eh

we’ve been binge-watching marvel movies this whole weekend and we’ve just been pointing out ridiculous shots and plot-holes (don’t get me wrong we all love marvel) and i’m loving it 

we decorated our living room for Christmas and i got most of the decorations from the dollar store and i’m very proud of myself 

sometimes i think i rant too much on social media but i just spent the last hour looking through my hs posts and it’s so entertaining reading what i wrote back then

been in a kind of weird rut lately because i feel like i’m not pushing myself hard enough and i’ve been feeling too comfortable

i’ve been feeling so unfulfilled because i feel like i haven’t been pushing myself to the person i can be  

i want a challenge but i also want to enjoy what i’m doing 

i’ve been putting off so many things but i really do have to learn how to deal with certain shit 

i used to be so cryptic in my posts when i was talking about certain people because i was scared that they might find it or if people who knew them would find it, and it’s funny now because i’m literally so open about a lot of my stuff because honestly, who gives a fuck? i also romanticized things SO much (especially when it came to interactions with boys L O L ) 

been working on myself the past few weeks and it’s so satisfying to see myself get stronger. 

i used to be pretty good with maintaining a somewhat good diet and hitting the gym, but the past year has been rough and i’ve definitely slipped. 

i’ve been trying to get back into eating better (aka not eating out that much and not surviving off of trader joe’s frozen chicken tikka masala which is the frickin best btw), drinking more water, sleeping better, and hitting the gym. 

i can feel myself getting stronger and regaining muscle mass, and i can fit into my shorts that i was wearing last summer. 

i’ve been feeling more clear-headed lately and it’s a nice change.