i live here now

waiter! waiter! more characters grieving something they can't even remember please!

sometimes media is more delicious when stuff with major implications is very much present but also very much glossed over very quickly. like yeah that guy subtly quietly tried to kill himself and alluded to having tried before. anyway

The BEST trope is when a character tells another “let’s run away together, we can leave all of this behind and start a new life somewhere” and gets rejected. And then the rest of the tragedy unfolds

A character trait/dynamic that I'm endlessly compelled by is someone dealing with (or, like, failing to) being the child of people who were too busy being good people to have the time and attention to be good parents. This can be anywhere from 'was a public defender who gave a shit working 60 hour weeks with basically no vacations' to 'left their family behind to join the revolution/war effort and is now a universally beloved martyr-hero who saved/remade the world with their final breath' on the groundedness spectrum. The important thing is a viscerally felt but confused and ugly mess of longing, resentment, and guilt about feeling the resentment.

I should quit my job to pursue a life of meaningless violence

okay hang on let me get into sweetheart mode [rips open my ribcage and a bunch of really gross looking sludge falls out and i'm clearly in horrible pain but i'm smiling so sincerely and warmly at you through the tears in my eyes that you can almost bring yourself to ignore it]

[on my main blog] lmao yeah right as if I'm afraid of the moon [logging onto my moon fear blog] moon's been creepy lately