like fuck why did they have to write such a tragic friendship story between highschoolers im fucking done
Another little hint towards natsuâs feelings for Lucy...
Now that itâs been confirmed that natsu wanted to confess to Lucy at the end of FT Iâve gone back and reread 100 years quest just to see if I missed anything that might potentially hint at natsuâs feelings for Lucy and WHAT DID I FIND!!??
Well you see in chapter 8 when the water dragon god is talking to natsu and Erza he talks about how he became âstrangelyâ attached to caramille and dare I say LOOK at natsuâs face when he says that:
There is no way that natsu wasnât thinking about Lucy i mean at the start of Fairytail it was said that it was only ever Natsu and happy doing jobs and going out to do adventures together.
But once Lucy came into the picture before he knew it, it was all three of them taking jobs, (sometimes taking them just to pay her rent) breaking into her house, adventuring together, and hanging out. Natsu even said that he felt calm and more at peace when she was around or when he smelled her THAT WITHIN ITSELF SCREAMS ATTACHMENT.
I wonder if Lucy felt the same way since she was always alone back than and than all of a sudden her life was turned upside down when a pink haired dragon slayer and his cat asked her to join the guild... and now sheâs apart of a family... OK IM DONE
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Guys Iâm just wondering what would happen if Natsu became the cause of Lucyâs âdeathâ in the future? so far, whenever something serious happened to Lucy, it was someoneâs fault (Rogue, Dimaria, etc.) so Natsu always had a specific goal, a reason to fight. He had someone to vent his frustration on.
In the 100 years of the quest, we already had a situation in which Natsu lost control of himself, and Lucy said quite an interesting line
Maybe itâs just me, but I donât think the whole thing about losing control is a one-off, it just wouldnât make sense, especially since the real fight is STILL ahead of them.
Assuming that Natsu would lose control once more and hurt Lucy (this time, however, much more seriously), later thinking that she was âkilledâ by none other than him, what would he do? what would he think? Seeing that one of the most important people to him âdiedâ by his hand?
Donât take it too seriously. Itâs not even a theory, itâs a reflection, because Iâve been thinking too much about this scene lately. I realize it would be quite repetitive, but I still wanna see Natsu feeling guilty, but this time he canât turn it into a comedy. This would likely lead to a very significant breakthrough in their relationship that they couldnât avoid.
Hi! Wishing a very Happy Birthday to @celestialzeroxx !Â
Wrote a little something for you! Know how much we both enjoy some modern day hospital Nalu angst (with a sprinkle of fluff) đ. Had some inspiration strike recently and had to write this out for you, really hope you enjoy it! Have a great birthday, Hali!! Thanks for being such an awesome friend đ
Concurrence
Series: Fairy Tail
Pairing: Nalu
Genre: Romance, Hurt / Comfort
Setting: Modern Day AU / Hospital
Rated: T
Words: 4.6k
Also on ff here
A/N: Hi! Thanks for checking out my latest fic! Think Iâm getting too comfortable writing angsty things lol. But I canât help it, itâs just too good to stay away from. Hope you all enjoy it! Again, Happy Birthday, Hali!!
Summary: The uncertainty and fear of the unknown can be overwhelming. Yet, it could be the push Lucy needs to reveal her heart.
Lucy stepped out of the elevator, large silver doors sliding shut behind her. Heart heavy in her throat, making it hard to breathe. Her feet slowly dragged across the shining linoleum floors as she made her way through a number of hallways. Each one feeling longer than the next. Every pass under the harsh bright fluorescent lights above causing her hazel eyes, red with previously shed tears, to ache even more.
She passed door after door, some propped open slightly. The loud thumping of her heart almost blocking out the beeps of machines, low chatter of doctors and nurses, coughing, and groans of pain from patients that lie inside flow into the hallway as she walked forward. The numbers on the doors were getting closer and closer to his. She was barely able to read them, her eyes glossing over again.
His room was finally in front of her, making her heart clench tightly. Lucy stared at the door for a few moments, gathering some strength with a few deep breaths. Willing herself to be strong for him. Just like he would for her. She placed a shaking hand on the handle, turning and opening the door slowly.
I wanna talk about Weak Hero Class because I saw this on twt where Hyunwook talks about Sooho's relationship w Sieun and it's making me cry.
