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Chapters: 1/16 Fandom: มีสติหน่อยคุณธีร์ | Me and Thee (TV) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Rome Kritdanai Lee/Mok, Peach Peachayarat Janekit/Thee Theerakit Kian Lee Characters: Rome Kritdanai Lee, Mok (Me and Thee), Peach Peachayarat Janekit, Thee Theerakit Kian Lee Additional Tags: Angst with a Happy Ending, Minor Character Death, Love Letters, Betrayal, Mafia War, Not Canon Compliant, Bad Parenting, Kidnapping, Rescue Missions, mostly Mok's pov, but the chapter titles are from songs which tell Rome's feelings, Inspired by Music, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Not Beta Read Summary:

i'm writing another fic (also based on a song but less), hoping to finish before it's the end of my Erasmus exchange, haha, I'm not sad at all (pls take me back to september so i can reexperience my exchange year and rewatch Duang with you for the first time)

this is a new tumblr post series where I write down the memory that my brain wants me to remember as a first thought in the morning.

Today (13th of April, 2026) my brain has graced me with a new memory I forgot about (far from the worst tbh, it makes me laugh at best, shake my head at worst).

I was in high school and it was winter (I remember that this happened at night). I had just met a nice guy through theatre outings (the kind of random connection with people you vibe quickly with, I think) and it turned out we had friends in common, bc my friends were sociable. So one day, I'm walking to the bus stop that everyone at my school used to go to anyways, and this guy is there and I don't remember how but basically we're at the bus stop and we're chatting. And I open my phone in front of him and he sees I have Wattpad. For context, I didn't use Wattpad that much in high school but I did the years before and my history search was probably full of shit like "larry omegaverse" or "drarry soulmates" or "sterek mpreg"... (I'm exagerating but you get the vibes). Another vibe you have to get is that this guy was cool. He had friends in higher year than his (my year bc he was younger, so like my friends were his friends but we were older. But I was a huge loser, still am, so I was relatively impressed by that). He had his life figured out (in terms of what he wanted to do after high school, and it was also a cool job), dated people, had cool friends, niche hobbies and dressed well. Anyways, cool dude. Me, total loser. So he spots my Wattpad app and he points it out like omg you have wattpad, wait you need to read smthg on there, let me show you. (Not the exact words but my entire life flashed through my life). So I quickly delete my history search before passing him my phone even though at this point he probably saw my home page and the disastrous searches... So he searches the thing, adds it to my library and end of story. But still, mortifying...

it's hard to maintain character consistency when you're focused on making the plot move forward so I'll never complain again about inconsistencies in later chapters anymore

I'm glad I improved on how to formate dialogue bc I always hated that before

short fics for the win! long stuff is not my cup of tea and i've accepted that

After dialogues comes my new challenge: kissing scenes. Wtf did I write? I don't think it even made sense.

I need to be more careful with my grammar

It's fun

kudos have more power than you think, i'll stop being a ghost reader as much as I was, sorry

song fics are fun

just started a new fic but this one i'll finish bc it's not crazy ambitious, might be a lot of words but only 4 chapters... I'm trying really hard to fight my commitment issues when it comes to writing something

i was listening to lover you should've come over walking back from uni which i associate with the loki ending bc... tiktok edits? and realised the loki ending is exactly what being a closeted trans person feels like. I've been in the closet for 8 years, partly by choice to secure my future basically and like...

the loki ending is all abt giving up on living your life as an active instigator of it, which Loki learns to be through looking for sylvie in s1 and then the rest of season 2 (vaguely forgot the plot bc i have no memory sorry, he tried saving his friends or smthg... I feel like it's how you learn to live through accepting queerness *Mobius*. Like the whole "being queer saved me" mentality which you have to grieve when you "choose" to stay in the closet) . but then he gives up on living basically to only become a witness of everyone else living, while erasing himself into less than a human being but some sort of backgroung presence. like how derealisation feels like when you're in the closet for so long your life doesn't feel like it's yours. here his life is taken away from him to serve that purpose, the purpose of making sure everyone around him gets to live a life normally, which he'll never get to do. and all that for what? for TIME (i saw the TV glow changed me so it changes everyone too bc i say so). so while everyone's life is their own, experienced in a timeline that makes sense, loki doesn't experience time the same, bc how can you experience time when you're not really living?

first (kind of) serious post from me, but here's a list of transmasc rep books because I tend to read them in one sitting. also it's an ongoing list. (i haven't reread this post out of laziness, sorry there might typos and mistakes)

