P. VILLIERS

i forgot that you existed 

“ you did me wrong. ” “ i couldn’t get away. ” “ something happened one magical night. ” “ i forgot that you existed. ” “ i thought that it would kill me, but it didn’t. ” “ it isn’t love, it isn’t hate, it’s just indifference. ”

cruel summer 

“ i’m always waiting for you. ” “ devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes. ” “ what doesn’t kill me makes me want you more. ” “ it’s new, the shape of your body. ” “ it’s a cruel summer with you. ” “ we’ll just screw it up in these trying times. ” “ if i bleed, you’ll be the last to know. ” “ said i’m fine, but it wasn’t true. ” “ i don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you. ” “ i love you– ain’t that the worst thing you ever heard? ” “ i screamed, for whatever it’s worth. ”

lover 

“ we could leave the christmas lights up till january. ” “ this is our place, we make the rules. ” “ there’s a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you. ” “ have i known you twenty seconds, or twenty years? ” “ can i go where you go? ” “ can we always be this close? ” “ i’m highly suspicious that everyone who sees you wants you. ” “ i’ve love you three summers now, honey, but i want ‘em all. ” “ i take this magnetic force of a man/women/etc. ” “ my heart’s been borrowed, and yours had been blue. ” “ all’s well that ends well to end up with you. ” “ save all your dirtiest jokes for me. ” “ at every table, i’ll save you a seat. ” “ darling you’re my lover. ”

the man 

“ i played the field before i found someone to commit to. ” “ i’m so sick of running as fast as i can. ” “ wondering i’d get there quicker is i was a man. ” “ i’m so sick of them coming at me. ” “ coz if i was a man, then i’d be the man. ” “ they’d say i hustled, put in the work. ” “ they wouldn’t shake their heads and questions how much of this i deserve. ” “ it’s okay that i’m mad. ”

the archer 

“ i’m ready for combat. ” “ i don’t want that. ” “ cruelty wins in the movies. ” “ i’ve got a hundred thrown out speeches i almost said to you. ” “ easy they come, easy they go. ” “ i never grew up. ” “ help me hold on to you. ” “ i’ve been the archer, i’ve been the prey. ” “ who could ever leave me, darling? ” “ but who could stay? ” “ who could ever leave me, darling, but who could stay? ” “ i search for your dark side. ” “ what if i’m all right, right here? ” “ i hate my reflection for years and years. ” “ i pace like a ghost. ” “ all of my heroes die all alone. ” “ i see right through me. ” “ can you see right through me? ” “ all the king’s horses, all the king’s men couldn’t put me together again. ” “ all of my enemies started out friends. ”

i think he knows 

“ his/her/their hands already a cold glass make me wanna know that body like it’s mine. ” “ got that boyish look i like in a man. ” “ i’m an architect, i’m drawing up the plans. ” “ nobody understands. ” “ he/she/they got my heartbeat skipping down 16th avenue. ” “ wanna see what’s under that attitude. ” “ i want you. ” “ i think he knows. ” “ i’ll make myself at home and he’ll/she’ll/they’ll/you’ll want me to stay. ” “ hand on my thigh, we can follow the sparks. ”

miss americana & the heartbreak prince 

either answer as dialogue spoken, or as an aesthetic to prose off the imagery of.

eyes killer cold and black and bare. i wanna go back, i wanna go back. i wanna take to my guns and break you. i’m so so cold in the marrow of my bones. i was in full bloom until i met you. dance with me and shake your bones. paperback dreams in my deep doze. take your throne, pump your veins with gushing gold. shake my little soul for you now. i’m a fool of many tricks and tools and joy, with a battery of guilt on which to poise. mind my wicked words and tipsy topsy slurs. i can’t take this place, i just wanna go where i can get some space. i take your gloom, i curl it up and puff it into plumes. how can i believe you, how can i be nice, tripping around the tree stumps in your summer smile? face so lost, petrified, timid twitch in your wide eyes. you’re so juiced, you said you’d kick the booze. don’t you cry, don’t you drain those big blue eyes. i fake my breaking smile. i’m a twisted fool, my hands are twisted too. don’t spin me a lie, i’m crooked but upright. all i ever want, is just a little love. all i ever want, is breaking me apart. makes my nerves clench close and my bones go cold when i see that room. your smile so super quiet. you won’t make it back this time. you know, you know the way that i hide. why don’t you dance like you’re sick in your mind? you know the way that i hide for you. can’t you feel your dirty face? don’t it leave that filthy taste? you can’t breathe without me.