Heya, I'm Elcee :) 30, french person lost in Spain somehow (I hate summer please save me), going by they/them pronouns (occasionally she/her, if you know me irl)
Writer, TTRPG enthusiast, music lover, and occasional psychology nerd (not trained, it's just a big interest of mine). And I do art sometimes. When the muses strike.
Mostly posting and reblogging bg3 and writing things, and it's likely going to be like that for a while since I'm currently in the middle of writing my longfic for bg3, but you can consider this place to be a multi interest platform for all the aforementioned hobbies.
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Common tags : #elceepost | #elcee writes | #my art
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Fanfic
(bg3 exclusive for now but who knows what the future may bring)
Hope over Power - Part I. Closure [AO3 link]
The battle is won, the Netherbrain defeated, and Astarion is free. But as he returns to the shadows, someone fails to follow him βhis lover, child of Bhaal, condemned to madness by his own father. For weakness, for disobedience, it matters not, Storm is lost. Astarion navigates his grief with the help of Tav, and fights for closure as they both try to find where the balance of their friendship lies, now that Storm is gone.
In progress : 19/30
Longfic Interview is here
The context of how this happened in my head can be found here
Please be mindful of the tags on AO3, this is a sad one
General tag | WIP tag
One shots (or super short stories)
(mostly, those are the chapters of the previous fic diving into Astarion's memory of the tadpole journey, and they more or less all work as standalone if that's all you have the space for)
The simple plan (angst and comfort, durgestarion/bloodspark)
Chapter 1 [AO3][Tumblr] | Chapter 2 [AO3][Tumblr] | Chapter 3 [AO3][Tumblr]
Kindness is a hateful thing (hurt/comfort, durgestarion/bloodspark)
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Shivers (fluff mostly, and this one is unedited because pride could not wait, and I'm too lazy to edit it now :p I will, at some point because there are many things I'm not happy with in this one, consider it not canon to Astarion/Storm story)
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You will feel my hunger (hurt no comfort, durgestarion/bloodspark)
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Here Comes the Sun Again (fluffy angst? is that a thing?, Tav & Astarion)
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Stay (angst)
This one is about Nocturne! Also unedited because it was for a flash fiction prompt and I rarely go back on those
Only on Tumblr (if I edit it it might make it to AO3 one day)
First Snow (fluff, Shadowheart x Halsin x Karlach)
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The Quiet and the Storm
Snippets of my Dark Urge's tadpole journey alongside Natavriel, and of his romance with Astarion (I think it's going to be even sadder than the main fic, sorry xD)
Any Storm POV one shot will go here too
Home (some backstory, lots of angst, hopeful ending)
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Violent Delights, Violent Ends (durge backstory, tragedy, mind the tags)
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A name is a powerful thing (angst, some minor comfort in the form of Tav being here, mind the tags)
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Conflicts Of The Mind (act I angst, hurt/comfort, mental health exploration)
[AO3] In progress : 1/3
Other BG3 things
For analysis, thoughts, headcanons, OC games, and occasionnal art
Analysis and headcanons
Astarion and gratitude
Astarion and Drizzt
Astarion's resilience
Astarion thinks deus ex machinas are very twee
Shar, Shadowheart, and grief
My favourite BG3 NPC (it's Doni, if you don't know who that is go read the post and I might forgive you /j)
Karlach/Shadowheart/Halsin headcanon
Karlach/Shadowheart/Halsin relationship post game
The Natavriel/Storm/Astarion situation
My Gale'zel version
OC Posting
[Masterpost is here]
My two main OC I post about here, Storm and Natavriel, plus a bonus feral cat (not very feral at the moment)
Storm's tag | Natavriel's tag
Art
Astarion as the North Star from Alphonse Mucha
Shadowheart as The Moon from Alphonse Mucha
Wyll as The Morning Star from Alphonse Mucha
Lae'zel as The Comet, inspired by Alphonse Mucha
Storm is here | and here | here again | are you tired of him yet?
Most of those are written in one go, and unedited, so they have various degrees of quality haha
I do those mostly as a way to practice, and also because I like to procrastinate when I'm at work
(yes, those have all been written on company time... Does that mean I'm a paid writer??)
Gravity [Read on Tumblr][AO3]
This one is dark. CW : depression, suicide (though not super explicit)
Chrysalis [Read on Tumblr]
WoD:Changeling themed if you squint
There is power in a name [Read on Tumblr]
Also about faes, if the fae in question is a child snatcher
Night Killer [Read on Tumblr]
This one is an experiment with some worldbuilding I had done a long time ago and I wanted to bring back. I had a lot of fun writing it but I'm not sure how readable it is.
