Doppioo

I don’t know why I even try. All I’m doing is turning myself into a freak faggot with no prospects when I could have at least been a soulless man with a job that no one pays attention to. I was going to become a statistic within the decade anyways, and I had to do this to make it worse.

realized how suicidal i am in the past week and i dont even want to stop it anymore. I am so cooked

whoever would design a being with so much desire to love and make connections and yet that is so completely incompetent to actually do so, is immensely cruel

I will never be a woman because real women just *exist* as women. Women don’t need to manufacture a “passing” voice. Women sometimes take estrogen, but never because they were born without feminized bodies in the first place. Women don't carry the disgusting scars of male puberty. It doesn't matter how suicidal i may be. It doesn't matter what my feelings are. It doesn't matter that as a dysphoric I am mentally ill. I am a man, and whether or not that is okay is irrelevant to reality. There is nothing to be done, and there never will be, and if I don’t make it, that just means one less neurological disorder in the gene pool.

being a repper who doesnt hate trans people is so awkward. like yes i wholeheartedly believe that I am a soulless ngmi lateshit apehon destined for the latest stages of norwood and at the same time you are completely valid. the difference? vibes

yahweh wants me to blow my shit off

i hate feeling like a creep so bad. I hate having dysphoria and being surrounded in my selfsame community by all these fucking fetishists and predators and reddit pedophiles and being told i am transphobic for not accepting them. All i wanted was to be female and it feels like a ticking time bomb before i just give up on everything

as much as god of war 2018 has been dogged on I do find the runes interesting, although i find it strange that they used old icelandic norse with elder futhark instead of younger futhark. My only guess is that elder futhark has more characters and distinguishes similar words more easily