ELLADORA W. LESTRANGE

        ELLA DIDN’T THINK SHE HAD ANY TEARS LEFT. if nothing else, she’d at least wanted to BRAVE it through the day. if only he hadn’t called after her. but did she really resent being here, ALONE with him? as she felt the weight of his hand against her shoulder, she realised that NO, she very much didn’t resent him for asking her to stay behind. umber hues blink away tears as they BURY themselves into the ruggedness of his forest eyes. he stepped closer; ella could feel the erratic beating of her heart, as it threatened to LUNGE from her chest             thud, thud, thud. it raced loudly in the lingering silence between them.

        UNTIL MUSCLE ENCIRCLED HER, HELD HER. it was all ella could do to CRY into the chest that overwhelmed her with an entirely NEW sensation, the smell of INK AND OLD BOOKS woven thickly into the warm fabric against his chest. she let her eyes close, relish in the peace he offered with his embrace. how was this meant to feel wrong? she didn’t have time to question the way her stomach fluttered with what felt like NERVES, as she’s faced with his gaze, fixated so solely on her. ‘ -half the guys at HOGWARTS, you mean. ’ a hint of a smile graced her lips, the heartbreak subsiding, changing into something else entirely.

        ‘ HAWKE, WOULD YOU FORGIVE THEM? ’ hawke             because as a professor, he’d known about the events of the trial, about the actions of a certain malfoy and redhead. she snaps her eyes away from his briefly, before SEEKING the same comfort that had swallowed her mere moments ago. a hand reaches to grasp at his forearm, the touch GROUNDING her. ‘ -would i be a BAD daughter for forgiving him? ’ ella gazed up at him, let her eyes travel along the ragged edges of his jaw, the deep furrow of his brows. he was rough, and beautiful. all she wanted was to fall further into the arms that hung loosely around her waist.

              fingers TIGHTEN around the shirt at his ARM. ‘       thank you. ’                     EXHAUSTION settled, as ella pressed her CHEEK to his chest.

        ELLA COULDN’T MAKE IT MAKE SENSE. how could someone who had barely spent any time with her make her feel like she’d lost a part of her IDENTITY? what sort of person did it make her to mourn over someone who murdered HUNDREDS under the name of the most cursed, most wicked wizard to ever exist? she sat there for HOURS without an answer, going over the events of the trial                 scorpius, protecting scarlet; scarlet, protecting scorpius; bianca protecting her family name. INNOCENT. that’s what the ministry had deemed them. would she want any other result? what if she did?

        AND THEN CAME THAT MISS LESTRANGE. her tired eyes rolled to focus as she made the mistake to look back at the forest green that often appeared in her dreams. ella made her way down the narrow path between the row of desks to her side, dropping her bag against the stone floor as she settled on the edge of one. umber is quick to ESCAPE the force of his gaze, averting to the board behind him instead, watching the scribbling quill note what she could only imagine was NEXT LESSON’S planning. ‘ talk about what? i barely KNEW him. ’ and yet, ella couldn’t stop the THUDDING of her heart, or the nausea that circled.

         ‘ NATE DOESN’T CARE, AND NEITHER DO I. ’ as if to prove her point, she shrugged. but even her eyes couldn’t convey the conviction her voice lacked. PAIN was a familial feeling, but LOSS was something different entirely. it was all-consuming and overwhelming. a shaky breath escapes past her REDDENED lips in the form of a sigh, as ella hugs her arms to her chest in an attempt to soothe the ACHE that threatened to rattle everything she knew, everything she was. she could LIE to him. she could                but she didn’t. ‘ i just don’t KNOW how i’m supposed to feel. i don’t know how i’m supposed to be OKAY with    ’

              ella places a TREMBLING hand to her lips, stifling a CRY.                     ‘           i don’t KNOW how to stop ANY of it from hurting. ’

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TW: semi-nudity

        AS IT TURNED OUT, NIGHT ONLY LIKED HER  SINGING. ella had tried recording the fat lady and playing it to him on a loop over and over again, but that had just made him angry. and when night got angry, he DISAPPEARED. if the task was to keep an eye on their dragons, she might have been losing. ella didn’t like losing. much less to SCARLET EVANS. hopefully pumpkin was setting things on fire and wreaking havoc. ‘ i’ll kill you, you little devil spawn. ’ she scolded him LOVINGLY, as he knocked over the stack of unread books on her bedside table with its wagging tail. which reminded her, she needed to STUDY.

        THE ORDER TOOK MORE PATIENCE THAN SHE THOUGHT. it wasn’t as easy as duelling one another or learning to master simple spells. she’d suffered severe headaches, serious wounds, and scarlet’s CONSTANT chatter. ella watched the LADY IN BLACK with tired, frowning eyes               there was something about her sharp features and slender frame that sparked a sense of familiarity in ella. even the way she seemed to OBSERVE everyone felt like something ella had seen all too often. was she spending too much time with these people? maybe scarlet’s GINGER would catch on.

        ‘ YOU HAVE GOT TO BE FUCKING KIDDING ME. ’ ella stepped out from behind scarlet, night flickering at her shoulder as if he were contemplating where to teleport off to next, MOCKING her. ‘ welcome to the gang, really? ’ she’d welcome him to her FIST. but all TEDDY did was grin at her, standing beside his own team: JOSH MCLAGGEN, JESSIE AVERY AND SABRINA SELWYN. the latter seemed to be looking an awful lot in scorpius’ direction. ‘ you’ve had a dragon all this time, and you didn’t TELL me? ’ she spun on scarlet, as she often did when rage threatened to claim her. ‘ did YOU know about this?! ’

        JOSH SNICKERED, BUT IT WAS JESSIE WHO SPOKE. ‘ be less sour about it, babe. and you’ll need to react much faster to things if you’re going to be the new us. ’ the bitter taste of RAGE threatened to unleash itself in the form of a hex               but she’s momentarily stunned by the hand at her shoulder, lewis’ fingers stroking the top of night’s head. he usually didn’t like that. the sight soothed the rolling anger slightly, as she walked beside lewis, purposefully ignoring scarlet and scorpius’ SICKENING displays of affection. gross. the further they got into the woods, the more DARKNESS swallowed them. 

        . . .UNTIL FLAMES BURNED AWAY AT THE SHADOWS. dragons of all shapes, colours and sizes fluttered around each other as if in lively conversation. some breathed fire, some ICE; tones of red and orange fought against white and blue in what seemed like friendly sparring. she could feel night’s violet eyes glisten with AWE, and the little pattering of his claws as it edged closer to her cheek as if to get a better view. ella SMILED at the sight, leaning her head slightly sideways to whisper in lewis’ ear. ‘ i can hear your bones RATTLING from here. relax. our dragons are way more badass than those over there. ’

              that WASN’T true, but maybe someday, it MIGHT be?                     ‘ what now, teddy? are we leaving our dragons HERE? ’

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features: matthew daddario, katherine mcnamara, alberto rosende, jade hassoune, dominic sherwood, harry shum jr. trigger/content warning: kissing, nsfw, flashing light, weapon, injury.