latrocinari:
Things were⌠awkward.
The feeling in the air is a lot different than he expected. Was he just imagining things? Was his feelings making things up? Or maybe there was a small chance that Kamui remembered his time here. Maybe Kamui remembered the time they shared together. Maybe Kamui remembered the feelings he had for Zero in return.
His voice felt dry and at first, he found himself unable to answer him. Had he been well? Even before Kamui left, things werenât really that great for him. The prince leaving him just didnât help things for him.
   â⌠Yeah, Iâve been well. As well as I can be. But,    admittedly, IâŚâ
I havenât been happy, was on the tip of his tongue. The look on Zeroâs face softened, the an expression that he had only shown Kamui before. The look of longing, the look of trust - it was written all on his face and in that lonely, blue eye of his.
The chance he had was there. He could always ask and if Kamui said âI donât rememberâ, then he could leave. He could bury his feelings for the prince and allow him to live his life. He didnât need to burden him with feelings he could not return.
   â⌠Kamui, do you remember being here before?â
He was scared, a feeling unknown to him. He didnât like this uncertain feeling, but he needed to know, even if it killed him on the inside.
It could be worse.
It could always be worse.
Donât dwell too much on it. It could be worse.
Kamuiâs shoulders slump for a second and he just breathes; in, slowly and deeply. Out, even slower, steadier. His hands clasp behind his back loosely, head tilting when he meets Zeroâs gaze again and the response to his question makes his eyebrows raise - and so does the expression that crosses the other maleâs face. Thereâs curiosity in his own, he can tell, but thereâs not much he can do to cover it up.
The princeâs lips purse before they part at the sound of the question, before pressing together again. It doesnât feel.. wrong. Or bad. Itâs awkward, sure, but that was just how things were. Heâs not sure what this anxiety is or where itâs coming from, but Kamui can practically feel his hands shaking behind his back.
Itâs fine.
âI do, actually!â It sounds closer to normal, for the shorter of the two at least, and Kamui rocks back onto the heels of his feet before he hums in thought. Itâs.. hard, strange maybe, to try to broach a subject like this. Memories are a fickle thing; especially in this place, he figures. You could never be sure. And itâs obvious that neither of them are. âI remember-- everything,â thereâs hesitance, but not as much as the uncertainty that drowned his voice before, ânow, at least. I didnât, for a while.. but Iâm..â and his voice hitches, before he clears it and manages a quirk of his lips, âIâm.. relieved, that I do remember. Itâs important, after all!â