You blood is mercy [Read on Tumblr]
This one is also dark. CW : child's death (more or less)
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(a mini-fic for bg3 pride month day 9: "green - nature")
a day late, but this is the fourth of the fics + matching VP i plan to post for the rainbow flag days! it's 1,240 words and can be read below the cut. or on ao3 here if you'd like to leave a kudos or comment, which i always really appreciate!
(if anyone ever wants to be on or off that list, or if anyone would like to be tagged specifically for my pride month mini-fics, just let me know!)
i couldn't capture the exact setting i had in mind for the story in-game, but i'd say this custom map by inkyplz worked decently enough! as usual, thank you to @worfs-glorious-hair for hosting the event. and this time i also wanna give a shoutout to @spellfireburst for creating these robes that look so good on Gale.
The vine blights at the gate had delayed them by ten minutes at most.
Elenion plucked a sharp, discordant note from his lute and whispered something beneath it, soft enough that Gale barely heard the words. The blight heard them. It recoiled as if the sound had split its roots, and Gale's lightning took it a heartbeat later.
It collapsed in a heap of twitching leaves and split vines.
Elenion lowered their lute, the final note of the spell still trembling in the air. Beside them, Gale let the lightning fade from his fingertips and looked down at the torn hem of his robe with the solemn grief of a man who had suffered a scholarly tragedy.
He had, however, failed to notice the leaves caught in his hair.
"Well," he said, "I believe we've established that the site is not entirely abandoned."
Elenion, still breathless, tried and tragically failed to stifle a laugh behind their hand.
Gale gave them a wounded look. "I fail to see what is so amusing."
"Sweetheart," they said with a smirk, "you have leaves in your hair."
He lifted a hand at once.
"And a twig in your beard."
His eyes widened. "That," he said as he brushed indignantly at his beard, "is field research."
Elenion laughed harder as they reached over and plucked the twig free themself.
"There," they said. "Your dignity is restored."
"An optimistic assessment," Gale muttered, though a smile tugged at his lips.
Together, they turned toward the gate. Vines had grown through the ironwork so thickly that the old hinges groaned as Gale's magic eased it open.
Inside, ivy climbed the pale stone walls. Birdsong echoed beneath the cracked dome. Ferns crowded the broken steps where astronomers had once stood with their instruments lifted toward the stars. Moss filled the grooves of a circular star-map beneath their boots, turning old constellations soft and green.
The observatory had not belonged solely to the stars for a very long time.
And yet Elenion could still see what it had been.
A place built for looking upward. A place the world had slowly, patiently, called back down.
Gale was already reaching for his journal before they were properly inside. Elenion couldn't help but smile as they ran their finger over the star clasp on their own journal.
They watched Gale kneel beside a fallen brass ring half-buried beneath fern roots. Then Elenion crouched near the center of the star-map and brushed loose moss from one of the carved constellations. They balanced their journal on one knee, sketching the pattern as Gale murmured a careful spell to lift dirt from the brass without disturbing the roots curled around it.
"Look," they said, tapping the page with the end of their quill. "This one has a local name. The villagers called it the Lantern-Bearer, but the old woman at the inn hummed a tune that sounded almost exactly like the second verse of Sails of Silver Light. Which means either the song traveled farther inland than I thought, or someone adapted the constellation myth for river folk."
Gale hummed. βAnd this dial is not purely astronomical. The inner ring measures seasonal drift, but the outer markings suggest planar observation, which would make the donorβs sketch either more accurate than expected or wildly lucky.β
Elenion looked up from their notes. βYou seem happy.β
Galeβs spell dimmed between his fingers. "I am," he said, looking back at him. "Aren't you?"
Elenion glanced down at the star-map beneath their hand, then at the roots curling gently through the stone.
"Yes," they said, feeling themself smile. "I think I am."
They had come because of a donation to the Starlit Gallery: one damaged travel journal, three pressed leaves, and a half-legible sketch of a ruined observatory. Elenion had recognized the constellation in the margin from an old ballad, and Gale cross-referenced the name with an old academic catalogue.
Then Gale had taken leave from his lectures, and Elenion nearly backed out for fear that every display case in the museum might shatter the moment he stepped outside Waterdeep. In the end, he'd left it in trusted hands, and now they were pretending this wasn't also a holiday.
The road had led them through a small village near the High Forest, where people gave stories as readily as directions. A woman gave him fresh bread for the journey, a child sang half of their favorite folk song, and three different people gave contradictory warnings about the path through the trees.
He wrote the village name in the corner of the page.
Then his quill stilled.
