i really need to trigger my ed but not in a reading random stranger's tumblr meanspo on the internet kind of way but in a being bullied again all through my school years kind of way. to have my mom comment on every single thing i eat again. to have my friends finally admit theyve all been talking to me for laughs and would never actually like someone who looks like me. i just want to be triggered so hard i never want to even look at food again without puking.

I feel so disconnected from everyone and everything. How am I supposed to be happy in a place I so clearly don't belong

You know it gets bad again when you result into going back on tumblr 💀

Can someone hug me please I'm so fucking tired of everything rn?

i am overwhelmed and i just want everything to stop. just stop. just for a moment so i can think, so i can cry, so i can mourn but its so difficult because life just keeps going and my issues are piling on top of each other and suffocating me and i am so overwhelmed that i cant breathe. i hate this.