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fic about being cuddled by ran yakumo

it's a fic about you being cuddled by ran yakumo. how about that. i was still a bit anxious about publishing something like this so i restricted it to registered users.

Warning: this work has themes that could be upsetting. Heed the tags and proceed with discretion!

After her last symposium, Akyuu decides to entertain one of the requests she received for an interview. In doing so, she learns a lesson about fear she'd rather forget…

Ship: Akyuu/Kisume

If you are reading this, I have managed to post a single fic! If you didn't come from the notes of said fic, read it and come back. Please read it. Please. Please. I'm begging. Please.

There was an original version of this post that was a little over 1,000 words of me talking about how life has been, but I read it back and realized that I got way too personal about it and was effectively traumadumping. Nobody wants to see that, and I don't want you to see that, so I've decided to only carry over the final bit of that original version:

I'm back. Be afraid.

To summarize the rest, in march '24 I joined a roleplay my friends do and it became my primary creative outlet, replacing writing entirely. That's why my posts became so... uncommon around that time. It was a lot of fun, but recently it's started to decay and I can't enjoy it anymore, so... nowhere to go but here, huh?

I say "nowhere to go but here" as if I don't love writing with every bit of my life. I'd much rather do this than sit around all day, not exercising any of my creativity. My ideas are too good to not share them! You kids need a role model like me! You young'uns need to watch me get old and die so you can carry on my legacy of writing about Wriggle Nightbug!

Nonsense aside, from now on until forever, regular posting is to resume. I want to post weekly again, so lower your expectations and expect monthly posts.

As for what I have on the backburner, ordered by how soon they're coming...

0: My TCM submission for this year, which is already posted and hopefully where you came from.

1: Reimu and Aunn focused work that isn't very meaningful but I intend on posting anyways, started before TCM pairings were announced.

2: Wakasagihime and Kagerou focused work (i wouldnt go so far as to call it shipping buuuut kagerou does try to eat her alive so. interpret however you will)

3: I dunno. Whatever I want. Probably continuing Warmup, but I might get a more attractive idea. Or use one of the ideas I have written down.

Writing itself feels so odd. I can tell I've improved because I'm now spotting a LOT of issues in my earlier works that I've never noticed before, but writing itself doesn't seem to come to me as naturally as before. I think I've gotten a lot better at saying things in interesting ways, (personal favorite line from my latest fic as of writing: "She would have sat down and pondered over how to climb them without suffering life-altering cranial trauma, however she swiftly remembered that the region of Japan she lived in had no laws, especially none of logic, common sense, or physics.") but I'm beyond rusted at writing anything that isn't just dialogue. After all, the entirety of that fic is just two girls sitting and talking.

Prev. post was more about how life has been in general and how I feel about writing in general, but I do also need to talk more about this fic in specific!

The original plan, all the way back in late Feb, was that I'd finish that Reimu and Aunn fic in a few days and then do this, but I ended up having to write this beast as my first work in mostly a year, which makes this easily the toughest challenge I've ever experienced writing.

I really underestimated just how rusty I am and just how long I'd stay rusty. Every single sentence of this work, even the boring or short ones, took at minimum an entire minute to make sure they said what I wanted to say. I did not have the stamina or skill to finish this in the time frame I wanted at all. Some nights I'd spend 3-5 hours total with my notes app open and still put out under 750 words of actual progress. I don't even know if I could've finished this within the month if I didn't have a night of possession last week where I wrote a little under 4k words of this in one sitting.

And as for the actual story? I'm not as happy as possible with the result. Standalone I love what I've put out, but I wanted this fic for TCM to be a lot more than just... a really long interpretation of Ichirin's backstory accompanied by some handholding.

I had even more to say about that backstory, too! I have this whole story in my head about how she became a youkai and what kind of youkai she is! I could (and might) write an entire oneshot about the temple's time sealed in the Underground!

I've always had such a huge interest in Ichirin. Her design rules, and she's a stand user. What more is there to ask for?

The Temple as a whole is such a great gang, especially with characters like Mamizou or Nue thrown in. Every time I see them they move a little further up to the #1 spot on my list of favorite 2hu groups, threatening to usurp Team 9 which has reigned since... shit, since I first learned about 2hu. I want to write all of them more eventually.

Not entirely sure how I feel about Letty, though. To quote a message I sent to W. D. Gaster,

"

i'm coming to realize this fic is just

introduce letty as this interesting character

have her meet ichirin and they have a funny interaction

ten seconds later MOVE BITCH!!! i slap letty out of the way and she doesn't do or say anything even remotely interesting for 6,000 words while ichirin tells her entire life story that i spent all this time hand crafting

"

which I think applies even after I gave her that sad bit towards the end. I don't dislike what she does on screen, I just wish I'd focused on her even a little bit more.

I'm actually quite glad I picked this for my pairing. Out of my four choices, I didn't pick Chen/Kogasa because I've always interpreted Chen as a kid and writing a non-romantic work for TCM would be lame. I didn't pick Iku/Satori because I really can't bring myself to care for Iku, and writing Satori interacting positively with anyone but her housemates is surprisingly difficult. I didn't pick Youmu/Yukari because I already know those two characters much too well for it to be any fun for me or the reader. I wanted a challenge, of course, so I chose this. Two characters who I barely knew anything about, that I'd have to find common ground between.

As for doing that, I think I did good. Giving them the familiarity with loneliness helped to establish a theme, and giving them entirely different ways of handling it helped to develop a dynamic.

Overall, the only part of this fic I'm entirely disappointed with would be the lack of yuri. My last submission was gayer than Elton John's sunglasses, and this one kind of caps out at them being in an implied romance.

I was gonna keep this a secret, but I wanna write a much shorter second chapter soon. They're gonna kiss.

