Life's Siege

Berganti Hati

Days of missing you. remembering of the glimpse.

there are nights that i can’t stop thinking about you. knowing that there are so much i wanted to talk to you about but knowing from the start that it won’t happen. i always shrink and little besides you. too scare to let you near. coz i know the ending will be like. never wanted separation feeling like this, but there are so many cues from you telling me i rather off alone

I miss you. not in desperate way but i remembering way. why? i’ve been filling my days with tight schedule and task. but between the loop, i miss you. contrary, you supposed not to feel anything. you’re married now. you’d have a husband who will be there for you. you won’t feel any loneliness the way i felt it. you must be saying, that all things that had happen, is because of me. perhaps. i won’t deny it. i’m just a person. and this person is missing you.

i dislike people to response to my overthinking post.

why do i feel that she’d been avoiding me?

I will keep this emptiness until the dead wrath. maybe i just born not to be with anyone

I’ve always pick up. Every time people needed me. But when i needed someone, there will be no one with me

i’m no longer wanna share my feeling. i’m hopeless with people faith in me. i’m just tired given in to satisfy other people. too tired to let them see my vulnerable but they just don’t care.

you think i will chase you? no i won’t. go. if that satisfy you

not forever people will be sad. not forever you are the main character. once i removed myself and you are no where to be seen, it easier to forget about you ☺️

everytime i want to text you, i remember what you did. i remember the feeling you’d have. i remember the pain that you don’t actually care

aku tak de tempat nak meluah. aku nak bercerita. tapi tak de orang nak dengar

tak de orang ke Ya Allah. yang sedih bila aku pergi? tak de orang ke Ya Allah. yang akan cuba bagi aku rasa penting. Tak de orang ke Ya Allah. yang akan setia teman aku?

i know you are sad. but listen fit, she didn’t care. like alyaa. don’t put up with her nonchalant. sampai waktu, erase them all. once for all.