So basically I wanna talk about Sooho and how, for the whole show, he always emphasizes not crossing the line. From his first introduction of his fight with the baseball team, he told the dude that he crossed the line so he punched him. But before that he was mostly fighting in self defense and his attacks weren't too harmful (playful smack with a book for example). I think for Sooho, 'crossing the line' means harming someone severely and with malicious intent. Like those baseball dudes had intent to harm, sure, but Sooho never saw it that way and was even being playful. But the moment the baseball dude acted with the intent to really harm Sooho with the bat, thats when it was 'crossing the line'
The next instance was at the end of ep1 when Sieun was about curb stomp the shit out of Youngbin but he stopped him. Idk why he didn't stop him before that (if he was asleep through that then wtf..how??) but let's assume he woke up during the fight. He probably let Sieun handle it for a bit because he might have recognized how Youngbin deserved that but knew that if Sieun went any further, he would've been severely hurt. (Yeah he got a broken nose but he looked fine by ep 5 or 6 and STILL didn't learn his lesson so...if Sieun kept going, he would not have been walking around and shit)
Even when he was training Sieun, Sooho told him to run instead of 'finishing off' the opponent (which Sieun ignored obviously)
Every fight scene with Sooho before ep 7 have been either in self defense or defense of others and to me, I never saw it as him fighting just to fight or hurt but more to assist or defend. He's never sought out violence or harmed others maliciously...until Sieun got hurt.
(I would analyze all of Sooho's fight scenes but I don't have the words to articulate it and this post is getting too long)
We can also argue that he was defending Sieun when he lined up all the bullies and punched them in the gut one by one but Sieun wasn't there to witness this and I don't think he ever found out. Like this Sooho wanted to HURT those dudes. He wanted them to feel the pain that Sieun felt. Still, the Sooho in ep 7 was a vengeful one. The moment he saw Sieun and was hiding his cast from him, Sooho was on a path of revenge.
Then he sought out Yeongbin and broke his fingers and arm and was sending really threatening texts towards Bumseok. If I watched that scene out of context and without subtitles, I would assume Sooho was the bad guy. And then when he hit Bumseok, he probably would have kept going if it weren't for that other ufc dude interrupting. And tbh, I feel like the only fight that didn't cross the line was w that dude bc it did kinda feel like a spar for Sooho, like they both even wore the gloves. Like I don't think Sooho came in there wanting to hurt that dude, only Bumseok, and it was more like a sidequest for him. If the other bullies didn't get in the way, Sooho deffo would have won then he probably would've reverted his attention back to Bumseok.
But the moment he crossed that line, Bumseok decided to cross that line as well and then in ep 8, so did Sieun (until he faced Bumseok in the end and held back but that's another thing)
Idk what I'm really getting at here, just know that Sooho's fights in ep 7 were to HARM others intentionally whereas the fights before were not and maybe you could say it cost him his life (I know he's not dead but....yknow..)
Ship: Natsu Dragneel x Lucy Heartfilia
Summary: Lucy worries about what to get Natsu for his birthday, not knowing how ridiculously easy it actually is.
Day 5 of Nalu Week 2023 - prompt: gifts
Ao3
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Natsu was a good man. He was wild, fun, crazy, but most of all: good. Lucy was very aware of this and knew that such a good man truly deserved the best. So, naturally she felt slightly panicked when she realised his birthday was coming up.
Lucy liked to believe that she was good at giving gifts. She was observant, both on the battlefield and off, so she knew what people looked a little extra at when they browsed shops or went by markets. Wendy turned to sweets, cute dresses or jewellery, something Lucy was relieved over when she noticed it â Lucy was nothing if not good at picking clothes and accessories, and Wendy was transparent with her tastes (sweet = good, savoury = fine, if there was a good reason to why it was gifted, otherwise a little weird, and sour = danger zone. It could be risky, but citrusy tastes were appreciated in sweet desserts). Erza was also easy to please with gifts â either go the sword and armour route, or go the girly route, possibly with some suggestive books. Gray appreciated nice soaps and clean dĂŠcor for his house, and if she wanted to be funny with him she could always gift him underwear, seeing as it was the only clothing that stayed on for a while (though since him and Juvia got together it wasnât really an option â Juvia didnât care too much about what Lucy gave him, underwear or not, but Lucy herself felt weird about it, so nowadays she kept to soaps). Carla liked tea and pretty dresses as well, but appreciated flowers and other handmade things, and Happy was never happier than on his birthday, when he practically could get buried in the number of fishes heâd be given.
Natsu, however? Lucy wasnât too sure what she could give him. He liked loads of things â food, fights, adventures, funny hats, board games: few things were off the table with that guy. If she gave him a bouquet of flowers heâd probably smile and say thanks (and maybe heâd try to eat them once he got home), if she gave him tea, heâd probably set the leaves on fire and accidentally get high or something â she didnât want to risk it either way. Heâd be thankful for any clothes she would give him, but would most likely only wear them when he really had to, or to sleep if they were comfortable enough. He really liked his special made ones, that managed to stay intact no matter how hot his fire was. He would definitely try to eat the soaps, and that wasnât worth it in her opinion, and if she gave him a fish heâd very likely think she was either giving Happy a gift through him, or that she was confessing her undying love for him, since thatâs what it meant when Happy gave fishes as gifts to the opposite gender (of the same species, might be important to add).
