It takes strength to be gentle & kind -TheSmiths

thanks anon :)

<3

So it hurt a lot. Still hurts. Because she “loved me” and then she changed her mind that fast.

I don’t regret her. She was an important chapter in my life. I will never regret her.

writing, reading a bunch of books on self-help, relationships, pyschology, etc. listening to podcasts and ted talks, talking to new friends and people, listening to others and their experience with heartbreak, not drinking, not being afraid to go on dates, stand up comedy, learning new things, throwing myself back into focusing on school, working out again, having my break-up buddy who got dumped around the same time as me ( we check in on each other and keep each other from doing stupid things like reaching out etc. ) … crying. As awful as that is, crying does help a little bit.

its been about 4 months now. I’m still not over it… but I am making my way out of that hole. one day at a time.

I am not in a place to give someone a relationship. I am still getting over the last one that ended. Before I jump into another one, I really am trying to work on myself and my issues and past so that I don’t screw up the next relationship like I usually do. I don’t want to repeat the past again, and I also do not want to hurt anybody by giving them half of my heart. My goal is to be my best possible self- so that I can give that to someone. And I hope they have reached a point where they are their best possible self before we start a relationship. I hope in that case, things will be good.

I don’t think I want to START a new relationship long distance again-  but if it is with the right person then I would be willing to do anything for them. I think that’s the answer. If you love someone you do whatever it takes. No obstacle too big.

I am so sorry you are going through that. I know its awful. Best thing you can do right now is just meet your basic needs. I know lectures of “youll find someone else” and “she didnt deserve you” is not what you want to hear right now. So for now, just be gentle with yourself. I know you’re hurting my friend. Just get sleep, try to eat something, and don’t isolate yourself. And cry. A lot. It’s better to get it out <3