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I personally have grown up with my mother doing stuff like this and yes it made me uncomfortable but she just joked about being a nudist

It bothered my older brother slightly but they just dismiss him because he is mentally unstable

From what I remember she would walk around naked use the bathroom and not close the door and even sometimes being nude to half while my god brother was next to her on the bed and he looked unbothered? She would just say it was her room so this is something we should expect even though a lot of the times her door would be wide open

I thought nothing more of it as she is the owner of the house and people told me the same thing

Fast forward my boyfriend moves in we had lived together with some roommates before it was not ideal but after situations involving my mother and brother forced me to realize I needed to leave we have been known to argue in the past due to me not liking the situation

And this carried on here so we’ve had our fights here and there definitely not neither of our best moments but one of them I called her while she was at work and she raced home and yelled at me and basically my bf tries to bust in the bathroom while I’m trying to calm down because ig he had to get ready for work (it was late so I thought he was already together). He pushes past me while I’m rinsing off my face and she’s yelling at me from downstairs I’m overwhelmed but I’m trying to talk to my little brother about how I called her for help but I really wanted her to send someone else because we also have a history of arguing and just a strained relationship of her being hostile and alienating me too

I repeatedly asked everyone to leave me alone and just let me breathe and listen to what happened I couldn’t tell her because my bf had pride my phone out my hand as he does in almost all of our arguments and proceeded to call her and only tell her his side and when she came in the house she said “you’re just like you brother you’re acting just like him” so atp in the bathroom I was done I asked my mother to listen to my side and she was now trying to fight me and calling her friends

And now somehow she was half naked with no pants trying to put pass my brother to fight me because I asked her to listen to my side and my bf was yelling at me to stop starting shit because I said I wouldn’t stop her from hitting me when he also knew she used to hit me and even throw cans and food at me when he’d visit when we were first starting to date

Away from the argument itself I felt irritated because I had been asking my mother to wear clothes around the house since she expected rent from me and my bf and stamps so I felt as though boundaries mattered too

As well as she had just got off of work and she was trying to jump on us half dressed because he wouldn’t let me calm down in the bathroom and deliberately following to say back handed things like “are you done yet”

The half dressed thing and a plethora of reasons is why I try to avoid her even with living with her but it definitely sealed the deal when I heard her laughing and mumbling after changing into a revealing fit not after my siblings dad got to the house but after seeing my bf and he replied something along the lines of “you’re half dressed around here “ he had also seemed bothered by her being in the bed around the god brother “cause he’s grown now”

We have nothing much of a relationship either but I don’t know

Now it’s thanksgiving and she’s running up on me no shirt infront of my bf because I asked her to tell my sister to not roll her eyes at me when I ask her to not snatch the tablet from my brother telling him “he’s so behind in school” it was mean my little brother has autism he is a bit behind in school but like any kid he excels in his own range of things and she was on her technology too

After I left the situation alone because she started throwing things my bf lingered and stayed behind even tho he wasn’t dressed and I’m a bit irritated but it was an uncomfortable situation but he urged me to talk to them about it even though every time I try to talk to my mother she tries to berate, belittle, and fight me?

But I’d be lying if I said that’s all of my stress

Maybe for a relationship that took everything I never knew i had left

For people that couldn’t even give less of a fuck for how I feel?

When will I have something left for myself

And please I want that shit real

Not a fake ass what now ? Whats wrong?

Words chomped down and regurgitated into the same half ass song?

Are you okay with being used? Abused

I still ask you to listen and yet you keep asking what the fuck is wrong?

When will I be able to leave ?

A moment to fucking breathe ?

Am I allowed to have that? Fucking please?

But “what’s wrong “

You don’t care to know to comfort my woe

To lighten my load? Would be to ask to know

Crying about what I'm wearing around people telling me to keep my coat on and only wanting me when I look a certain way should be the obvious sign with OnlyFans models that look nothing like me tho such a fucking cliche obsessed with staying with someone you don't even try to keep

I'm okay with breaking up because we aren't compatible but he wants me there for him disregarding my feelings

A bitch you only met once after you unfollow them: these hoes wanna be me so bad I started the wave the motion