Point is: giving Natsu gifts was hard when you knew him too well. She had even considered giving him jewellery that matched with the ones she had gotten from him recently, but it once again came down to him only wearing them as a chore, and her pride couldnât really take that. She would have to put a pin in this challenge though, because she was expected at the guild to help cover a shift for Mira as she dealt with one of her requested missions.
As she entered the guild hall, she was relieved to see that it was rather empty. It had its perks, working at a bar in the middle of the day, and since she saw some of her closer mates, she knew she could take her chance to dig around and find out what others would be gifting him.
âHi Master,â she greeted Makarov, still using the title he had tried to give over so many times already. Though technically he was still in charge, so Lucy thought it only appropriate to keep calling him master until he truly was off the position. âIâm covering for Mira this afternoon.â
âI heard,â he grumbled from his position in the wheelchair. âYouâve been behind the bar before, so you know the drill. In fact, could you bring me a plate of fried squid and a beer? Just put it on my tab.â
Lucy took his order and sent a note into the kitchen per his request. Normally Mira would help out in the kitchen as well, but since Lucy had limited experience with cooking the meals they were serving, she was excused to just manage the drinks and easier snacks, like nuts and chips. As she waited for the staff in the kitchen to finish the order, she poured a glass of beer for Makarov. Half with light alcohol, half with none. He was currently cutting down on his alcohol intake, Porlyusicaâs demand, but to not make him fall back immediately from quitting cold turkey, they slowly made him drink lighter and lighter.
âSo, Natsuâs birthday is coming up,â Lucy said, trying to cover it up as small talk, but realising it was obvious what she was trying to do.
âIâve heard.â A smug grin graced Makarovâs face. The relations between the mages in his guild were always amusing, especially in the stage that Lucyâs and Natsuâs had been in the last couple of years.
âIâm a bit curiousâŚâ She gave him his order. âWhat do you think he wants? Youâve known him for longest.â
âChild, Iâm too old to remember all my guild membersâ gift preferences, and Iâm definitely not rich enough to give away gifts like itâs nothing. For a long time now, Iâve allowed myself to forget who likes what.â Lucy smiled, ready to brush the topic off and take another order across the hall, but he continued. âI do, however, know that you could give him a stick or a pebble you found on the sidewalk, and that boy would treasure it like itâs his most sacred, most valuable item in his possession. Do what feels right, Lucy.â
She thanked him, but within she felt like she was back at square one. She knew he would be happy about getting any gift, but she didnât want to give him just any gift. She wanted it to reflect how much she appreciated him and their friendship, and she wanted it to stick out. Maybe it could even suggest that she appreciated him more than a normal friend, but only if he started overthinking the gift (which she doubted he would do anyways). It was meant to be subtle, but not subtle enough for it to never be discovered by him. And if it needed to be discovered by him, whatever this little message it was she was trying to convey to him, then it would have to be flashing in neon lights above his bed when he woke up in the morning.
So, she spent a few hours continuing to ponder on what to do, as she was taking more and more orders as people kept dropping in. At around 6:30pm her true saviours arrived at the guild hall. Her team, plus a few other closer friends and minus Natsu and Happy, who were camping today and tomorrow, were back from one of their shorter missions, and they were probably starving for some dinner. Lucy was quick to come over and take their order, also grabbing her chance to question them about their thoughts on this conundrum.
âHi guys, did the mission go well?â She greeted them, preparing her notepad.
âIt went great!â Wendy beamed, and Lucy made a quick mental note to ask about the mission more in detail at a later date. She must have done a good job if she allowed herself to be this proud â Lucy always thought she was too harsh on herself when they fought on missions.
âGray even kept his clothes on,â Erza added, praising the man on her right.
They took a quick moment to chat, and as they finally decided on what to eat, Lucy seized her moment.
âSo,â she started, already knowing she would never live down asking a question like this, considering that many of the people at the table were quite transparent on their opinions on Lucyâs and Natsuâs relationship, âNatsuâs birthday, huh?â
The silence her sentence brought made her regret it immediately. She could already see how their brains were working on new ways to tease her for whatever she was going to say next, but she would have to swallow her pride once again. Itâs for a good cause, she kept telling herself.
âHave you gotten your presents yet?â She chuckled awkwardly, hoping their answers would be enough to inspire her, so she could get their food and forget she ever brought it up in the first place.
