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Issues over the course of about a year.

• I'd constantly leave the discord and rejoin(My reasoning for that was I felt left out sometimes, and negative emotions from things festered because I didn't feel like I could vent to anyone)

• I was accused of harassment and the mods forced me to admit to it and accept punishment even though I was just civilly settling something with someone I considered a friend. Yes, I may have used some guilt tripping language during the conversation - I was a very dumb kid that wasn't aware of how letting someone know I was upset could be considered guilt tripping. Here's the kicker - When they told me to leave them alone and we ended the conversation, I never spoke to them again. As far as I know that's the opposite of harassment.

• When there were raffles and I didn't win them, I'm pretty sure I complained a bit, though those memories are a bit fuzzy. I know, that behaviour was discomforting for people and I'm pretty sure I quit it at some point. Once again, memory's fuzzy so take that as you will.

• I swore at a mod(now ex mod from what I've heard) for criticising the way I was drawing heart bettas. I don't really have a defence for this, I was on the wrong and if Snowy's reading this I sincerely apologise for it. Me being a stupid stressed kid doesn't excuse it, it was rude and uncalled for.

• My ways of trying to get back into the group a year after all of these events. Anonymous messaging system, dming a mod(I was friends with them back when we were both just regular members and they were still my friend on discord. If this is where the stalking claims came from, I did not stalk them.), commenting on the group front page, and finally going ahead with attempting to rejoin anyway. I know I should have chosen one, stuck with it and been patient. I know. My methods were stupid and finicky and probably stressful for the mods. I'm sorry for that. The only reason I went ahead when I got impatient was because when I initially left I received a note that said I was free to rejoin. I deleted it and blocked them back then, but I know I was told I could rejoin.

All I recall of Nic's behaviour was negativity in the general chats and jokes about eating people's characters. Of course, for all I know it escalated in my absence, but I wouldn't call him worse. He's alright and recognises his mistakes. I recognise my mistakes - I wasn't the best person when I was 13-14 years old.

One thing I dislike is people accusing me of not showing remorse for it. I am remorseful, I did some stupid stuff that hurt people and suffered consequences for it. There was no malicious intent though, I was just a stupid, emotional child getting upset and making stupid, hurtful decisions. Certain accusations and things have been blown out of proportion, but I understand I did things wrong and people dislike me for it.

Not sure if anon is on, but if it isn't I'll fix that asap.

A few ground rules first:

× I will answer any question that I have the answer to, you just have to ask.

× This is for a civil discussion about events that transpired both not so long ago and quite a while ago.

× I won't stop you from sending hate. However, it won't see the public, as instead I will read it and hit that block button. Civil discussion, not calling me the scum of the earth for things that I may not have even done.