Finding Neverland

Not sure if this is depression or just me missing my cats

مؤخراً و انا ب reflect على حياتي، بما اني مش مرتاحة حالياً بس دايماً كان عندي شعور اني كنت أحسن زمان. بس فعلياً مش قادرة الاقي فترة كنت مرتاحة فيها

But somedays even trying is hard all you want to do is rot in bed.

Distant.

I've been pleasing people for too long I find myself whenever I am asked "What do you want?" I answer with " I don't know"..I really don't know anymore

Still analyzing that my bestfriend told me that she views friendship as temporary, bitch why didn't you tell me that 7 years ago I need compensation

ايه مفهومكوا عن الصداقة؟

Not my bff *now ex I suppose* telling me that she values friendship so much then a moment later she tells me that she always saw me as a temporary person in her life lmfao

My bff told that I was only a phase on her life lol give me my late night 4 hrs calls back bitchhh

My everyday mood now is fluctuating from a huge wave of sadness and brusting into tears to complete emotional bluntness and not feeling anything at all.

Just realized I'm refusing to live lol

كنت بشتيكي لصديقتي و بقولها هو انا عمري ما هرتاح ابدا، قالتلي مفيش راحة غير بعد الموت مع الأسف :D