âMhm.â
âYep.â
âI have too.â
âAnd Iâm with Wendy on her gift,â Carla added, still making it painfully obvious that nobody was elaborating their answers. They were making Lucy work for it; she just knew it. They loved grabbing their chances to make her say embarrassing things, and today was no exception.
âReallyâŚâ She forced out a laugh. âSo, what have you gotten him?â She tried again to prompt anyone at the table to speak up, but they knew she would have to continue pressing, and that it would sound more and more desperate the less information they gave her, so after they all stayed silent for another minute, Lucy gave in.
âIâve just completely blanked out; I canât even remember a single thing he likes! Please, help me! Give me some inspiration!â
Erza exchanged a glance with Wendy before she answered.
âWell, he likes fire.â
âAnd fighting.â
âAnd ugly tourist shirts,â Gray chimed in. Lucy groaned.
âI canât exactly give him a clip card for sparring matches, and Iâve already considered a bonfire, but I wanted to have a get together later with all of us where we make a bonfire and drink hot chocolate and stuff.â She spared Gray a short glance as well. âAnd he only wears his special made clothes, so I canât give him a shirt to frame for 200 jewel.â
âThen we canât help you,â Erza said, flipping her bangs as she always does when she lies. Lucy pouted.
âIâll get you your food, please help me afterwards?â
âDeal.â
After 30 minutes she finally had four hot plates balancing on her arms, ready to serve to her stubborn teammates. They were chatting along just fine now, so hopefully the would have forgotten their silent agreement to keep themselves clammed about their gifts. Lucy hurried to place out their food, hoping that they would notice her way of bribing them by giving them extra big portions.
âNow please...! What should I give him?â Lucy sat down at the table. She wasnât going anywhere until she got an answer she was pleased with.
Wendy gave her an apologetic smile.
âWell⌠We can tell you what we think, but donât you think heâd like it better if it truly came from you?â Erza nodded along.
âIâm going to give him a sword thatâs enchanted with endless fire,â she revealed. âBut you know, itâs not really a gift that screams âLucyâ.â
âErzaâs right. Iâm giving him some scrap wood I found in the woods because I canât really bother, but no gift we tell you to get will be as appreciated as the one you come up with,â Gray said, taking a sip from his beer.
âAnd weâre getting him a small cupon at a restaurant,â Wendy added.
Lucy sighed.
âI know it wonât be the same, but my creative well has completely dried up. Nothing I think of feels like enough. If I get him something Iâd appreciate it would be like I donât know him at all, and that doesnât feel fair.â She started to feel hopeless. She didnât like how drained she got from worrying about this â she loved Natsu! And she would love to properly show him how much she loved him, because he truly deserved that. Platonic or not.
âHey, you look like youâre giving up, thatâs not like you! Think of it like this, weâve all combined our own interests with Natsuâs interest: Erza with the sword, Wendy and Carla with the food, and me with the scrap wood that shows that I have zero interest in him. Why donât you write something to him? It may not look like it, but I think he know how to read. At least simple words.â Gray gave Lucy a half-hug from his seat in an attempt to comfort her.
âSo⌠you think I should write him a letter? Would that be enough?â She felt sceptical, but it could work.
âYou spitting on him would be enough,â Carla snorted, almost offended by her obliviousness.
âCarla!â Wendy burst out, not before Lucy raised an eyebrow in confusion. Her gut told her not to ask, and for once, she decided to actually follow that gut feeling.
âDo you really think a letter would be enough though?â She asked.
âHow about you give him an experience? A friendly date of sorts,â Carla suggested.
âAn experience?â
âLike going to the movies, or to a restaurant, or maybe picknick or stargazing?â It was Erza who spoke up this time, and Lucy thought she could see a sparkle in her eye. If she didnât know better, she would almost think that Erza had been on dates like that herself.
âHm⌠I guess youâre right. If he doesnât like it, Iâll just have to ask him directly, I suppose.â
Lucy stood up from her seat at the table and bid farewell to her friends, along with her thanks. A letter would have to do, and she had a gut feeling that told her that she would figure out a good topic to write about. She hurried to end her shift so she could get to her gift-making. A good idea rarely stayed for long in oneâs head.
When she finally sat at her desk, pen in her right hand and paper in front of her, she knew this was the right thing to do. What better way was there to tell Natsu how much she appreciated him, if not through words on paper? It was her speciality, after all. She had even lighted some candles to keep her company, since she knew she would sit there for a while. There was a lot of things she wanted to tell him and thank him for, and the letter would be the perfect way to convey these feelings. Right. Feelings. That could include her less platonic ones, and even if this was a great opportunity for that as well, she didnât know if she was quite ready to go that far yet. In the meantime, she would just have to tell him she loved him in every way except the straightforward one.
