I am so pissed! I spent all day yesterday tracking my calories and killing it with my diet, and I ended up gaining a pound in a half. I had more than what I needed for a calorie deficit.. fucking, ugh. I've always struggled with tracking calories without obsessing because of my previous ED. And all that effort for fucking nothing. Fantastic.

Severely frustrated. I am 3 days sober now from alcohol and have been going to meetings. While I am proud of that, I have found myself wanting to eat and keep eating, even when I'm not hungry. I am 5"0 and currently 161. I do not want to start gaining weight again!! I formally had an eating disorder and don't want to fall back into old habits with that either, but I feel like I could easily do that if I'm compulsively eating.