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Feel free to change the lyrics / pronouns to fit your muse ! Trigger warnings: suicidal thoughts tw.

"I could stay right here or disappear, and nobody’d even notice at all.”

“I’m a creeper in a bathroom ‘cause my buddy kinda left me alone.”

“Everything felt fine when I was half of a pair.”

“I am hanging in the bathroom at the biggest party of the fall.”

“No, you can’t come in!”

“I’m waiting it out till it’s time to leave.”

“I’m just [Name], who you don’t know.”

“I’m hiding, but he’s out there, just ignoring all of our history.”

“I have regret the beers.”

“I’ll wait as long as I need ‘till my face is dry. Or I’ll just blame it on the weed. Or something in my eye.”

“I’ll get replaced by a newer, cooler version of me.”

“They’re gonna start to shout soon.”

“It sucks that he left me here alone.”

“My big mistake was showing up.”

“Is there a sadder sight?”

“I wish I’d stay at home at bed, watching cable porn.”

“I wish I’d off myself instead, wish I was never born!”

“God, I’m such a loser!”

[Sarcasm] “Awesome party, I’m so glad I came.”

“I’m waiting for my porno to load.”

“Freaking out is my ‘okay’.”

“When I get nervous, my whole face goes red.”

“If I walk, when I arrive, I’m gonna straight up reek.”

“If I’m not feeling super weird or strange, my life would be an utter disarray.”

“God, I wish I had the skill. To just be fine, or cool, or chill.”

“I'll never be a Rob DeNiro, For me, Joe Pesci is fine.”

“I don’t wanna be special. I just wanna survive!”

“Dude, weigh the options calmly and be still.“

“So, Rowlan said Madeline told Jake: I'll only have sex with you if you beat me at pool and then she lost at pool deliberately!”

“It's a sign up for the after school play... it's a sign up sheet for getting called "gay".”

“No time to wallow, no instead, just clear your brain and move ahead.”

“You're one of those guys who'll be a virgin 'till he dies!”

“You're listening to Bob Marley again, aren't you?”

“How was class? You look like ass, what's wrong?”

“Hey, I saw on discovery that humanity has stopped evolving!“

“Look who's signing up for the play!”

“I'm never gonna be the cool guy, I'm more the one who's left out.”

“I get depressed, but not depressed as in like kill yourself depressed. No, I’m not into self-harm. Dude, I swear, here check my arm!”

“I am passionate a lot.”

“I have mad, gigantic feelings, red and frantic feelings, about most everything. Like gun control, like spring. Like if I’m living up to all I'm meant to be.”

“Life is easy in rehearsal, You follow a script so you know what comes next.”

“The only time I get to be the centre of attention is when I'm Juliet or Blanche DuBois and can I mention that was really one of my best roles. Did you see that?”

“Most humans do one thing for all of their lives, the thought of that gives me hives!”

“And why am I telling this to you? Guess there's a part of me that wants to.”

“My little penis was depressed.”

“That's the point. This is some top-secret-can't-even-look-it-up-on-the-internet shit.”

“So... It's like drugs?”

“Picture this: nobody cares if you are late 'cause even teachers think you're great.”

“Find the bad guy, push 'em aside. Then move on forward with your friend at your side.”

“If you leave your brother behind, it's lame.”

“Dude you are cooler than a vintage cassette. It's just that no one else but me thinks that yet.”

“Nobody here appreciates, but soon we'll be together where they do.”

“Guys like us are cool in college.”

“You're just a nothing in this high school scheme, but it's no big cause you and I are a team.”

“But we're not in college.”

“High school is whack, but we have each others' back.”

“You know that you are my favourite person, that doesn't mean that I can't still dream.”

“Is it really true that I’m your favourite person?”

“Take your hands out of your pockets, arch your back, puff out your chest.”

“All your nerdiness is ugly.”

“Your charm is non-existent.”

“Everything about you is so terrible. Everything about you makes me wanna die.”

“So don't freak out and don't resist.”

“What?! What's wrong with my shirt—”

“How are you with math homework?”

“Don't smile. Stare intensely. Speak like you don't care about your own death.”

“I saw it in the window and I couldn't dismiss, I was dating a girl and she had a shirt just like this.”

“Ugh! She is NOT French! She just pretends to be for attention!”

Some of the lyrics have been modified to fit in plausible rp threads. Of course any pronouns at all are free to anybody to change accordingly!