He had forgotten how much he used to love that part of traveling. The unfamiliar faces, the old songs, the detours into antique shops and artisansβ stalls. The joy of knowing the world still had stories he had never heard.
Not the stages. Not the rented rooms and nights spent with strangers. Not the hunger of crowds.
Just this.
Gods, he had wanted to say yes when Laeβzel asked him to come to Chult. The Gallery had been too close to its preview gala for him to walk away, and he didn't regret staying. But he'd have loved to fight beside her again, to see the jungle and uncover whatever stories waited there.
Where had her road taken her this time?
Across the room, Galeβs voice trailed off mid-sentence.
"Len?" Galeβs voice softened. "Youβve gone very quiet, my love."
Elenion blinked down at his journal. "I was thinking about Laeβzel. About when she asked me to go to Chult."
"We can send to her tonight," Gale said.
βShe could be anywhere by now.β
βYes,β Gale said, βwhich is generally why one uses Sending.β
Elenion huffed a laugh.
"And if she replies only to insult our pace, our softness, or my beard," Gale added, "then we shall know she's well."
That laugh came easier.
They worked together in a quieter rhythm after that. Gale cleaned the brass dial with a careful spell, while Elenion made a rubbing of the star-map.
"Ah," Gale said softly, "Len. Look."
A shard of green glass no larger than Elenion's thumb had fallen between the roots. It must have broken from the old viewing lens centuries ago, but it still caught the light beautifully.
Elenion lifted it carefully into his palm.
"We shouldn't take the lens."
"You're certain?"
Elenion nodded. "It belongs here. But thisβ¦"
Gale hummed thoughtfully. "A fallen fragment," he said. "Already loose. Documented, contextualized, and not pried from any historically significant mechanism."
"Exactly."
The curator in him did want the lens. But the museum didn't need to own every beautiful thing. The shard could come home with him, and the observatory could remain itself.
Elenion closed his fingers around the shard.
"When we get home," he said, "we should start a list."
Gale glanced over. "Of poorly maintained historical sites?"
"Of places worth seeing together."
"Ah,β Gale said, taking his hand. βA far more dangerous list."
By the time they finished, the first stars had begun to show through the broken dome, caught between the leaves of the young trees growing through the roof.
Elenion looked up.
The green made the stars feel closer somehow. Less like something distant he had to chase until he lost himself, and more like something waiting to be found along the road.
And maybe the road could still lead somewhere beautiful, so long as he had a home to return to.
Thank you so much for the tags @lucretiouswept, @optimisticgrey, @litsenn, @missfortunetherogue and @astarions-world π«Ά
I haven't been writing much lately (which I'm very sad about, but trying to take it easy). I have been drawing a lot, though, so that's something :3
Here's a wip for one of the pride pieces I'm making ππ³οΈβπ With my favourite platonic soulmates, of course. Have Storm and Natavriel getting some quiet time in their happy ending π₯° (my heart is exploding rn, lol)
Hopefully I'll finish the mini fic that I'm writing to go with this pic before the end of this monthπ€ (will also include Astarion, I'm not forgetting about him haha)
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I see so many arguments over what is and isn't "good queer representation" that really just boil down to "y'all are actually arguing over matters of taste and genre preference, which is incredibly subjective and personal."
Worldbuilding where being queer is normalized and queerphobia has no impact on the plot? THAT'S FINE. Worldbuilding that includes queerphobia and tackles the effects of it as part of the story? THAT'S ALSO FINE.
Low-stakes queer romcom where the characters are fluffy and cute? THAT'S COOL. Messy queer drama with toxic people who fuck each other over and clash repeatedly? THAT'S ALSO COOL.
Stories that center the characters' queerness, show a trans character's transition, and are about the queerness as much as the rest of the plot? AWESOME. Stories where the characters' queerness isn't treated as a big deal, and have trans characters whose transition happened before the story entirely? ALSO AWESOME.
You may PREFER one thing or another, but it is actually good to have all these things. It's about variety. It's about queer characters being allowed to exist without censorship. It's about queer artists getting to make things without being told we're a "niche issue" or "adult content." It's about having as many goddamn cakes as the bakery can produce.
At the end of the day, I'd prefer a media landscape with fifty pieces of problematic queer representation over a media landscape with one single piece of queer representation that's trying (and usually failing) to be 100% perfect for everything and everyone.
4. Is your oc's environment supportive about their identity? How does this impact them?
For Storm, his childhood family def would have been supportive if he had had time to explore his identity while they were still alive (π¬).