I hope that my further writings are easier than this one. I miss posting weekly.

If you are reading this, I have managed to post a single fic! If you didn't come from the notes of said fic, read it and come back. Please read it. Please. Please. I'm begging. Please.

There was an original version of this post that was a little over 1,000 words of me talking about how life has been, but I read it back and realized that I got way too personal about it and was effectively traumadumping. Nobody wants to see that, and I don't want you to see that, so I've decided to only carry over the final bit of that original version:

I'm back. Be afraid.

To summarize the rest, in march '24 I joined a roleplay my friends do and it became my primary creative outlet, replacing writing entirely. That's why my posts became so... uncommon around that time. It was a lot of fun, but recently it's started to decay and I can't enjoy it anymore, so... nowhere to go but here, huh?

I say "nowhere to go but here" as if I don't love writing with every bit of my life. I'd much rather do this than sit around all day, not exercising any of my creativity. My ideas are too good to not share them! You kids need a role model like me! You young'uns need to watch me get old and die so you can carry on my legacy of writing about Wriggle Nightbug!

Nonsense aside, from now on until forever, regular posting is to resume. I want to post weekly again, so lower your expectations and expect monthly posts.

As for what I have on the backburner, ordered by how soon they're coming...

0: My TCM submission for this year, which is already posted and hopefully where you came from.

1: Reimu and Aunn focused work that isn't very meaningful but I intend on posting anyways, started before TCM pairings were announced.

2: Wakasagihime and Kagerou focused work (i wouldnt go so far as to call it shipping buuuut kagerou does try to eat her alive so. interpret however you will)

3: I dunno. Whatever I want. Probably continuing Warmup, but I might get a more attractive idea. Or use one of the ideas I have written down.

Writing itself feels so odd. I can tell I've improved because I'm now spotting a LOT of issues in my earlier works that I've never noticed before, but writing itself doesn't seem to come to me as naturally as before. I think I've gotten a lot better at saying things in interesting ways, (personal favorite line from my latest fic as of writing: "She would have sat down and pondered over how to climb them without suffering life-altering cranial trauma, however she swiftly remembered that the region of Japan she lived in had no laws, especially none of logic, common sense, or physics.") but I'm beyond rusted at writing anything that isn't just dialogue. After all, the entirety of that fic is just two girls sitting and talking.

Prev. post was more about how life has been in general and how I feel about writing in general, but I do also need to talk more about this fic in specific!

The original plan, all the way back in late Feb, was that I'd finish that Reimu and Aunn fic in a few days and then do this, but I ended up having to write this beast as my first work in mostly a year, which makes this easily the toughest challenge I've ever experienced writing.

I really underestimated just how rusty I am and just how long I'd stay rusty. Every single sentence of this work, even the boring or short ones, took at minimum an entire minute to make sure they said what I wanted to say. I did not have the stamina or skill to finish this in the time frame I wanted at all. Some nights I'd spend 3-5 hours total with my notes app open and still put out under 750 words of actual progress. I don't even know if I could've finished this within the month if I didn't have a night of possession last week where I wrote a little under 4k words of this in one sitting.

And as for the actual story? I'm not as happy as possible with the result. Standalone I love what I've put out, but I wanted this fic for TCM to be a lot more than just... a really long interpretation of Ichirin's backstory accompanied by some handholding.

I had even more to say about that backstory, too! I have this whole story in my head about how she became a youkai and what kind of youkai she is! I could (and might) write an entire oneshot about the temple's time sealed in the Underground!

I've always had such a huge interest in Ichirin. Her design rules, and she's a stand user. What more is there to ask for?

The Temple as a whole is such a great gang, especially with characters like Mamizou or Nue thrown in. Every time I see them they move a little further up to the #1 spot on my list of favorite 2hu groups, threatening to usurp Team 9 which has reigned since... shit, since I first learned about 2hu. I want to write all of them more eventually.

Not entirely sure how I feel about Letty, though. To quote a message I sent to W. D. Gaster,

"

i'm coming to realize this fic is just

introduce letty as this interesting character

have her meet ichirin and they have a funny interaction

ten seconds later MOVE BITCH!!! i slap letty out of the way and she doesn't do or say anything even remotely interesting for 6,000 words while ichirin tells her entire life story that i spent all this time hand crafting

"

which I think applies even after I gave her that sad bit towards the end. I don't dislike what she does on screen, I just wish I'd focused on her even a little bit more.

I'm actually quite glad I picked this for my pairing. Out of my four choices, I didn't pick Chen/Kogasa because I've always interpreted Chen as a kid and writing a non-romantic work for TCM would be lame. I didn't pick Iku/Satori because I really can't bring myself to care for Iku, and writing Satori interacting positively with anyone but her housemates is surprisingly difficult. I didn't pick Youmu/Yukari because I already know those two characters much too well for it to be any fun for me or the reader. I wanted a challenge, of course, so I chose this. Two characters who I barely knew anything about, that I'd have to find common ground between.

As for doing that, I think I did good. Giving them the familiarity with loneliness helped to establish a theme, and giving them entirely different ways of handling it helped to develop a dynamic.

Overall, the only part of this fic I'm entirely disappointed with would be the lack of yuri. My last submission was gayer than Elton John's sunglasses, and this one kind of caps out at them being in an implied romance.

I was gonna keep this a secret, but I wanna write a much shorter second chapter soon. They're gonna kiss.

I hope that my further writings are easier than this one. I miss posting weekly.

working with them was such a pleasant experience and it was worth every second and penny i spent! i'd never purchased a custom fumo before and they made it extremely easy.

here's their wares (slightly old list, there may be even more now)

and also this thing which may be the funniest fumo of all time

ridiculously high quality fumos too, wriggle has absolutely zero flaws and doesn't feel cheap in the slightest