Four hours and 16 pages later, she had her letter. It was ridiculously long, she knew that, and he probably wouldnât be able to read it in one go, but her heart felt light. A letter was the perfect gift. She had even included multiple invites to âexperiencesâ she wanted to give him, and if he took as long to read it as she thought he would, then those experiences would be experienced with about one week in between them. Lucy gave the thick envelope a quick lick to seal it, and after that she couldnât help but to give it a soft kiss. She had poured her heart out, and though it would be embarrassing for her to know that he would read such things, it also felt very right. It wasnât a love letter, but in a way, it felt like it was. She had told him all the things she loved about him, all the moments she especially appreciated him being there, and how great her entire life was thanks to him. If read with the intent of reading a love letter, it could very well translate into one, and maybe, someday in the future, he could look back at it and see the hints she left him.
Lucy leaned back in her chair with a big yawn. It was well into midnight hours by now, and she really needed a refreshing shower. A thought went to how Natsu and Happy were having it right now, in a tent somewhere in the woods. Though she was happy to get to sleep in her soft bed, she was missing them. Tomorrow couldnât come soon enough. To speed time up she hurried to the bathroom so she could get into bed as soon as possible â her apartment wasnât the same without those two.
Lucy cursed herself. Why, why, why had she written that letter? It was the most obvious love-confession anyone could ever read, how on earth had she not realised that when she read it through yesterday? She was dragging her feet behind her, because if the embarrassment wouldnât kill her when he read it later, she would have to kill herself, and no one non-suicidal would ever look forward to something like that. So, her feet dragged. The letter felt heavy in her hands, and she knew that as soon as it would be opened, she would feel naked. Her gut was begging her to turn back, but her heart told her that celebrating Natsu today was more important than her pride. Him and Happy were coming back from their camping trip, and they promised her they would stop by the guild to say hi before heading home, and thatâs when they would be surprised with a small celebration. Nothing like other events, where people went completely wild, but a celebration big enough to show him some appreciation.
Checking the clock one last time, she made sure that she was there before they arrived. They woke up pretty late generally and their favourite camping spot was about an hour into the woods. 10am. Maybe they hadnât even woken up yet, but Lucy didnât want to risk it. She wanted to prepare and decorate the guild, and then she would grab something to eat, considering she hadnât eaten any breakfast yet.
As she entered the guild, she was relieved to only see her team and a handful more people. They were chatting and blowing up balloons, and they had turned one of the tables into a gift-table. Lucy hurried to put her letter amongst the others, eager to get the gift out of her hands.
âGood morning, Lucy!â Levy greeted her with a hug. âYouâre pretty late, did you stay up last night?â Lucy chuckled lightly.
âYeah, I had something important to finish.â She felt her teamâs eyes in her back â they knew she had stayed up writing, and though Lucy knew she hadnât written a love confession of any sort (other than platonic) she still managed to feel a blush creep onto her cheeks.
âSo, do you need help with the balloons?â She offered, greeting the rest of the group.
âItâs fine, you go ahead and grab some breakfast instead,â Mira smiled.
âHow did you know I havenât eaten?â Lucy sat down at a table.
âYou have a tendency to forget to eat when you have other things on your plate,â Mira just answered, placing down a yoghurt bowl with homemade granola and fruits. Lucy could only smile sheepishly, slightly embarrassed how obviously nervous she was about this event. She was sure Erza had told her about her moment of weakness yesterday, so she reminded herself to try to keep herself under the radar. Sheâd just be here, sing a happy birthday song, eat a piece of cake and watch Natsu open his presents, then the day would be over and the whole Lucy-confesses-her-feelings-though-a-letter thing would be over! No unnecessary teasing from her friends, if all went well.
âIâm back!â
The guild door shot open with a noise loud enough to give the untrained ear a heart attack. Lucy however had a trained ear, so she just turned her head and met Natsuâs happy gaze, her heart fluttering at the fact that his eyes immediately searched for her and no one else.
âHappy birthday!â The guild cheered. Lucy stood up from her place at the table, not really knowing why until Natsu stood in front of her, just an armâs length away. If she reached, she would be able to bring him into a hug, and it truly itched in her arms to do exactly that.
âHey,â Lucy smiled softly. âHappy birthday.â Watching Natsuâs smile go from surprised and generally happy, to soft and caring made Lucy lose what little control she had, and she caved into her needs to hug him. As soon as she felt him hug her back, she knew that whatever the others thought about the content of her letter contained, as long as Natsu read it and took it to heart, all would be fine.
âThank you,â he whispered, tightening the hug for a second before he went ahead and thanked the rest of his friends, never straying far from Lucy.
