delulu world

and the opening of new yapping chakras

I believe that shou won’t be the best father

I really love the idea that a bad parent isn’t necessarily an unloving one

I reckon that the decision to keep their relationship as father and son makes the plot much more (I’m not sure how to put it) dramatic in a way? in their storyline, of course

It upsets me how few female espers (and characters in general) we’ve seen

not something that goes to extremes, not quite so grand or obvious

topical, subtle and inescapable

terrible

It’s hard to tell, because I don’t like leaving an idea in its infancy, and it takes a lot of effort and time for me to describe in detail how it works (in my head, at least)

I just think about the role the state might play, in theory, in all the esper-related turmoil...

the canon has touched on this topic, but in my humble opinion, it wasn't sufficiently explained, only mentioned

success trips me up and I just end up wallowing in metaphorical paint and choking on it

because I was never good enough, my mental state was severely affected during the process and I’d get up from the table in tears

I really did give up and abandon what I’d dreamed of excelling at

I haven’t drawn for the last four years.

(those sudden comebacks, which ended with torn-out sheets of paper, don’t feel like proper attempts to me)

and six months ago I simply decided that I’d wasted enough time and it was finally time to build up my drawing muscles

(people around me have noticed some progress in my sketches, but, as usual, I’m very hard on myself...)

It really gets to me that people my age are achieving amazing things.

but, for goodness’ sake, if I carry on standing still, nothing’s ever going to get any better.

I believe that in order to improve my work, it has to be there in the first place

I suppose it’s predictably—

because when characters grow up, they change (and conversely, people can be completely different as children) and this loophole inspired me so much that I got carried away and let my imagination run wild

of course, I try very hard to preserve their main traits, but for the most part I realise I’ve failed on that front

I remind myself that I’m doing this for fun and, first and foremost, for myself

and in a way, I’ve got enough imagination to come up with the strangest pairing in the fandom (or just an unpopular one)

shoumob and riteru, watch out for me

especially in the case of serirei

I think my posts are partly connected, so yes, I’m coming back to the point that katsuya’s very limited screen time has had a negative impact on how he’s perceived within the fandom

(I’m not generalising, just sharing some of my observations)

often people view him one-dimensionally, focusing mainly on the most visible consequences of his trauma – anxiety, social awkwardness, insecurity. and that’s fine, but it’s not enough to fully reveal his character? I feel there’s a lack of in-depth exploration??

what’s more, sometimes it’s the case that they make him seem far too helpless and take it to extremes

he’s a grown man. he has his struggles, and I’m sure it was hard for him to come to terms with that. but we can see him developing, even if very little screen time is devoted to it (this is particularly evident in the reigen spin-off)

serizawa is clearly not standing still (though one cannot entirely rule out his self-reflection. I do not believe that the consequences of fifteen years of isolation and working for a terrorist organisation can be overcome in six months or a year), so it saddens me when his character is reduced to a single trait

I miss seeing the characters as individuals, rather than just within the context of their romantic relationships. and whilst the situation is less critical in reigen’s case, poor serizawa, more than I wish, gets lost in the background of their great love

and in truth, however much I love serirei, I often find myself thinking that I can’t quite picture their dynamic in my head, at least not straight away

I reckon they’re quite complex to develop, because they definitely have enough issues of their own and there’s no guarantee that their union will have a positive effect on them

perhaps I’m a pessimist. but relying solely on reigen’s uninhibited nature or katsuya’s infatuation or appreciation doesn’t strike me as the best idea

I'm not saying it’s impossible or that they aren’t suited to each other. It’s just that, in my opinion, they should have more time (ideally a description of how they gradually grow closer during that period)

and they need to be seen as more independent in the eyes of the fandom (specifically in the ship context)

although, you know, highlighting the really serious disagreements between them when they’re already in a relationship sounds like a brilliant opportunity to stir up some drama!

you know, those consequences that come when you don’t talk about problems and just believe that love will fix everything. I’m evil, haha!

this is not meant as a dig at anyone, nor is it an attempt to judge anyone for their preferences (｡•‌︿•‌｡)

sweet and heart-warming take on the story is soul-soothing, but the heart-wrenching reflections on the characters' inner conflicts are what keep me going

of course, my headcanons come into play: the story gets reworked and becomes, in a sense, less straightforward thanks to what goes on behind the scenes

In the canon, toichiro is an antagonist (we are shown some of his human qualities, but ultimately he is a supervillain, and that role has stuck to him). simple and clear

but I tend to give my favourite characters more depth, even if it only exists in my imagination

I just want to believe that serizawa had an influence on toichiro, that katsuya was something of an foreign element in his life and that’s why he mattered

the hope for their complex and nuanced interactions, which go beyond mere violence and don’t fit into the standard narrative of victim and tormentor – oh, my weakness

It’s clear that I don’t think what happened between them in claw could be healthy or right