Later, he fell in love with a guy when he was 17 while living at the Open Hand temple, and because this is the Forgotten Realms and not real life, I like to think that no one batted an eye at that :3
Then, while living with the Bhaalists, he had way bigger problems than worrying about whether or not his environment was supportive of his bisexuality. Even if, in truth, I think that it was kinda frowned upon for him to engage in sex that was not to create more Bhaalspawns, so anyone without the capacity to bear children would have been looked down upon. But he didn't care AT ALL about what people might say or think. As I said, bigger problems. Like the fact that pretty much all of his partners died at his hands...
For Natavriel, it was also pretty supportive. Siovi called them a girl once when she snatched them away to the Feywild, to which Tav said "I'm not a girl", and that was that.
Much much later, they explored their sexuality while being outside the Feywild. The family that took them in during their years of struggle after they got out was also very supportive of Tav's discovery journey. And that did help with the fear I'm talking about in the next answer, because they had a safe place to talk about these things.
8. Have they had struggles with their identity, be it due to internal or external reasons?
Storm hasn't. In general, his gender and sexuality aren't things he thinks about, much (there would have been room for stuggle, considering Bhaal's breeding obsession, but even then, Storm didn't think about it THAT much. If he had time to truly process his Bhaalist years, I do think some of the trauma would surface and make him struggle and question things.)
Tav on the other hand, has struggled a lot in their younger years.
They are someone who will love quickly, deeply, and openly, and yet for most people, it never seemed to be enough. It is too much to stay into the neat little box of casual friendships that a lot of people feel comfortable with, and people will very often get the wrong idea about Tav's feelings, but it is not enough to satisfy most people.
And so there was a point where Tav wished they would be able to offer what most people want and expect out of a relationship. The grand romantic gestures. The passionate declarations. The all-consuming desire. Because they do want companionship, and after the disaster that their first relationship had been (their partner got very jealous very often because Tav still cared for many of their other friends, would meet new people and be very affectionnate with them as well, things like that), they feared they might never find that.
They did, eventually, but it took a lot of work to get past the fear and worries...
11. Is your oc open about their identity? Are they more lowkey or more blunt about it? Why or why not?
Storm is very open if questionned, nothing feels worth hiding, but he's also not talking about it that much. Non issue for him, he doesn't see why he would need to explain to others his identity.
Tav is a bit more secretive by nature. It's not that they're "in the closet", lol (not a thing in the FR, but you get the idea), but if offered sex, for example, they would simply refuse, without necessarily explaining why (cue to a very confused Astarion at the tiefling party because why on Toril would they refuse him?? Lmao). It feels safer. They're a bit more open about their romantic/sexxual identity if they become really close with someone (as with Storm, for axample)
Gender identity they are very open about with everyone, though, and would take offence to misgendering.
Because the thing is, Storm is entirely allosexual, and bi, and in Tav's experience, getting the kind of emotional attachment they had for him with these types of people (aka sexually inclined and potentially attracted to them) is dangerous. At some point, inevitably, desire is going to poke its nose in the relationship, and everything will be ruined. If Storm had not so desperately needed someone to just be there by his side, Tav would probably had tried to keep their distance when they started to feel strongly for him (at like... day 2 of the journey lol).
They did try, briefly, to be careful about the kind of affection they were giving him, without much success with their self control. And they were still scared, but not even once did he give hints thathe wanted something else than what they were giving him, so they already felt tentatively safe.
And then, it became clear that he was pining after Astarion, and that indeed felt drastically different from the kind of physical affection he was returning to them. When I tell you, the amount of relief Tav felt then xDD
I've often said that Storm and Astarion's relationship benefitted from Tav's presence early on, but the reverse is true as well, Tav became a lot less conflicted/scared that it would go wrong with Storm, once he was involved with Astarion.
And still, he wanted the cuddles with them, too. Heaven for Tav, lmao. Pinnacle of safety.
And Storm did not find this odd, maybe in big part because his memory is a giant black hole and he has no idea about what's conventionnal and what's not. Tav feels like a part of himself, being far away from them hurts him, being near them makes him feel safe, there is absolutely no reason in his mind to be conflicted about what's happening, and it is completely separate from his feelings for Astarion.
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(a mini-fic for bg3 pride month day 7: "yellow - sunlight")
this is the third of the fics + matching VP i plan to post for the rainbow flag days! it's 861 words and can be read below the cut, or on ao3 here if you'd like to leave a kudos or comment!
(if anyone ever wants to be on or off that list, or would like to be tagged specifically for my pride month mini-fics, just let me know!)
i made several photos for this one and they don't even perfectly match the fic but oh well. i wanted to recreate one specific moment but i wasn't sure how to do it, and i had fun with these anyway!
The first thing the morning gave him was sunlight spilling through the curtains.
The second was the smell of eggs and butter from downstairs.
