Life is a funny thing
Seems to me Iβm just going through the motion
Everyone around me is so happy
Like whatβs all the damn commotion?
They ask what I like to do
I say I enjoy the ocean
Finding happiness is hard for me
Where is the magic potion?
My life lately is a mess
Looking like a big explosion
All the guilt and shame
Iβm the only one to blame
Each time I get sober
I pour it down the drain
There is no kind of trust
What I see in the mirror is pure disgust
I run away from love, all I ever felt was lust
I need change and fast
This disease will kill me
Thatβs a proven fact
Lying to myself
Had always been a trap
To recover is vital
My thoughts turned suicidal
I need to open up the Bible
So my soul is no longer idle
But Iβm stuck in this way of life
Bad feeling in my gut
Like I been stabbed with a knife
My addiction made me cold as ice
Iβm in a dark tunnel
Feeling as it Iβll never see the light
I canβt do this anymore
As I beg for change outside the store
My dirty feet aching and sore
My family worried to their core
Makes me wish I was never born
Lost in a cloud of smoke
No one cares to find me
As if Iβm now a ghost
Canβt buy myself a map
My habit leaves me broke
My motivation no longer present
All this hate turned to resentments
I kiss my family goodbye
As if I signed a life sentence
I want to make my mother proud
I wanna feel like Iβm in clouds
But the drugs no longer allow
So I must live without
This is the hardest battle Iβll ever fight
Will I fall down and fail
Thereβs a chance I might
But if I dont pick up today
Everything else will be alright
Some day soon my view on life will be an amazing sight
