latrocinari:
Things were⦠awkward.
The feeling in the air is a lot different than he expected. Was he just imagining things? Was his feelings making things up? Or maybe there was a small chance that Kamui remembered his time here. Maybe Kamui remembered the time they shared together. Maybe Kamui remembered the feelings he had for Zero in return.
His voice felt dry and at first, he found himself unable to answer him. Had he been well? Even before Kamui left, things werenāt really that great for him. The prince leaving him just didnāt help things for him.
Ā Ā Ā ā⦠Yeah, Iāve been well. As well as I can be. But, Ā Ā Ā admittedly, Iā¦ā
I havenāt been happy, was on the tip of his tongue. The look on Zeroās face softened, the an expression that he had only shown Kamui before. The look of longing, the look of trust - it was written all on his face and in that lonely, blue eye of his.
The chance he had was there. He could always ask and if Kamui said āI donāt rememberā, then he could leave. He could bury his feelings for the prince and allow him to live his life. He didnāt need to burden him with feelings he could not return.
Ā Ā Ā ā⦠Kamui, do you remember being here before?ā
He was scared, a feeling unknown to him. He didnāt like this uncertain feeling, but he needed to know, even if it killed him on the inside.
It could be worse.
It could always be worse.
Donāt dwell too much on it. It could be worse.
Kamuiās shoulders slump for a second and he just breathes; in, slowly and deeply. Out, even slower, steadier. His hands clasp behind his back loosely, head tilting when he meets Zeroās gaze again and the response to his question makes his eyebrows raise - and so does the expression that crosses the other maleās face. Thereās curiosity in his own, he can tell, but thereās not much he can do to cover it up.
The princeās lips purse before they part at the sound of the question, before pressing together again. It doesnāt feel.. wrong. Or bad. Itās awkward, sure, but that was just how things were. Heās not sure what this anxiety is or where itās coming from, but Kamui can practically feel his hands shaking behind his back.
Itās fine.
āI do, actually!ā It sounds closer to normal, for the shorter of the two at least, and Kamui rocks back onto the heels of his feet before he hums in thought. Itās.. hard, strange maybe, to try to broach a subject like this. Memories are a fickle thing; especially in this place, he figures. You could never be sure. And itās obvious that neither of them are. āI remember-- everything,ā thereās hesitance, but not as much as the uncertainty that drowned his voice before, ānow, at least. I didnāt, for a while.. but Iām..ā and his voice hitches, before he clears it and manages a quirk of his lips, āIām.. relieved, that I do remember. Itās important, after all!ā










