I lie down, wondering if it's even worth it. Loneliness engulfs me, and I find myself staring at the ceiling, doubting if I'm lovable or universally disliked. I yearn for something indescribable, questioning my own reality. I become absorbed in unrealistic fantasies and imaginary scenarios. Finally, around three or four, I pass out, hoping I never wake up.

You ever feel like people can’t see you like you see you. Like, ideally you try to live with confidence and you think you’re this great person with this great personality but you constantly get let down by people and it brings you back to feeling like that light you see in yourself isn’t really that bright?..like of course we are all flawed but sometimes you feel like beyond a flaw, just kind of a lost cause. That’s how I feel alot of the time. And time and time again when I’m let down by people it crumbles me more and more.