"I'll bet she's beautiful, the girl you talk about."

"I laughed 'cause it's so damn funny."

"He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right."

"I wonder if he knows he knows he's all I think about at night."

"[Name] walk by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?"

"She better hold him tight, and give him all her love."

"I'll put [Name]'s picture down."

"Maybe I'll get some sleep tonight."

"You’re saying sorry and that face of an angel comes out just when you need it to.”

“I honestly believed in you.”

[Muttering to self] “Stupid. I should’ve known.”

“This isn’t a fairytale, and I’m the one you sweep off her feet.”

“I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.”

“I was naive, and I never really had a chance.”

“You had to fight to have the upper hand.”

“I had so many dreams about you and me — happy endings. But now I know.”

"I’m gonna find someone someday, who might actually treat me well.”

“This is a big world, and that was a small town.”

“All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around.”

“I’ve been giving out chances and everytime all you do is let me down.”

“It’s taken me this long, but I’ve figured you out.”

“You don’t have to call anymore, I won’t pick up the phone.”

“You’re not sorry.”

“Could’ve loved you all my life if you hadn’t left me waiting.”

“You’ve got your share of secrets and I’m tired of being the last to know.”

“You used to shine so bright.”

“I see your face in my mind as I drive away.”

“None of us thought it was gonna end that way.”

“People are people, and sometimes we change our minds.”

“It’s killing me to see you go after all this time.”

“It’s the kind of ending you don’t really wanna see.”

“I don’t know what to be without you around.”

“And you know it’s never simple, never easy.”

“You’re the only thing I know, like the back of my hand.”

“I can’t breathe without you, but I have to.”

"It’s 2 AM, and I’m feeling like I just lost a friend.”

“You might think I’m bulletproof, but I’m not.”

“I’m sick and tired of your attitude!”

“Yes, I remember what you said last night.”

“You could write a book on how to ruin someone’s perfect day.”

“I got no one to believe in.”

“You tell me that you want me, then push me around.”

“There’s something about the way the streets looked when it just rained.”

“I wanna ask you to dance right here. In the middle of the parking lot.”

“Hey, [Name], I know looks can be deceiving but I know I saw a light in you.”

“I didn’t say half the things I wanted to.”

“I think you and I should stay the same.”

“I’ve never seen nobody shine the way you do.”

“You’re so in love, that you act insane.”

“I never knew I could feel that much.”

“He’s close to my mother, talk business with my father.”

“I like the way you sound in the morning. We were on the phone and your laugh was the best sound I have ever heard.”

“All I can think is we should be together.”

“Baby, I’m never gonna leave you.”

“Six months gone and I’m still reaching, even though I know [Name]’s not there.”

“Come back to me.”

for my friend, saint, here is a general guidance on how to make a border for your roleplaying icons. should you have any question once the tutorial is over, feel free to reach out to me via IM or askbox. well, first of all, here is some of the borders i’ll be guiding you guys on to make:

(1) basic borders - dark outline, with white lines.

(2) dotted or dashed borders 

(3) or how to add borders on a rounded icon

note: the brown-background is merely to show how the border would look like in case the white background doesn’t allow you to see it, but rest assured we will be having our icons in .png to support transparency. on another note , i’m very aware that the icons aren’t pretty — i don’t put any psd or any adjustment on the icon itself (taken from here) — but feel free to adjust the borders or your icon later on once you’ve fully understood the tutorials because im really teaching you the basics of how i usually do it and it’s really adjustable :))

what you will need:

photoshop, definitely. 

You may change any verb / sentences to fit your muse !

"It's actually just PIN. The 'N' stands for number, it's Personal Identification Number. So, if you say ‘Pin Number’ you're saying ‘number’ twice. You're saying "Personal Identification Number Number".[chuckles] “That’s just wrong.”

"Well, you know what they say: girls for now, girls for later.”

“Care to play the game ‘Spot The Virgin’?”

“Harry Potter IS gay. He’s clearly fucking Weasley.”

“Your brother is the best person ever! He’s a legend!”

“I’m just very passionate... about corporate finance.”

“What the fuck happened to your face?”

“You know in a few years these boys will be very important.”

“You got quite a posh name. [Name], are you? Posh.”

“Sir, you can’t go through there — oh, you’re HIM. I’m so sorry.”

“I’m offering you a future.”

“We really shouldn’t be doing this.”

“These people are not your friends.”

