EDZ : Voice of the Soul

Behind the towering hill,

I know a man who has a strong will.

Forgotten, he thought of himself

Forges the happiness in his shelf.

  He wrote about the mountains.

He delivered his speech with sense;

But crumpled the paper after

And rolled like an infant with tear.

  Unwittingly, in the midst of the sea

His captain is sailing fast with glee,

Thinking her stare would bring him peace

And love once crashed by disgrace.

  So be still my friend and look at the sun

As it replaces the moon at dawn.

Be not like the man I told

Who has erased his writing in sword.

  For silence may seem so deafening

As the dusk echoes your slumber within.

However this is only an illusion

For a heart who hopes with vision.

  Come, continue writing her tale

May it be in the garden or still in your cell.

Believe that there is a miracle somewhere

And there is something to see out there.

Standing in front of the tree, looking up,

wishing my branches could reach you like what I see from below

Standing in front of the building, looking up,

wishing my roof top could touch you like what I see from below

Standing in front of the light post, looking up,

wishing my bulb could see you like what I see from below

Standing in front of your tomb

wishing you could hear the whisper of my heart from heaven 

You proved that I can endure pain You testified that I am brave within You showed me the beauty of being committed And… You brought me to an unexplained joy of becoming a beloved.

Disturbed nights~ Headaches~ Unfinished works~ Messy days~ Interrupted enjoyments~

All these you caused.

But…

You taught me to be strong You taught me to be responsible all along You taught me to love unconditionally And… You taught me how to repay my debt - to my parents, truly.

A car on emergency

passed by me so swiftly.

Let me tell you my journey  --

A walk until I found the one for me.

It was long, I should say.

Not so many would prefer that way.

 But I took it slowly, 

with scrutiny, I check each man carefully.

 Let me start at 14.

He was gay; smart, my classmates said.

But I simply didn’t like him;

thinking about us scared me like I would be so sad.

 Then, at 17, there was a young man.

He often went to church and gosh, looked up to where I was.

We became batch mates in college and in student council, ran.

But I totally ignored him. My goodness! He was super rich with class.

 Three years after, I graduated bachelor at 20.

Started part time work and met this fellow.

Ding! He is much more feminine that I was -- he was pretty.

So, I decided not to allow myself to this kind of meadow.

 I was cursed I thought after that drop.

For no one came until I turned 25.

But humility aside, the next one is like a big gulp.

Ah! he got muscles, nice posture and face, both jive.

 Fascinated by his admiration, I tried

-- but I had hesitations on my side.

His sweetness and shower of gifts, all were swallowed by pride

Maybe because we were both head strong, so I resigned.

 Moments with him weren’t easy to forget

Since we shared long distance relationship for almost 3 years.

Determined that romance was not for me to get

I set out and ventured in another place with no tears.

 Would you believe, my fate took me to the land of liberty.

There was a not- so- attractive guy who often visited me.

But his age I guess, was not suitable, at least the way I see.

And so my friends introduced me to this, well, in fairness kind of beauty.

 He is kind-hearted, a very accommodating lad.

But, it was not for me I was quite sure

Besides other reasons; I didn’t feel glad.

So, that was the end of that guy as my possible allure.

 Then, I came back to my root

Only to embark again to another greener pasture

In Daehan Minguk, I met a few and in my astute,

none of them attracted me -- maybe none was so pure.

 In less than a year, this Destiny, elders would call it

Took me to my surprise.

I glanced twice to this tall man, I admit

His angst and height caught me. Is he in disguise?

 Then, I found myself dating this Mr. naughty but nice country guy.

His charm, care, and sense of humor couldn’t be denied.

I am proud to say, other girls in the block envied me without alibi

Hah! After a short while…I do, I replied.

 I marched while he was in the narrow aisle waiting for his bride.

That happened when I finally knew, I fell in love.

There was no bribe. I confide.

5 months already ~

But the thought of you still bursts me into tears.

I could still vividly imagine your face,

It is so fresh when I think of your hands' texture

Your smile, your care --

I miss you so much, Papa.

When I think that you are not with us anymore

I couldn't stop myself from crying.

I really wanna hug you, Papa.

I can't help but ask why?

I am back to asking why --

and so many whys.

I love you so much, Papa.

I love you so much.

My heart will forever mourn.

because you know that I don't easily let go.

From heaven, hear me saying...

I MISS YOU.

and

Off (elegy to my loving Papa)

Straight and white, you carried your light well like a bulb that brought guidance for small steps not to fell.

In the guise of a good father you kept your wings behind, lit your candle on fire goodness, defined.

But, you flickered - like a candle - almost melted your heart ceased from beating - - - your spirit rested.

Came after your flame a wispy trail of smoke - slowly went to heaven and finished your yoke.

Love doesn’t come upon counting the seconds or hours; 

not on months or years.

It comes through the blink of an eye like the random cars at the bus stop. 

It comes in different forms, 

unexpectedly like the colors of the clothes people around you wear.

It is from the rapid heartbeat and the second glance