For one disoriented heartbeat, Elenion nearly panicked over how late he must've slept. Then the morning settled around him properly. Waterdeep was quiet beyond the window, the Starlit Gallery was closed for the day, and Gale was making breakfast.
He stayed in bed a moment longer, warm beneath the sheets as he slowly woke.
Once, he would've braced himself for cold sheets and an empty bed. It had always hurt less when he left first, slipping away before dawn rather than staying long enough to reach for warmth that had already vanished.
Now, he smelled breakfast on the stove and heard Gale humming softly downstairs, and never wondered if he'd been left.
He only smiled into the pillow. Of course Gale was there.
When he finally wandered downstairs, he found Gale with his sleeves rolled up and his hair loose from sleep, frowning at the eggs as if they had just presented an argument he found academically unsound. A plate of fruit and pancakes was already keeping warm beside him.
Sunlight poured through the window beside him, catching the gray in his hair and making it shine like threads of gold.
For a moment, all Elenion could do was stand in the doorway.
"Good morning, husband," Gale said, with a fondness that made his heart give a ridiculous little stumble.
Terribly rude of his husband to do this to him first thing in the morning.
"Morning, babe," he said softly.
"You know," Gale said, still facing the stove, "I can feel you staring."
Insufferable, really.
"I'm just admiring the breakfast."
"You are admiring me in the general direction of the breakfast."
"Can a man not appreciate both?"
Gale looked back at him then, smiling in the morning light, and Elenion pictured himself doing something truly embarrassing. Like crossing the room just to kiss Gale on the cheek, or writing an unbearably sincere song about the sunlight in his hair before the eggs were even done.
Thankfully, before he could get farther than one hopeless step, Tara landed on the windowsill with a flick of her wings. "Mr. Dekarios, I do hope there is something suitable for civilized company."
"Silverdew-Dekarios now, Tara," Gale said, far too quickly.
Tara blinked at him. "Yes, quite right. Mr. Silverdew-Dekarios, then."
Gale's ears went pink.
"A fine name," she added, her yellow eyes softening in the sunlight. "Though you must forgive an old friend for taking time to adjust. I have called you Dekarios since you were a boy lecturing his porridge on consistency, after all."
"Tara!" Gale protested. "I am not certain that story needed preserving."
"All important history must be preserved, Mr. Silverdew-Dekarios." Tara glanced at Elenion. "Surely your husband, of all people, understands that."
Elenion broke into laughter before he could stop himself.
At nearly the same moment, their rabbit Moonbow burst into the kitchen and thumped one little white paw against the floor with all the urgency of a creature who had never been fed in her life.
Gale let out a weary sigh before surrendering to the inevitable. He presented a portion of fish to Tara as if it were a royal offering, then crouched to set Moonbow's greens on the floor. She sniffed the plate twice as if confirming the quality of his work, and only then did she accept them.
βYour household management has improved,β Tara said.
"My gratitude overwhelms me," Gale deadpanned.
"It should."
Elenion was still smiling when sunlight slipped over Gale's hand as he returned to the pan. The gold half of his wedding band gleamed bright against his skin, tiny moon engravings shining where his fingers curled around the edge of the counter. Elenion's matching ring, of gold moons and silver stars, suddenly felt warm on his own hand.
Once, Gale had nearly left the world behind for something higher, colder, lonelier. A place in the heavens, a name in prayers. A light too distant to touch. He'd offered to carry Elenion's name further than any mortal stage ever could, until the whole world sang his praise. The kind of glory that would drown out every doubt.
And yet this was everything Elenion wanted.
He loved Gale in the sunlight because it did not make him distant.
It found him here.
It gilded the gray in his hair, warmed the floor beneath his feet, and caught on the ring he wore because he'd chosen this mortal life beside Elenion.
And somehow, Elenion had chosen it too.
Later, when breakfast had been eaten and Tara and Moonbow had declared themselves satisfied in their own ways, Gale offered him his hand.
"Walk with me, my star?"
"Always, my moonlight," Elenion said.
His heeled boots clicked over sun-dappled cobblestones as they walked through busy market streets full of peddlers, performers, and yellow awnings. Not too long ago, he would've felt the press of so many eyes on him and reached for a mask. But being seen like this, walking in daylight with Galeβs hand warm in his own, felt nothing like performance.
It felt like home.
If anyone is curious, their wedding bands are basically combined versions of these rings I found online. The silver one was Elenion's originally and the gold one was Gale's, but they get cut in half and fused together to make half-and-half wedding rings as per a common Sword Coast tradition.
(I don't have any art of how the fused rings actually look. I should probably get some or draw an MS paint doodle lol)