“We're in the top university in the world. Sure, there are twenty thousand other people — but there are no more than ten in the Riot Club.”

“It’s time for you to leave.”

[Punches somebody] [Laughs] “Oops.”

“Couldn’t it have just been a mistake?”

“I was only saying what every other fucker in here was thinking.”

“I don't give a shit about the club. Smash it.”

“I am sick to DEATH of poor people!”

“Oh, it’s just a little bit of fun.”

“You said you needed me, and I came. I think that makes me a nice person.”

“You’re too good for us? We’ve got the finest sperm in the country in this room, you should be paying us to let you drink it.”

“Stop it! FUCKING STOP IT!”

“You let them humiliate me.”

“I need your help, something’s happened.”

“Why should I help you after what you put me through?”

“You were there. You had a choice. And you chose to do nothing.”

“It is our time, gentleman. Let us eat till we explode. Let us drink ‘till out eyes fall out. Let us dance footloose upon the earth, and carpe some fucking diem !”

“We all did this.”

“I'm just bringing the sexy back.”

“Excuse me, I'm in charge here!”

“I'm not just a live version of the sock you wank into.”

“Do... we need to like each other?”

“There weren’t any girls at your school, were there?”

“Don’t worry, girls are just like boys. But cleverer.”

“I swear, being at Oxford, it’s like - being invited to a hundred parties all at once. And I wanna go to all of them, you know?”

“My dad would’ve cried if I HADN’T got into Oxford. My whole family came here.”

“Can you stop flirting with me, please?”

"Pack yourself a toothbrush, dear. Pack yourself a favourite blouse.”

“‘Cause if we don’t leave this town, we might never make it out.”

“Take all of your savings out.”

“I was not born to drown.”

“By the time your mother wakes, we would’ve driven through the state.”

“Baby, come on.”

“We were not born in sin.”

“Forget what Father Brennan said.”

“We’ve driven through the night.”

“Leave a note on your bed, let your mother know you’re safe.”

“If the sun don’t shine on me today, would you lay yourself down and dig your grave?”

“Will you rail against your dying day?”

“Jesus Christ can’t save me today.”

“We looked outside, we couldn’t even see the sky.”

“How do you pay your rents? Is it your parents?”

“Is it hard work, my dear, holding the atmosphere?”

“I don’t wanna live like that.”

“Put on your dress.”

“Decide on me.”

“Yes, wear something nice.”

“Oh, ____ , you’ve been on my mind since the flood.”

“When I was younger, I should’ve known better.”

“I can’t feel no remorse.”

“You don’t feel nothing back.”

“I’ve got a new girlfriend.”

“You can’t see past my blinders.”

“He feels like he’s on top.”

“Heaven helps a fool who falls in love.”

“You can’t feel nothing small.”

“You got big plans, you’ve gotta move.”

“‘Honey, I love you.’ That’s all she wrote.”

“I can’t feel nothing at all.”

“I was Cleopatra.”

“I was young and an actress.”

“You knelt by my mattress and asked for my hand.”

“I was sad you asked it.”

“I had no plans.”

“I lay in my black dress with my father in a casket.”

“I left the footprints, the mud stained the carpet.”

“The mud hardened like my heart did when you left town.”

“I must admit, I would marry you in an instant.”

“I was late for the love of my life.”

“Damn your wife, I’d be your mistress. Just to have you around.”

"I was scared of dentist and the dark.”

“I was scared of pretty girls and starting conversation.”

“You’re the magician’s assistant!”

“You’ve taken away to the dark side.”

“We’re running down to the riptide!”

“My friends are turning green.”

“I got a lump in my throat ‘cause you’re gonna sing the words wrong.”

“I love you when you’re singing that song.”

“I wanna be your left-hand man.”

“This guy decides to quit his job and head for New York City.”

“There’s this movie that I think you’ll like.”

“I just wanna know if you’re gonna stay.”

“The cowboy’s running from himself.”

“I swear she’s destined for the screen.”

“I just gotta know.”

“I can’t have it any other way.”

“I was only walking through your neighborhood.”

“Anywhere I go, there you are.”

“I’ve been getting used to waking up with you.”

“Saw your lights on, honey.”

“In the cold, I stood.”

“There you are.”

“I always feel you in my blood.”

“Everything is fine when your head is resting next to mine.”

“Since we’ve met, I feel a lightness in my step.”

“You’re the fire and the flood.”

“You’re miles away but I still feel you.”