The birthday party was overall a quite big success, everyone had a great time, and Natsu, who not so secretly had been itching to open the presents, finally gave in and announced what he was planning to do.
âTime to open the presents!â He cheered, almost jumping in place in excitement, clearly not representing the age he was turning (400-something years old) but making everyone smile regardless. Everyone except Lucy, whose heart flew up in her throat, suddenly getting the strongest urge to grab her letter before he got to it so she could throw it away or burn it. Not because she didnât want him to read it â she would just prefer it if he read it somewhere more private, where the burning eyes of her much beloved friends could read it and jump to conclusions. So, she hurried close to whisper her plan to Natsu â despite him being the cause of these nerve-racking feelings, he was still her partner in crime, and she knew he would break his neck to achieve whatever she asked him to do. This time, what she asked him not to do.
âPsst!â
Natsu shot a glance to Lucy, who was whispering just quietly enough that no one else would notice, unless they had dragon ears and paid attention to her. Lucy, who saw that he had heard her, hurried to shoot her shot.
âMy gift is the letter, I would kinda like it if you read it after the party instead? Itâs just â itâs quite long and it wonât be any fun if you sat down and read it here, you know?â
The ball was in the air, and now she could at least sleep well knowing that no matter the outcome, she did try her best to steer the situation into best case scenario â all to her means of course.
Natsu, the king of pranks and someone who was surprisingly good at sneaking around, despite his usual love for the âletâs just barge in and fight anyone who tries to stop usâ approach, still managed to keep up his gleeful demeanour as he had listened to Lucyâs request. He once again met her gaze and gave her a quick nod, ensuring that she had scored. The rest of the evening would manage to stay calm and uneventful. All thanks to their ways to keep down low. It was really convenient to have dragon hearing at times like these â though usually she had that thought on missions, and not happy, meant to be uneventful celebrations and parties.
The birthday boy himself didnât mind opening Lucyâs gift later. In fact, he was just happy he was getting something at all from her, considering how stressful most birthdays could be for her. Sure, she already knew what genre people liked, but getting down to picking the actual thing and managing prices was a hard task for Lucy to tackle without stress. So instead, he went ahead and opened the elongated, wrapped gift that said âHappy birthday, from Erzaâ on the card. He would make sure to ease Lucyâs mind today, considering how stressed she clearly had been the last couple of weeks.
Natsu couldnât stop grinning. He truly had the best friends ever, and despite him not being a big birthday celebrator when it came to himself, it felt good to be appreciated. There had been good songs playing, yummy food to eat, and most importantly: good company. He especially loved the presents he had gotten, since they clearly were gifts that his friends had carefully thought through and taken into consideration before giving them â yes, even Grayâs gift was appreciated, because though it seemed silly, he did sometimes need firewood after hard missions to speed up his recovery. Everything was dear to him, so when he finally got home with that thick letter in his hands, he couldnât wait a second more to open it. This, you see, might be the dearest gift of all.
The softly written âTo: Natsu Dragneelâ on the front of the envelope made Natsuâs heart beat harder. He knew that the content in it probably wasnât anything out of the ordinary stuff the two of them said to each other, but still. He liked that Lucy had put extra thought into whatever she had written. Or, at least he hoped she had, seeing as he didnât actually know what the letter said yet.
Happy peaked over Natsuâs shoulder, closing the door behind the two.
âSo, what are you waiting for? Open it!â Happy urged, eager to see what Lucy wanted to say to him, but clearly couldnât since she had to write it down. In his opinion a speech would be quicker, knowing how slowly Natsu read.
Carefully Natsu parted the sealed wax from the paper, making sure not to tear anything. If he could make some space, heâd want to hang everything on his memory wall later, and in that case he didnât want to ruin it.
Still standing just inside the door, Natsu began to read. The letter started out rather normal. She was writing the obligatory happy birthdays and saying hi to Happy, who she knew would read over Natsuâs shoulder despite it being a private message. That part piqued Natsuâs interest a little extra. What did she have to say to him that not only had to be written, but wasnât meant for Happy to know? It sparked some hope in his heart that she possibly could feel something special about him â special-er than what they already had. He continued down the page. She started reminiscing about the past, and about halfway through the second page, Happy gave up on Natsuâs slow reading and told him heâd simply read it after Natsu was done with it. Natsu took a seat as he joined Lucyâs trip down memory lane, enjoying the new information on how she saw him when they first met, during their first missions and more. He especially liked learning that despite his foul mood the first days together, she still had fond memories of him, like when he included her in his list of friends when they fought Macao (before they knew it was him, since he had turned into a Vulcan) and how the reason she didnât refuse to get along with him after he had seemingly deceived her for a mission, was because he had managed to get a few lucky words in. Something like âbecause we thought you seemed niceâ had made her stick, and Natsu could only thank his past self for accidentally pressing the right buttons.
