Doe paoro

lyrics from “second door”

to be comfortable

* NEW SONG OUT TODAY *

I have a new song coming out next week:

WALK THROUGH THE FIRE

I get asked every once in a while what “Doe Paoro” means. Doe Paoro is my mission statement to myself — it’s the combination of a few different creation myths involving women, and the intention was to give myself space and  permission to rewrite the story I have about myself as a woman, to rewrite the mythology we have about women. 

Truthfully, it has always been a struggle for me to embrace the feminine in myself. I am still learning. For a long time, I resented my femininity; somehow internalized it as weak because thats the message I absorbed from society as a child, and children are so perceptive. I was extremely aggressive then, and I know it’s because I was somehow aware of that conflict inside of me from a young age. How to be as strong as I wanted to be and how to be a woman.

My reprogramming has been tuning in with the mystical power of being a woman, of all the epics ways we create, dream, manifest, birth, heal, emote, intuit. Finding inspiration from other female artists. Making amazing female friendships has been a part of my healing. This year I started playing with an all-female band which feels right and safe.  Happy International Women’s Day. Here’s to all of us, rewriting what it means to be woman every day, opening to possibility.

See you tonight, Los Angeles

We play Resident DTLA at 10pm

GUILTY

Your boys met me at the gates

Dangled keys and hazed

with promised fates.

I wish I could unknow what it's like to have my body made a battlefield.

They paid until I owed,

felt so trapped

like I'd been bought and sold.

While they played power games, got stoned,

I blamed myself and forgot who was in control.

I've walked too deep inside a man's world,

Lost my strength

Forgotten what I came for

And I know I'm not the first,

that you've made defend her word.

When I refuse to be coerced,

somehow I'm subversive?

I'll take the blacklist, I'll do time

but I'm not guilty.

So why do I feel guilty?

As the gavel pounds,

touch my navel and I know deep down:

came all this way to see the shape your silhouette makes

when you turn from me.

I've walked too deep inside a man's world,

Lost my strength

Forgotten what I came for

And I know I'm not the first,

that you've made defend her word.

When I refuse to be coerced,

somehow I'm subversive?

I'll take the blacklist, I'll do time

but I'm not guilty.

So why do I feel guilty?

Can I forgive myself, for myself? Too heavy to carry.

Heading out to play a few California shows this week with The Mynabirds.

We will be in Santa Cruz at The Catayst on 1/23 

San Francisco at Cafe du Nord on 1/25

New song out today --  GUILTY --

If you have seen me perform in the last 6 months, you’ve probably heard me talk about this song, because it’s one that is deeply personal and important to me.  I composed "Guilty" in October 2016, in London – it was the final song that I wrote for my upcoming record, and that wasn’t a coincidence. I waited until the last minute (we were going into production three days later) because of the resistance, fear, and overall heaviness that I faced within myself when considering putting words to an experience that had left me feeling, quite honestly, voiceless.

Of course, this was all before the #metoo activation began. Time has been both cruel and kind in showing me that I am not alone in my experience. It’s so hard to speak up sometimes.