“Late at night, when you can’t fall asleep, I’ll be lying right besides you counting sheep.”

“Now listen here.”

“When you know, you’ll know.”

“And I know.”

nothing heartfelt in the way your suitcase felt heavy and light at the same time when you packed it up and held it in your palm. you turned back , you think , to say your goodbye — but that’s a memory you aren’t so sure . what you’re certain , at least , is that the way his tears fall would burn with you until your last breath leaves your lung . just like the shape of your footsteps would be a fist-sized thing cradling his parched heart, with a non-poetic and ugly forever written like you’ve came too far quick to leave so ever soon .

2. he gave you roses , and you left them there to die.

he’s pretty , in the sunlight . gleaming , glittering , shining . when he smiles at people like that ( at you like that ) , you think you can cry . he’s too imperfectly flawless to be next to you , too surreal ; like a dream you’re aching to stay in forever , yet you’re on the edge on anticipating the sudden end . you touch him , and you feel alive but aren’t , at the same time . you can exist here with him , maybe . you want to . you didn’t . and now he’s pretty somewhere , in the sunlight . but you don’t see him anymore , and you think you can cry.

3. you’re bad at remembering dates.

but you can recall every fleck of light that’s reflected in the irises of his eyes during that time ; remembers his breath fogging up almost-transparent wave of ashen coloured cloud when you make him laugh . he’s beautiful , your heart trumps , beating at an ease . he touches you , not for the first time , and you don’t pull back , realising somewhat , like you’ve known for quite some time , how you’ve loved him . it was fall .

4. things you remember, but you can’t.

his coffee order . the time you thought you’d die . his bleeding heart . his pleas . his smiles . the way he shines . his hands . with yours . the inside jokes . things you write down to say , but never did . his parents . his name . his memory . him . the way you left . the way he asked you not to . the way you did , anyway . you , and him . everything . everything .

song: “aku juga manusia / i am also human” (indonesian) by amir jahari and “arjuna beta / my arjuna” (malaysian) by fynn jamal

"i was staring on my own”

“i cried in silence”

“i’m looking for a piece of memory”

“i call it mystery”

“i laughed hearing that.”

“i know who i am" 

“i don’t really care about what you have”

“don’t you dare judge from what’s on the surface”

“all of this belonged to him.”

“i’ll keep this heart of mine safe”

“i’m only an ordinary human”

“i won’t let storm disturb you from your tender sleep”

“if should lightning strikes and beasts come forward, i would never back down from fighting for you”

“be at peace, my love”

“please only dreams the dearest things”

“when you flutter your eyes open later, nothing will be the same”

“there will be a moment later you will not know what to do”

"if the right road, my dear, is not clear, then take the ones filled with thorns.”

“please live, my love”

“let only your body hurt”

“for as long as your God is with you, you will not be harmed.”

“the horror is nothing one can ever imagine”

“i will not always be here”

“i hope you won’t forget”

“i’m begging you, my dear

“feeling used, but i’m still missing you”

"just wanna feel your kiss against my lips”

"i can’t see the end of this”

“it hurts me every time i see you”

"all this time is passing by, and i still can’t seem to tell you why”

“i hate you”

“i love you”

“i hate that i love you”

“i realise how much i need you”

"you want her, you need her”

“i don’t want to, but i can’t put nobody else above you.”

“and i will never be her.”

“i miss you when i can’t sleep.”

“i still got sands in my sweater from nights we don’t remember.”

“fucked around and got attached to you.”

“do you miss me like i miss you?”

“you wouldn’t like that shit.”

"friends can break your heart too.”

“i’m always tired, but never of you.”

“i got these feelings but you never mind that shit.”

“you’re still in love with me, but your friends don’t know.”

“i don’t mean no harm.”

“you ever wonder what we could’ve been?”

“if you wanted me, you would just say so.”

“you say you wouldn’t and you fucking did.”

“lie to me.”

“lie with me.”

“if i were you i would never let me go,”

“now all my drinks and my feelings are all fucking mixed.”

“i know that i control my thoughts”

“always missing people that i shouldn’t be missing.”

“i guess this is moving on.”

“i should stop reminiscing.”

“i learned from my dad it’s good to have feelings.”

“sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance”

“everyone i do right does me wrong”

“all alone, i watch you watch her”

“you don’t care, you never did”

“she’s the only girl you ever see”

“how is it you never notice that you are slowly killing me?”

“you don’t give a damn about me”