As he continued reading, he was struck by the wonderful realisation that he truly mattered to Lucy. Itâs not like he didnât know that she enjoyed his company, but seeing in in black and white was completely different. It wasnât just that she had written something along the lines of âI care about you, your existence matters to meâ (though that would have worked as well), but the fact that she could remember so many small details of what he had said and done, that she may as well have written a complete book with all those moments, and it would probably be at least 200 pages long. He knew she had been cutting down on what memories she brought up in the letter, because enough talks with one person made them show how much brain capacity they had, and Natsu knew that her brain capacity was way longer than a 16-page letter. This was her way of being concise. Yet she still managed to bring up moments he only vaguely remembered, sharing almost exact quotes of what was said and by who. Mostly the who was either Natsu or Lucy, but it was still impressive.
Natsu had never been interested in reading. It was a chore he had to go through to get the money he needed for food, had never been any more interesting than that. Except for two occasions: Lucyâs first published book, and this letter. Sure, he had been reading it for almost double as long as it probably took to write it, but that didnât mean he wasnât interested. This letter was so far the greatest thing he had ever received, which wasnât an easy thing to manage.
At 4am had he gotten to the last line of the letter. His eyes were trying to force him to rest, but his mind fought it like never before. He had skipped dinner for this, and he was not planning to give up last minute, just to succumb to something so superficial, boring and unnecessary as sleep. No, he gathered up some extra will power and pulled though. âThough you probably understand this after reading this letter, I am simply eternally grateful for everything you are, and what youâve just read is the best I could do at describing my gratefulness in words. Thank you for all youâve done, and for being unapologetically you. No one else could make me as happy as you have, so once again: Happy birthday, Natsu Dragneel.â She had signed it with her signature at the very bottom, ensuring that all he had just read was completely and wholly from Lucy. After reading the whole thing, he felt his legs itch. No, maybe it was his arms. Feet, hands? No, it was most definitely his soul that had started to climb inside his body. He wanted to go to her, and he wanted to see her. Preferably five minutes ago. He threw another glance at the clock. 4:50am. He had been tossing around, unable to even do as much as close his eyes, for the last 40 minutes, and he knew he wouldnât feel better until he was within a 20-meter radius of Lucy. Or rather, 2-meter radius.
Not bothering to sneak around the heavy sleeper that the exceed was, Natsu jumped out of the bed and pulled on his slippers. In less than 3 seconds he was out the door, and in another 3 he noticed that he was running. He wasnât quite sure what he would do when he saw her, especially considering that she most likely was asleep in this hour, but he simply had to get to her, quickly. The time was ticking, like he was a bomb soon to explode, like he was going to run out of time if he didnât arrive soon. Wind blowing in his ears, he could barely make out the sound of his heavy breathing. He hadnât run this fast in Mavis knows how long, and he might actually had made it outside her apartment in record time. His chest rising and lowering in big breaths, he managed to make something of a sigh in relief to see her window slightly opened. Climbing the wall quietly was no challenge with Natsuâs experience, so he swiftly pulled himself up, making sure to fully open and enter the window as quickly as possible â though this time with less success since he didnât have as much experience with that part. Usually he just barged in after scaling the wall, seeing as the time he did it at was most often a time where Lucy either was away or awake.
Either way, he didnât manage to sneak in as stealthily as heâd like. The window creaked and his body almost fell limp after getting a whiff of Lucyâs calming scent â that he had been running like a maniac to get there didnât help either, and after a loud, nongraceful landing, Lucy was already awake.
âNatsu? âs that you?â She mumbled, sitting up and rubbing the sleep out of her eyes.
âYeah, sorry for waking you,â he whispered, finding his balance on his legs again as he stood up.
âNo worries.â Lucy had now swung her legs over the edge of her bed and sat in a more upright position. âDid you need anything? Is Happy alright?â
âYeah, heâs at home sleeping. I just felt like coming here,â Natsu said, full transparency.
âAlright,â Lucy said, now taking a better look at his face. He looked red and flustered, but with his heavy breathing it might just be the fact that he ran to her place.
âI read it.â
Lucyâs face started getting hot as well.
âThe letter?â
âThe entire thing.â
âWow. Uh, so what do you think of it?â Had the hour been normal she might not have asked him such a bold question, but something about the way the streetlights and moon illuminating the room made her feel brave. Perhaps she still thought she was dreaming, but this felt much too real to be just a dream.
âItâs perfect.â Natsu took a few steps closer. He could now make out most of her facial features, sleepy yet alert of his presence.
