Cherry Doll 🍒

My body is rotting one day at a time, smelling like blood and mildew ; the decay is spreading through my organs like the most infectious disease. It’s death taking me in its arms and kissing me hard, it’s death desiring me so much it’s eating me raw ♡︎

The thing I desire the most is somebody that understands me more than I understand myself, somebody who will soothe my pain and write me poems about miserable, gut wrenching love. ♡︎⁂

She was so lovely I couldn’t blame you for leaving me for her, she was a ravishing yellow daffodil folding in the wind and blooming in the sun ; I was a garish scarlet rose withered and covered in thorns, begging for some love when all I could do was hurt —Im so terribly sorry because it’s the only way I can love, it’s the only way I’ve been taught to love, will you pardon me ? Will you understand ? My milk is not sweet and gentle but mean and sour, my nurture comes with acrid poison and liquor, I haven’t been taught to be kind, I want to be kind.