A Hella Doki Doki Life

they’re gonna clean up your looks with all the lies in the books, to make a citizen out of you

RIP to a legend and a superhero

Too many false alarms can lead to stress-related disorders like, heart disease, high blood pressure, immune system disorders, migraine headaches, insomnia and sexual dysfunction.

Just like with me, you have had numerous trauma and assaults against your safety & self-esteem especially during your formative years.  

These terms sound very benign but they are central to what is causing all your problems.

Dissociation & Cognitive Dissonance

Please believe in your own abilities to study and research this in depth on your own.  You have the entire www as your library and a critical mind of what is true and what isn’t … but basically/psy101:

Dissociation - is when what ever is happening to you is so unbearable to your self-esteem & your mind protects itself with dissociation.   It’s the toggle switch betw known vs. unknown, conscious and unconscious, or in math/computer 0 & 1.

On some level, this is very helpful for your survival, usually called numbing.   Everyone does this.Even healthy people use it to keep healthy emotionally.  

but when the trauma is repetitive or extreme it can lead all the way to DID (fka MPD.) 

mid MORNING MEDITATION break

Recovery is not some pill that you take & magically things get better.

Your traumas, understandably, have over-activated your body’s survival system, and the ONLY ANSWER IS FOR YOU to re-calibrate them: all those hormones involved in depression & anxiety.

I promise that I will not give up. I understand that my body is pre-programmed and will want to automatically reset to the default setting when challenged.   This does not mean failure but a needed test on my road to more effectiveness.

I promise to remember this process is more like building a muscle than a magic pill that makes everything better.