âIâm glad.â
A few more seconds went by, though it felt like minutes.
âIs it true?â
âIs what true?â
âAll of it. All the things you wrote?â
A soft smile graced Lucyâs lips.
âOf course. I would never lie about those things.â
Natsu knew he could be dense in most situations. He couldnât always read the room, and he wasnât good at subtext. This time however, he had felt something the whole time as he read that letter. Maybe it was what other would call âreading between the linesâ but he suddenly had great confidence in something that could change their relationship forever. Of course, it was a very long shot, but perhaps the adrenaline from all that running was just what he needed to gather the courage to take it.
He did, however, decide to test out the water first. Running headfirst was usually his go-to method if he could choose, but he wasnât blind to the delicacy of the situation he was putting himself in.
âCan I assume things?â He tried.
âAssume things? From what I wrote?â Lucy asked, curious where he was leading this conversation. She was very aware of her heartbeat, but she didnât know that she didnât have to be this time, considering that all that Natsu was hearing was his own.
âYeah.â
âIt depends. What do you want to assume?â
Natsu swallowed. Did he always have this much saliva? If so, maybe something was wrong with him. He swallowed again, clenching and unclenching his fists. Had he ever been this nervous in a situation as calm as this? No bandits, no monsters, no big wild animals â not even an annoyed Erza was around.
âThatâŚâ he started, his tongue thickening as he spoke. Not literally, but it sure felt like it. He could barely concentrate on what he wanted to say, gazing into those doe eyes. She was so, ridiculously pretty. He knew that before, of course, but he almost found it unfair. How could he think of any words when she sat there, looking all nice and pretty. âThat you like me?â
He had said it as a question, though it sounded more like a statement right now. Lucyâs heart must have skipped a beat or two. She was still sleepy, but the tiny possibility that this wasnât just a perfect dream made her stop herself from straight up answering yes.
âWell⌠I hoped my letter was clear on that. Youâre my best friend in the whole world, how could I not like you?â She let out a small chuckle at the very idea of disliking a friend. She didnât, however, predict what he would say next.
Natsu reached out his left hand, touching a piece of her hair that had fallen out from behind her ears.
âBut can I assumeâŚâ He put it behind her ear, âthat you like me more than a friend?â
Natsuâs eyes were darker than usual in the dimmed light, but Lucy saw clearly that he was being serious. Though, this exact facial expression was one she had never seen before. She had seen his tender look, his soft look, his happy look, his loving look, but she had never seen this combination of all. And it was her he was showing it to. In fact, maybe it was exactly this expression that made her admit the truth for once. For so long she had been scared that he would feel bothered or surprised by the very idea of âliking beyond friendshipâ, or love, as she would prefer to call it. She had been afraid that he would find her fantasies of the two of them living their life together as a couple weird, or even mildly repulsive. That her confession would lead to their friendship breaking apart forever.
That, however, could no longer be the case. Lucy wasnât blind, and she certainly wasnât dumb. If Natsu looked this⌠happy? To even assume that she likes him beyond friendship, then the outcome from telling him the truth couldnât possibly be bad. She tilted her head lightly towards his hand, sharing another smile.
âYeah. I do like you more than a friend, or a best friend.â Natsu took another step closer, now close enough to make her feel his hot breath on her face that he had tilted upwards, towards him.
âThenâŚâ He bended down slowly to come closer to her sitting position. âCan I kiss you?â His words didnât come out louder than a breath, but Lucy knew what she heard. Her heart had never danced as wildly as it did when she nodded and closed her eyes as Natsu closed the space between them.
The kiss itself was probably nothing special to someone watching. It was plain and soft, just two mouths pressing against each other. For them, however, it was nothing short of magical fireworks. Lucyâs cool, soft lips against Natsuâs hot, slightly rougher ones sent shivers throughout both of them, as if the small touch had opened a completely new door, a way for them to connect and become closer than ever.
Inexperienced as they both were though, they soon had to break it off to breathe. After less than 20 seconds, Lucy pulled their faces together again. How could they have been missing out on this awesome experience for all the years they had known each other? Natsu knew that this already had topped the list of his favourite activities â even placing higher than eating and fighting. The next time they went up for air, they couldnât stop themselves from giggling.
âCan this count as a birthday gift if I havenât slept since yesterday?â Natsu asked, more energetic than reasonable after his long day.
âIf that makes you happy,â Lucy smiled, giving him another peck on his lips. Whatever they decided to do from this point on, Lucy knew they would figure it out. After all, if they had managed to overcome the obstacle of going from friends to whatever this was, then they could definitely manage anything and everything else thrown at them. Whatâs important was that they from this point out, took on every challenge together.
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