Elemental System

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⌦ .｡.:*♡ collective names: *Sulphur/Ro*

⌦ .｡.:*♡ collective pronouns: *They/He*

⌦ .｡.:*♡ bodily age: 22

..••°°°°••.. *About Our System* ︑︒⚬∙︓·⠄

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⌦ .｡.:*♡ disorders: DID, AuDHD, Chronic Migraines

⌦ .｡.:*♡ alter count: 40

⌦ .｡.:*♡ frequent fronters:

✧. ┊ Ro - 🍊

✧. ┊ Vannie - 💋

✧. ┊ T - 🧢

⌦ .｡.:*♡ other alters who've posted:

✧. ┊ Bucky - 🦾

✧. ┊ (private alter) - ✈️

✧. ┊ (migraine holder) - 🥯

✧. ┊ Maren - 🔫

we hugged today

after almost 4 years (jesus) since i first saw her perform and she utterly changed my life, we hugged today. first time ever

and it was so casual?????

she saw me, got excited, and gave me a hug

we have never physically touched before today, aside from brief hand encounters while she takes my money

😃

which sounds like an insane thing to observe, but it's something i consciously think about all the time. i'm autistic as FUCK and try to mirror people to avoid making them uncomfortable, so i wait until *they* break the touch barrier

...

i still can't believe it

but it makes me just a little bit sad that i can't hop over there and find people who remember similar things to me

jax stronger than me cause when somebody DID literally make it the core of psyche, having seen every single part of me that i never wanted anyone to see, i still turned and pushed them away again

i'm trying to consider myself in remission about it, like i'm trying to say that all the running and pushing is done now, but it still feels so raw that i'm like.... idk, i don't trust myself yet