the insane rambling of a creature

I'm probably mostly going to use this for writing an art and less so rants like I do on tt but that seems pretty common on here

My pronouns are usually he/they/it but if the joke calls for it idgaf I'll be a woman if the joke is funny enough

I like to think I'm pretty funny and I like to think I'm a decent writer but I know that I'm not the best I could be and so if there's any grammar mistakes I love constructive criticism maybe less so on my art but I'm still open for that.

All of my works are prone to editing because I don't have any beta reader's except for one of my friends (they don't have any social media otherwise I would credit them)

Another small thing all of my random little one-off things are usually done with voice to text because I'm lazy especially my supernatural blogs/my supernatural watch through updates so if there's any weird mistakes please let me know because I try to read it as it puts out the stuff so I can go back and edit it

I love yaoi and goldfish the snack (this may seem out of left field but I LOVE goldfish)

And if you couldn't tell by the dividers my favorite painting is The Great Wave which also might seem a little out of left field but it's on my phone case I have a fan with the Great Wave I had a poster with the Great Wave if I find a shirt with the Great Wave on it I'm buying it I genuinely love the painting The Great Wave

Fandoms I'm in!

Ninjago (Zane is my GOAT)

Good omens

Chuck (please watch it it's free with Amazon prime I love it it's my favorite show ever)

Date everything

Sonic

Dc mainly Batman, Superman and the Robins but I'm trying to catch up on more characters

Monk (I doubt I'll post about it but I just think it's fair to include)

Sam and Max!

A few marvel characters (venom, Spider-Man and probably a few more if I actually take the time to get into it)

Dispatch!

Avatar the last Airbender

Supernatural (UNFINISHED!!! PLS NO SPOILERS!)

Game changer series by Rachel Reid (not just heated rivalry my two favorites are role model and tough guy!)

a few examples of my art if anyone's curious

I'm mainly a traditional artist I've been trying to get back into digital but I'm not that good :/ (I also have really bad handwriting so if I write anything important on paper I most likely will translate it digitally bc I know most people can't read whatever hieroglyphs I write in)

Quick twenty minute timeskip

I've stopped crying by now, I know Mark is still at the door. Just yet another thing I need to add to my list of things I need to deal with. I unplug the bath and watch as the water swirls down the drain ever so often creating vortexes before they die off only to create another one. Now all I have to do is stand up. It's simple. Even a toddler who can't walk can at least stand. It’s one of the first milestones of any child. And I'm not a child. I push against the cold white acrylic forcing my body up to try to get my footing. I try and fail about ten times before giving up, grabbing my clothes from off the floor, and putting them on (which takes me almost an hour) before calling out to mark “i need help.”

It's the first time I've ever said that and really meant it.

As soon as the words left my mouth mark was opening the door. “What do you need?” Mark asks, looking around the bathroom trying to figure out what was wrong.

“my legs won’t move.”

Mark gasps “ do you want me to carry you back to your bed?” he asks. ”...Yeah… that’d be nice.” I say reluctantly

Mark lifts me into his arms and carries me to my bed.

He's surprisingly strong for a powerless old man.

“ You remind me of my son, you know.” he says, setting me down. “You have a son?” I ask, sitting up on the bed. “I had one.” he says “ he died recently.” Mark adds quietly, as he sits on the bed with me. “He was about your age,“ he says. “Really?” I ask reluctantly. Growing up in a house full of… whatever was wrong with my parents, didn’t make me great with others emotions but if i can comfort Matt while half asleep i can comfort this old guy while dealing with whatever’s wrong with my legs and the realisation that I may never see my best friend or brother ever again. I'll be fine.

I’ll be fine. Everything’s fine. You’ll be fine, Alex. Matt and Jason are better off thinking you’re dead anyways.

I’m thirsty. Oh fuck. When did Mark leave? Did I say something to him? I think so. But the better question is, did I say the right thing to him? Did I insult him? I don’t think so. I think I comforted him. Probably.

Since when was it night time? Have I been on auto pilot for the whole day?

First of all New York City is mentioned. So that's got to count for something.

Secondly the lyrics, "Whatever you decide, if you are true to you, you're gonna be alright" just feels so Scott Hunter to me. Especially if you've read the other books because after he is true to himself he is in fact alright.

Then, the lyrics, "I wonder as I wander if I'll ever settle down or if every day I'll take my roots uprooted en route to another town" feel sitting because since Scott Hunter is a hockey player he constantly and I feel like this was also mentioned in the book at least in some way of Scott wondering if he'll ever have like a wife and kids like the rest of his teammates (I'm not going on a scavenger hunt to find out if I'm right or not I read this book like a month ago)

Christopher "Kip" Grady

I made this list a while back and I re-listened to the song to write this and holy shit I forgot this song was made for him. Forget the fact that I put this song for Shane as well, this is Kip's song.(And Kyle's. spoiler alert I guess. I'm also putting this for Kyle. Which, even more spoiler alert almost all of the songs I'm putting for Kip I'm also putting for Kyle because they are just so similar.)

The lyrics "When I saw you standing there with the dyed-up blonded hair. they said that you had clout I said I didn't care. When the liquor was all clear I could see you through the glass. There's something I could tell you but I forgot to ask." This is so on the nose I don't even know what to say except for the liquor part and technically the dyed blonde hair but he is blonde.

Also "When the sunlight meets the dawn you'll see I'm not the one you want 'cause I look better in the dark." Because he's insecure and that's like the whole plot point near the end of the book.

This is kind of a joke but also not really. This song played while I was looking for songs for him and it kind of fits. I think it especially if it's if you remember the scene where Scott tries to pay off his student loan debt and he flat out refuses like he freaks out and he refuses (fair. Not to say that's what I would do but, fair nonetheless).

He's a yearner I don't know what to say.

Skip <3

Uhh so anytime I try to do a link like the rest of the songs for me and my husband by mitski it just doesn't let me and it tells me there's an error so I manually linked it just click any of this text srry for the inconvenience >_<

I don't feel like I need to explain this one. Especially when you consider they get married later in the series and from what I can tell and the other books they are insufferable. They are genuinely the most in love couple it's disgusting. So this song is perfect for them.

Again, I don't have to say anything on this one. It's just a their song. I had to include it by law otherwise I'd be arrested.

New York. Uhh it just kinda feels fitting. I swear the next one is good I just put these on the list of songs that I thought were fitting and I don't know what to say some of them lol.

I mainly going to be focusing on the concept of this song because I feel like I don't understand the lyrics deeply enough to go into depth about the lyrics similarly to if I ever use Dan the dancer, for example, I'm going to be vague because I feel like I don't understand that song well enough to be talking about it in depth. But I feel like Kip would be the singer in this instance (The Father's son) and I think Scott would be the runner. I think this because in the book (and the show I guess but I feel like the show doesn't show kips inner turmoil with being hidden for so long as well as the book does which is mainly because it's harder to show that in a show but that's beside the point) Scott isn't actively running from his relationship, sure, but he is running from his true self (being gay). I feel like I don't need to explain why I think Kip is the Father's son because if you've read the book or watch the show you know that he's very close with his dad. Also the song kind of gets bonus points by being by the same person that made THEIR song.