Most Ardently, Gabe Coloe Novoa - I had to put it first, it's soooo good! Pride and prejudice retelling where MC is a trans man navigating family, friends and meeting Mr.Darcy... I haven't read it in a while but I believe it follows more the plot of the 2005 movie bc it's obviously shorter than the original. But as a fan of the Jane Austen book, I love it bc it balances well the retelling of the main story while adding its own creative input. You have complete new scenes and also different characterisations with other queer characters. The end note of the author is also worth the read bc it totally changed how I received the ending of the book. It's a nice read and handles well the expression of trans experience. Anyways I really like it and it's also more on the light side overall, at least to me? Like there is serious discussion around transphobia impacting life but still, it's not too heavy. I would definitely recommend

Icarus, K. Ancrum - My last read (the list isn't as long as I thought tbh). Less main rep of transidentity bc it's not the MC and I don't remember exactly but I don't thin it's a completely trans man character? I can't find precision anywhere but that's what I remember. It's still a cute queer story. I would say though it's a bit heavier than Most Ardently. It's still YA and have a lot of nice heart warming moments but it deals a lot with parental abuse and emotional conversations around it without being the most explicit or violent in its way to deal with it. The action scenes got me confused in that book, but I usually tend not to understand action scenes anyway so I couldn't tell if it's a writing thing or a me thing. It's a nice take on the Icarus myth and the world building is vague so your whole focus is on the character interactions and relations. (Plot is about a father training a son to steal solely from one man's house, and his son Icarus, the MC, ends up getting close to Helios, the son of this man.) I would recommend. I felt like it had more of its sad moments compared to other books in that list in terms of tone but it's not tragic or anything. It's also a short read and I loved it.

Hell Followed with Us, Andrew Joseph White - So everyone knows about this one... And for a good reason! I tried to read it a first time but I only got into it the second time. I think it's because it's hard to understand the world building from just the first chapter and I think the first time I was looking for a lazier read. But it's sooo worth it! Obviously it's quite dark, heavier and on the gore side but I think the metaphors and comparisons to current world and issues are very smart. Made me more interested in that specific genre. The plot is about Benji, a trans teen trying to escape from a closed paramilitary cult? in an apocalypse setting where the world has fallen victim to a global virus. (I'm not good at plot, but imo you shouldn't look too much at sums up of this book bc they all tend to spoil one major plot around Benji which is kind of lame). I'm excited for the movie, too! One thing that's definitely nice in this is that queer stories tend to focus on romantic relationships and cute stories which that book doesn't. There are plots that can relate to this but they're not at the center of it, Benji is. It also multiple povs, neurodivergence rep and a lot of heavy topics are discussed. I would overall advise to look at the TWs for any of my recs, I wanted to add them but bc it's all books I read a while ago I don't want to miss any so I rather not put any, sorry. Anyways, I definitely recommend this one too!

Tears in the Water, Margherita Scialla - Very nice! Alternate Universe of a sports school. The world building isn't very advanced on this one (not a negative point for me). It's a different outlook on trans rep bc the MC is more in a gender crisis than fully set on who they are. I remember this book more for its accurate depiction of anxiety bc I read it when I really struggled with that. It has its sad moments but it's overall a cute YA tone with themes of friendships and romance! I read it a while ago so I don't remember everything, sorry but it left a really good nice sentiment on me. It was an easy read and quite heart warming and comforting. There's also neurodivergence rep (apparently, I don't remember omg that's so bad, should I actually do book recs if I can't remember that???) But yeah, it's a sports university, MC Alex swims with best friend and meets some volleyball guy. It's a nice book! And I feel like it gets less brought up when talking abt trans rep books but worth the read

The Sunbearer Trials, Aiden Thomas - Aaaah, I loved it when I read it! Also one of these where I don't remember the whole plot. But basically trials plot with a lot of Mexican-inspired environments. Like it's about demi-gods fighting. I'm not familiar with Mexican folklore, legends, myths, etc. so it was honestly such a fun way to discover more about it like I was reading and google-ing things at the same time! It did take me a few chapters to have a full notion of what was going on bc I wasn't familiar with it but because this type of world building and setting are often used it wasn't hard. it's wholesome, has funny moments but also serious discussion thrown between plot and actions. It's really nice if you want like, casual rep in the background of a well-written fantasy story! I believe the second book came out but I haven't read it bc I'm not a consistent person, in anything... But I also recommend!!

Self-Made Boys, Anna-Marie McLemore - another retelling (they're part of the same collection btw). It's a gatsby retelling with a trans and latino twist. It's good and smart and almost made me want to read the original one despite it being the result of a man stealing his wife's work :( It definitely has the same tone of Most Ardently as in it tackles serious matters within a well-built plot and attaching characters. I got into it and really liked it! I don't remember a lot apart from liking it? Omg I'm so bad at this... But I would also recommend, I think it's more lengthy than Most Ardently and I have no idea how much it changes from the original but I think it balances well good rep without making it seem forced. It fits well in the story and it's still a great story!